at last it's Friday!

i would resort to a happy dance in my chair but i will refrain myself....

what an interesting week it has been, i'm still reeling over Anna Nicole's death yesterday, i mean you know it was inevitable but still you held out hope. i've been reading lots of articles and the one on msn sumed it up the best, why were we so facinated with her? she was a train wreck and i think the instinct in all of us was for someone to help her get her life on track, sadly, that never happend....i'm sure will be hearing lots more on this over the next several months and years

it's still bitterly cold here in my corner of the woods and i'm so sick of the cold and wishing that i could go away some palace warm and sip one of those fruity alcoholic drinks.....ah one can dream though can't they?

what did everyone make of LOST the other night? would like to here what other's thought

only 2 more episodes of the O.C i'm actually quite sad about this and i'm sure i'll bawl my head off during the final show

and that's about all i got for today, i'm looking forward to having a lazy weekend with some housework in there as my house is terribly dirty and i have tons of laundry to do

stay safe and stay warm ~ brrrrrr~ it's freaking cold out there!

goodbye Anna Nicole, goodbye

as some of you may or may not yet know (i'm sure you do), Anna Nicole Smith has passed away today. despite all the jokes, the puns and her wacked out life, she was a person, she has a family, a 5 month old daughter who will never know her mother.....

so i'd like to take a moment and say rest in peace Anna Nicole and pause and remember you back in the day when you looked normal and beautiful (and not on drugs and or TrimSpa,ooops that was a bad and not really funny...)

what the frock happend to John Travolta?!

did anyone else see Oprah last night? and did anyone else just happen to notice how freaky JT looked? or was it just me? comparing him to Tim Allen and William H. Macy he looked almost in-human.....

he looked a little too worked on, the hair (plugs i'm sure), the face (one to many nip/tucks) he was shiny people, SHINY!! honestly i was sort of frightened. now i love JT (Grease is my all time fav) but why, WHY submit us and yourself to this can't you age gracefully? guess he's yet another victim of Hollywood...

in other news i'm doing better mentally, it's been a battle

i've been super stressed, over tired, cranky and having major headaches, so in lieu of all this i decided to take yesterday off as a "sick" day aka a mental health day. do i feel guilty. no. well mabye a little. and i have not been feeling great so in a way i was sick and i am sort of stuffed up and could very well be coming down with a cold, but they don't need to know that....

also my biggest loser challenge is still going strong, although i have yet to lose any weight (and i probably won't i think i've peaked) but, i'm still doing exercises at least 3-4 times a week and i do feel better, things feel tighter and even some pants are fiting me better! mind u i haven't really changed my eating pattern but i do write down everything i eat, and i don't eat after 7 that is one rule i stick too. my goal is to lose at least 10 pounds, so hopefully....but if not i would be happy to just be toned up and turn that fat into muscle. buh bye fat!!

that's really all that's new with me, just trudging along singing my same old song....

i just want to thank everyone for the kind helpful words of encouragement in my previous post i never got around to responding to you all

til we meet again :P

isn't it funny...

how you meet somebody or more so "know" of them and then they continue to pop up randomly over the years, and you think oh yeah i knew her back in _____ and _______ and you just continue on your merry way, and then the next time you hear of this said person it's not good news at all

in fact it's terrible news

finding out that this person, who i've known of but never actually knew has been killed in a car accident is a low blow. i'm not sure why. what made her have such a lasting impression on me, i know i was severely jealous and envious of her as she was super cute, skinny and she seemed to have everything, but i never knew her (if i had known her i would've known that she was battling cancer that first time i met her and that in fact she didn't have everything) and i'm sure she never remembered me. so why would it effect me so, i mean sure it's really sad and devastating as she had 3 kids and was only 33 i mean 33!! like that's just wrong to die so young with so much ahead of you, and i mean it could happen to anyone, anytime any place, but i keep coming back as to why it's really upsetting me and i keep coming back to nothing

i personally believe that everything happens for a purpose and or reason, or that it's all mapped out and were on the moving track doing what we are "ment" to do. perhaps she was ment to keep popping up in my life over the years, was it coincidence that she just so happended to have worked with my cousin, was it coincidence that we voulenteered our time at a local charity/auction one night, or that she used to go to my hairdresser???

just plain weird and funny but not like haha funny

i've been doing the same thing that i did when a close friend of mine was killed at such a young age, i imagine myself waking up in the morning, dreading my day, looking forward to watching Ugly Betty or whatever and just doing my typical mundane things that i do every day, not knowing that it's my last day, not knowing i won't see my loved ones again. i often wonder what goes thru there minds in that last instant, what did they see/feel? did they know they were going to die? i think this is what haunts me most. i never used to be scared of death but as i'm getting older, the realization sinks in that we are not imortal, we aren't here forever and we should savor the time we are here

lame but true

stay safe ~ peace out :P

it's a new day

no more whining, bitching, rantings, complainings whatever's about work related stuff...

i'm stickig to what's important:

my health & happiness
staying close to loved ones and friends
being positive and not dwelling on the negatives in life (ahem work)
not worrying about things that i cannot control

it's a new day and a new attitude

blah blah blah and oh yeah blah!

so my life is a wee bit chaotic and anxiety filled lately, not sure why, oh wait i do know why it's all connected to work.

u see about 2 wks ago it was casually mentioned that "hey, we don't currently feel that your living up to your potential so were going to move you to the dungeon aka downstairs, to another department where we feel u are better suited", thus leaving me highly confused and a little excited as i initally from the start wished to be in this position where they are moving me too, but yet at the same time hurt. make sense? probably not, but over that week my emotions were/are in turmoil and after that 1st brief encounter nobody has said boo to me about anything, thus my anxiety runs full throttle and i've become parnoid and a bit resentful. so finally about a 1 1/2 later i can't stand it anymore and corner my supervisor and ask wtf is up. i wanted to cry, scream as all these emotions needed to come out. although he couldn't really provide me with any more info than what i already knew it did somewhat make me feel better, and i do get a somewhat piddly raise, but, i'll happily take what i can get as we are lacking in funds right now.....

anyways

so that about brings me to date, i am now back with the intial company i started out with, they have yet to decide if i am offically moving to the dungeon, although i think it's inevitible as i really can't see how i can be the only person working from upstairs when everyone else is down....but whatever, what the fuck do i know??! i'm still highly confused and to top all that off i'm somewhat sick to my stomache today, or perhaps it's nerves....or i have once again caught the GD flu, as everyone and their dog has been freaking sick lately.

sigh

and did i mention my freaking head hurts too!

change is a good thing right? then why does it feel like the rug has been pulled out from underneath me? and that my gut feeling is that they want to stick me back on the main front lines, the dreaded "receptionist" position? overall i feel like i've been given the run around and i am quite tempted to search for another job, yet, they are so hard to find and i hate to start the whole procedure over again. and they do treat me somewhat good here, sometimes...despite the shitty bonus and the crap they've put me thru the last 2 wks

what to do, what to do

i need a drink, that's what i need, or a good cry, mabye both........

who would've thought...

you know back in 1994 my favorite show on the whole planet was "My So Called Life", i loved this show and everything about it, but, more importantly i loved Jared Leto who played the hot yummy love interest for Claire Danes, but even more sadly due to another new show Friends stealing the ratings this show was canned after only 1 awsome, life altering season.

ah the memories

i even had multiple posters, pics (swipped from a teen mag i'm sure) hanging/taped in my locker, one very similar to this in fact....

so what my question is how can one go from this, total, undeniable hotness to this????!!!!:

positively SCARY!!!! like what the hell has happend to you Jordan...ahem Jared i mean. i get that you probably didn't dig all the young screaming girls screaming at you and calling you a "pin up" but honestly did you have to go quite this far?? and i also get that your in some sort of punk rock band but still they have cute lead singers.....take the guy that fronts All American Rejects, he's totally yummy and doesn't look like he's a vampire reject.

sigh i miss the good old days

Popples

here's the best pic i came across, guess it was also a cartoon back in the 80's, the one i had was white and blue (i think), and one year for Christmas this was all i wanted

update: just found this over at Wikipeda

Popples were characters in a Saturday morning cartoon by the same name that aired in the United States from 1986 to 1987. They first appeared in a one-time Shelly Duvall special called "It's Popple Time", in which they were puppets and marionettes. The special went over very well, so it was decided to make a cartoon series with the same characters. Popples were created by Those Characters From Cleveland (TCFC), a subsidiary company of American Greetings, and the plush toys were manufactured by Mattel. The cartoon was produced by DiC Entertainment and LBS Communications in association with The Maltese Companies.
Popples resemble brightly colored teddy bears with long tails tipped with pompoms. They have pouches on their backs that can be everted, so they are in the pouches. The name "Popple" is a reference to the popping sound they make when unfolding themselves from such a ball. In the cartoon Popples commonly pull large items from their pouches that couldn't possibly fit inside, which presumably come from hammerspace.
The Popples live with a brother and sister, Billy and Bonnie. Billy and Bonnie think they are the only kids who have Popples until a neighbor family moves in and they have their own Popples, the Rock stars, Pufflings and babies. The Popples tend to come around and mess up whatever the kids are trying to do, such as if they are trying to brush their teeth the Popples end up spilling water, toothpaste and soap all over the bathroom. If the kids are trying to clean their rooms, the Popples come along, mess up the room even worse and then help them get everything back to normal just in the nick of time. The plot revolved around the children's efforts to hide the existence of the Popples from the adults around them.

when i was growing up...

a little trip down memory lane......

~one of my favorite shows to watch was Reading Rainbow
~other favorites consisted of Seasme Street, Mr. Dress Up, and Sharon, Lois and Bram
~Ernie was initally my favorite character on Seasme Street and i did a mean impression of his laugh
~ other favorites: snuffy, grover, oscar and of course cookie monster
~my first pet (that i remember) was Sassy (my poodle) and she was my dog, i loved her more than anything
~i had a popple
~ i also had a pound puppy
~i loved to go visit my grandmother after school, she would usually fed me donuts and we would watch All my children, or do word search puzzles
~my first recollection of having a crush was in the 4th grade, i liked him for years afterwords to no avail
~i was terribly shy and quiet until junior high
~i once sang "i think were alone now" with three other girls in front of the entire class
~my favorite group was New Kids on the Block (jordan was my fav)
~ i have lots of memories of my sister and I and other various local kids (mostly neighbors) playing house, in the cluster of woods beside our house
~ i idolized my sister, she was the one i ran to if something wen't wrong at school
~ i remember lot's of camping trips with the family, and how i got stuck sleeping on the inside (by the tarp "fake" wall) of the bed in that old camper of ours (thanks sissy! :P)
~ i knew the Phantom of the Opera by heart
~ i was in brownies and girl guides
~ i played basketball but wasn't really all that into it, just did it becuz my sister and everyone else in the fam dam did, that, and it was the only sport our school offered besides badmintion and honestly who would submit themselves to that....sadly i did for like 1 year in the 7th grade... ~ i lost a tooth by eating a crunchy/burnt french fry
~ i once, during a winter storm (not sure why) stuck my tongue to the outside front door, and of course it froze to it, needless to say momentary panic ensued, but i did eventually break free without too much damage
~ i thought that chucky lived in my closet
~ i also thought that my toys/teddy bars came to life at night time
~ i also thought that during a full moon i would invision a person's eye filling that moon as if peering in on us from another world...i had a vivid imagination....
~ i had a skip it, it was blue
~ i never dared/could do a kart wheel, my one attempt to do so almost resulted in me breaking my wrist, i never tried again
~ my dad was my hero
~ i remember one time he came to pick me up at school during recess for something (prob a dentist appt) and i was so embarassed as it was just wrong for him to be there with my friends watching, those two worlds should never collide! (at least that's what i thought)
~ i was quite a sick kid really, with my asthma and allergies, thankfully i don't remember most of it but i do remember my allergy test (excruciating) and getting lots of aerosol treatments
~ i loved the noon hour sock hops
~ my first encounter with Stephen King was in the 5th grade, our homeroom teacher read us "the eyes of the dragon", i was mesmerized
~ oh how i hated math classes
~ i almost failed a couple of times actually, but due to it being a small school i think they just pushed me thru out of the goodness of there heart
~ strangely enough i enjoyed biology
~ i got to discet a cow's eye in this class (so Awsome!)
~ i had a crush on my older cousin (i know so lame and grose but as if anything would ever come of it) but everyone else in the school did too, and i tend to be a follower sometimes....
~ at his graduation i asked him to save a "slow" dance for me in front of all my friends (thinking i was so cool!) and he said yes, sadly, he left and never gave me my 4/5 minutes of fame to rub it in to all my friends :( i was morified and left crying
~ another favorite t.v. show in my tweens/teens was full house and saved by the bell, i think i saw every episode and i loved Zack (still do)
~ i had paula abdul's "straight up now tell me" CD
~ i also loved, loved Millie Vinillie's "girl u know it's true" song before the big scandal
~ i used to tape songs from the radio all the time
~ i played my nintendo all the time, espically my little mermaid game. i so kicked ass in this game!!!!
~ i had a my child doll, remember those? sort of a much fanicer version of a cabbage patch doll, and i loved her more than life it's self
~ i had a jordan knight poster on my ceiling so every night he would be the last thing i saw
~ i also had a really cool poster showing the top of the ocean and then the under neath, with all the fishy's & dolphins, this thing was huge (floor to ceiling) and i loved to stare into it
~ i had a teddy bar called carmel, and his girlfirend was jilly's bear lilly
~ i remember one time both jill and i had strep throat and we were at her mom's house, both sicker than dogs and sharol making chicken noodle soup (my fav), unfortunately, it didn't stay down and i didn't make it to the bathroom in time
~ one of my first memories of seeing a movie in theater was going to see Robin Hood (with Kevin Coster), i loved this movie and was sooo in love with Christian Slater
~ i remember packing a suit case and wanting to run away (dont remember why now) and making it clear down the road before my sister came and got me, i was bound and determined to go somewhere
~ we (sissy & jilly) used to make up dance routines and perform them on the lawn
~ we (sissy & jilly) also used to cut our barbies hair and style it with gel/moose along with designing them cool outfits that we made from cutting up old nylon stockings and any other fabric we could find

Golden Globes - the "good"

so i did end up having time today to run down my fav dresses of the night (a meeting was cancelled that i was supposed to have been in this afternoon), so, here we go!!

Honorable Mentions: St. Angelina herself, even though i'm still not really sure if i totally dug the dress (it was dark grey afterall) but needless to say she was still breathtakingly stunning, Ali Larter and Hayden Pinette from the show hero's which i still have yet to start watching and Hilary Swank



1st up is Reese Witherspoon, also recently split from her just as cute ex Ryan Phillippe, now cameron diaz should take notes, this is how you attend an awards show showing everybody that you are single and HOT! at first i hated the dress, but the more i looked at it i luv it, and her hair is smoking!! in fact i may just try to mimmick this the next trip to my salon...anyways my main point of focus here is her Red, yes RED shoes!!! so freaking hot & sexy and i so want a pair of these!! You go Girl!












next up is America's sweet heart America Fiera (i'm too lazy to google her and get the proper spelling), better known as Betty from the hit show Ugly Betty. now this is a girl that young women/girls should look up too and want to aspire too. she's a real women with curves and shape, and beautiful on the inside and out, and she pulls off this gown spectacularly. luv the color, luv how happy she is and way to go on snagging best actress in a comedy! you so deserve it












up next is Drew Barrymore, remember last year's show where she showed up not sporting a bra in a whore-en-dous green ensamble? so sad yet it's almost worth it to see her here like this. she looks AMAZING! the dress hugs her in all the right places and the healthy tan just makes her look so relaxed and flawless, luv everything about this look, here's to hoping she's on a comeback as i luv her from way back













i think this is Helen Mier? Meir?? can't remember, anyways, man if i look this good when i get up to her age.....wow, simply amazing, classsy, and perfect. the color is superb what else can u say really?


































and lastly, i've saved my favorite for last and it's none other than Jennifer Lopez, man would i love to be her for like a day, or better yet have access to her wardrobe for a day. geesh. she's just so gosh darn perfect it's almost sickening but yet you can't help but love her at the same time for channeling her inner goddess in this dress. the dress, the hair, it all is goregous! simply amazing

Golden Globe fashion run down

will start off with none other than the "bad" or "wurst" of the evening

honorable mentions go to: Vanessa Williams, Gillian Anderson, Jennifer Love Hewitt


who better to start off with than the diva herself, miss Beyonce, now not only is she really striking quite the "diva" pose here, and thinking that she is really working this gold dress, which of course hugs all her bootylicious curves, which normally would be a good thing but sadly this shiny gold number really doesn't do it for her, and neither does the tacky, icky blonde hair extensions, she looks like a fake plastic doll or something, it's just wrong on so many levels, sorry B but you get an F on this one













next up is recently dumped Cameron Diaz, oh boy, where to start here and be nice about it......hate the dark hair, it really needs to go, go back to your happy perky blonde days, and the dress, oh boy the dress, girl one would think where you were attending an awards show where your ex is going to be at, you would want to look amazing and make him green with envy, unfortunately for you i think u just confirmed why justin just dumped your ass....to many ruffles, the color is whore-en-dous, and yeah, it's just all around nasty













next up is nicolette sheridan from the not so much hit show (at least not for me, i haven't watched once this year...) Desperate Housewives, and that's about what she is Desperate, with a capitol D. she never, ever chooses a gown that i say, wow, she looks really amazing or better yet at least current and hip and in this decade, when was the last time a mermaid skirt was cool? the 80s?? ick i hate this dress so badly! time to move on














now i really wanted to give patricia arquette the benefit of the doubt, i love her show and i love her (she's a great actress and she's proud of her "normal" curvy figure) so i wasn't go to be all harsh on her ass, but frankly she deserves it. like what the hell. what's up with the black bra like top, and the icky, dull grey color, or better yet why if you know that you are curvy would you pick such an un-flattering dress? and to top all that off, her hair is well nasty to say the least, sorry girl but you could have done, way ,way better and where's your cute adorable hubby??












and lastly, i can't remember this girls name but i think she stares in the movie babel, if that tells you anything. but i just couldn't resist this, i mean she had to know that she would be put on several worst lists by chossing this, or perhaps that's what she was going for.....better to be on that than fall into the just "meh" category and be totally forgetten. overall i like the soft purple color but it stops there, the floating balls, the black shoulders and her bleach blonde hair really washes her out, in fact i almost feel somewhat sorry for her, but she had to know before she left her house what she looked like, so i don't, you my dear are by far the wurst dressed of the night, even beating out over the top beyonce in her golden shiny number

Tagged Again!

A - Available/Single or Taken? sadly i am taken, although i still look :) mwhaaa!
B - Best Friend? Sissy and Jilly
C - Cake or pie? cake
D - Drink Of Choice? is this with alcohol? guess not....water i guess
E – Essential Item You Use Everyday? toilet paper
F - Favourite Color? blues, purples and browns
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms? Neither
H - Hometown? Canterbury, NB
I - Indulgence? chocolate and or shopping for myself
J - January Or February? February, because winter's closer to an end! (agree withWC here)
K - Kids & Their Names? have none at this time (thank GOD!)
L - Life Is Incomplete Without? family and friends (and my pets)
M - Marriage date? August 23, 2003
N - Number Of Siblings? 1 older sissy
O - Oranges Or Apples? Apples
P - Phobias/Fears? the dark, pretty much every insect on the planet
Q - Favourite Quote? "make love not war", some hippie chick/dude
R - Reason to Smile? waking up every day healthy and alive
S - Season? Spring or Fall? spring
T - Tag 3 or 4 people? Nancy Drew, Miss 1999, Beth
U - Unknown Fact About Me? my arms are double jointed
V - Vegetable you don’t like? califlower
W - Worst Habit? chewing my nails
X-rays You’ve Had? knee
Y - Your Favorite Food? french fries, ice cream
Z – Zodiac sign? Leo

i've been tagged

by Sadie Lou, mind you it's a little late, but better late than never......

3 things I got this (past) year for Christmas:

my fav gift hands down was from the hubs, and it's my pink, yes pink, razor cell phone *luv's it! will eventually take a pic of me with it and show u all, HEE!!

hubs did well this year as he also bought me a perfect, dainty, silver dressy watch for me, that even has some bling bling on it, or fake bling bling, but whatever it's still sparklie and suits me to a tee

and lastly my mommy bought me a really nice sheet set that matches my bedroom perfectly, and who can't use a nice sheet set?

honorable mentions: Stephen King's latest book (Lisey's Story), thanks Auntie Sharol!, really cool sweater from Old Navy from my mother in law, which i was surprized as she usually gets me really fugly stuff that i end up giving away....but shhh don't tell the hubby....., a whole box filled with Dessert makeup - lotions from my sissy, so i smell super sweet, and a bunch of other stuff that i can't remember

3 things to not buy me next year:

this is actually sort of hard....

umm note to mother in law, please do not buy me clothes from Northern Reflections ever again! EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
photo albums, i have enough already!
cook books, ok i take the hint i should learn to cook but really lay off

so that's that

oh yeah and 3 pps i want to spread the joy too:

McBlogger
Nancy Drew
Ben O

or who ever feels like it :P

friday freeplay (3)

5 songs i can't get enough of

Pink - U and Ur Hand Tonight (luv this!!)

Gwen Stefani - Sweet Escape

Champion - No Heaven

Mario Vasquerez - Gallery

K- Os - Sunday Morning (he's Canadian, so you probably haven't heard of him the in States but i highly recommend you check his music out, like seriouisly)

Read this and SIGN

http://helpnazanin.com/

i just stumbled across this on CTV's website @ www.ctv.ca

if you read this article and don't sign the petition (espically as a women) then you have no heart

please do the right thing and Sign the petition NOW

that's all i have to say about that

:)

i have been challenged

yes my friends it is offical, i have signed up here at the office for.....

are ya ready


THE BIGGEST LOSER CHALLENGE aka BLC

and the topper of this cake is that not only did i sign up but i'm my teams team leader. which is really almost sort of comical but i'm hoping to turn it around and really focus on the task at hand.

right

but no really, i'm taking this very seriousily, honest and it's not really about losing the weight (well sort of) but more importantly living my life healthy and choosing healthy "food" choices, which i so do not do right now

so today is day 1

we have weighed and measured our selves and honestly i'm ok with what i way, which really scared the bee jebus out of me but i know what i have to do and by all that is holy i am going to do it.

yes my friends i have sworn myself off of mcdonald's

sob :(

but it had to be done

next step in the works is to actually cut french fries entirely from the diet but that one is going to be ruff , but i shall try, or at least only have them once a week

and i'm taking this all in stride, i'm going to try to exercise 4-5 times thru the week and i'm even contemplaiting purchasing one of thos pedometer counter thingies

so bring it on team 2, bring it on!!!

p.s. god i hope i can stick with this for the 3 months........

say IT is SO!

omg

omg

please someone out their in blog land back up perez hilton and tell me it is true that JT & that whore (not really, i do like her but just not with him) Cameron Diaz!!

like holy friggin shit i think i just creamed my panties !!!!!!!!!

now he can totally save brit brit and they can live happily ever after as they are so ment to be together, you know what they say about first loves and they totally were!!!

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

you know i probably should be ashamed of myself right now but i'm soooo not! one would think i was like 12 years old, sadly that isn't the case......

tops & flops of 2006

well it's the end (well almost) of 2006 and i'm bored @ work and frankly do not feel like doing another GD thing, thanks the lords there is now only 2 more hrs to burn here, mind u i could actually get quite a lot accomplished as there are only like 4 people actually here today but meh

so instead i would rather rate my tops (aka highs) & flops (lows) of 2006, personally and of course media celeb wise

so starting in no order

my fav NEW t.v. shows : Ugly Betty, Daybreak
wurst T.V. show but yet i can't help but watch: Flavor of Love 2
Best Reality T.V.: So you think u can dance, American Idol and Dancing with the stars 2
some old fav's: Grey's Anatomy, Smallville, LOST, Medium
fav movies: Step Up, The Departed, Casino Royale
top songs: Nelly Furtado "Promiscious girl", Shakira "Hips Don't Lie", Justin Timberlake "SexyBack", Rhianna "SOS", Sean Paul "Temperature", All American Rejects "Move Along",
fav new Band: All American Rejects
fav female celeb: Kate Winslet
fav male celeb: Channing Tatem
wurst/most hated female celeb: Britney Spears
runner up: Paris Hilton
wurst/most hated male celeb: Tom Cruise
runner up: Kevin ahem K-Fed Federline
the births of baby Suri, Shiloh and Kingston James

some personal highlights for me this year:

getting my promotion (SWEET)
getting my OWN office (even sweeter!)
visiting my sissy not once but TWICE
taking in the sights in Toronto
SEPHORA!
shopping @ the Eaton Centre
SEPHORA!!!!!
the Toronto Zoo
attending Lindsey & Andrew's wedding in Kingston
vacationing in PEI
taking belly dancing lessons
attending brother in laws wedding in St-Andrews (and getting sloshed at the reception)
getting my new precious pink Razor (cell phone) for Christmas!!!!
Miss Jilly moving back home!
purchasing my flat iron, oh how i can't imagine what i ever did before hand
seeing Guns & Roses LIVE!!


some not so personal highlights:

being sick like how many freaking times (i've lost count)
dis-locating my knee & breaking a bone piece off and having to have surgery
having SURGERY people! scared to DEATH!
being locked in a public washroom for like 5+ minutes
losing my uncle Orville in a car accident
having sore ribs for like a month
attack of the killer house flys , so traumatizing

merry Christmas!!

just wanted to take a quick sec and wish you all a

very

very

merry

CHRISTMAS!!!

have a drink, eat some food and spend time with the ones you love, there's no better way to do it folks!

~cheers~

quickie

omygosh i have way to much info/crap/stuff/lists running thru my brain right now i am in an utter frantic panic and there is no way to possibly contain it any longer

~shopping~

~wrapping~

~delivering gifts~

~cooking~ (ha who am i kidding) but i would like too......

~cleaning~

sigh

it's all rather a bit much and having a lack of $$ in the bank account isn't the nicest feeling either (cursing that GODDAMN bonus yet again, but i'm supposed to have stored that far far away, so i'm sorry for the re-lapse)

so i'm now feeling somewhat guilty as a co-worker got me a lovely present that it just to cute beyond words and honestly i hadn't thought of getting her anything (well i did fleetingly but i thought that surely we wouldn't be doing that here, or perhaps i was wishing we wouldn't as i am a rather selfish person and i don't have the extra cash to spend on yet another gift...) anyways i'm totally rambling, i got a gift and now i should buy her one, but i don't know what, and then i got to thinking that perhaps i should buy cards for everyone in the office as i don't want to exclude anyone or hurt anyone's feelings.......god it's a never ending cycle and i totally should have done this or thought of this weeks ago but sadly i'm not to swift on the up kick and i'm stuck at the last minute trying to scramble for ideas

phew!

that was quite the little burst of energy/words that have been pent up ALL day! i sort of feel a little better, but not entirely. is it time to leave yet? i have to get groceries, pick up this and that and i'm sure i'll forget something......

just plain sick

so i've been down and out with a terrible bout of the flu (i will spare you all the traumatic details, and trust me they are traumatic) and today is my first "full day" back at work and i'm freaking exhausted and drained already and it's not even past 10:00 yet.

sigh

i guess that's what being out 2 1/2 days in flu hell will do to a person

on the positive side of things i have lost like 8 pounds which i'm sure as soon as my appetite comes back in full force i will put back on in one consumption of sweets, treats and what nots (it is Christmas people) but i'm enjoying being slimmer even if it's only for a few days

other notes, i have been extremely grumpy lately this may be due to my bout of the flu or perhaps i'm just a grinch but i'll be happy, greatful to have this season done and over with, i have several lists in my head that need to be completed yet no idea where to officially start and it stresses me the heck out, thus not making me a happy camper

oh

and also

instead of getting the "christmas cash bonus" that i was oh so ever anticipating this year as i was really hoping to at least pay off one of my evil credit cards, sadly, did not happen. nope. instead i got a $100 gift card to a local grocery store, which by the way i don't even shop at.....anyhoo..... how's that for a slap in the face. totally am not happy about this and not sure if i should break the breach and say something as i don't want to seem ungreatful (when really i am sort of) but frankly i don't think it's fair or right do to give us this without an explanation of some sort.......am i being wrong here?? i could explain the situation further but frankly i'm sort of tired now and irritated beyond words and yeah. i'm out

happy friday :P

latest happenings

not a whole lot really yet i seem to be really busy at the same time......

tis the season

so

seems like i'm not the only one as other blogs that i frequent have also been slow on the new postings/updates, everone is busy busy busy

has anyone out there actually switched to thew new "betta" blogger yet? they seem to be pushing it extremely hard and yet i'm very hesitant to actually switch as i'm totally lacking the in the computer technology department and i would really hate to lose all my archives as i like to look back and see what/how i was feeling at that time, sort of like your old journal that you just can't throw out, no matter how ratty and beat up it is......so if anyone has switched i would like the down low, is it better, worse?? i'm dying to know!

my office Christmas party is this friday i'm somewhat looking forward to it and i bought a steller new top that i can't wait to wear, now if i can figure out what i want to do with my hair i'll be all set to go

i've also pretty much got my shopping nipped in the butt this year i only have a few more gifts to buy and hubby's stocking stuffers and i'm done

we've got our house all decked out in Christmas trimmings now if only we had our tree......

is anyone else out there tuning into the new show Daybreak on ABC? this is an AWSOME show and if you aren't watching u need too, it's currently filling my LOST void on Wednesday nights and it's got a killer interesting story and Taye Diggs to boot (he's so SEXY!) so i'm anxious for tonights episode as it's just one of those shows you hate to wait for

speaking of t.v shows how freakin awsome is the O.C. this year? it's so much better now without Marissa on it and i'm so lovin Taylor & Ryan! Taylor is really making the show between her and Julie Cooper i dunno who i laugh at more, i give major kudos to the writers and the actors, they are right on performance, keep em comin!

other new: work is well going, exercise not so much and life in general is pretty good

oh and did i mention we are Finished DONE with evil November for another year!! SWEET!

til we meet again, i'm out :P

bringing Whoville to life

so recently my fellow co-workers and myself submitted a float in our local Christmas parade, here are some pics and i'm pretty sure you'll be able to figure out what we were portraying......

(Andi-Ann Who, Lissa-Lou Who, Cindy Lou Who (me), and Mandy-Mae Who, and oh yeah the Grinch)

some last minute touches.....

the ginch's mountain/home

and lastly Andi-Ann Who with her cute as a button nephew Aiden

and sadly despite all our efforts we only came in 3rd, we were totally robbed!!!!

Friday Freeplay - take 2

5 songs i'm listening too this week

Say it Right - Nelly Furtado

Patience - Guns and Roses

Gods Gonna Cut U Down - Johnny Cash

Hero - Foo Fighters

Tell Me - Diddy feat Christina Aguilera

GNR Review

one word people, well two really.....

FUCKING AWSOME!!!!

they blew me away, it was unbelieveable and i'm still stunned/amazed and it's now 2 days later. as you know i'm not a huge fan, i'm really more of a tag along fan as my hubby is quite possibly the biggest "Axel" fan out there, honestly, he like worships him or something, so i was going into this thing with my doubts and lot's of headache medication on hand as some of there stuff just plain gives me a headache. i'm proud to say that i didn't need it, i was rocking it out with everyone else and this was a non-stop, loud, fast, furious, ride that i did not want to end. any doubts that these guys could not pull it off are long gone, Axel sounded amazing and was dead on with his performance, and the new guys (i can't remember all there names but check themout here : www.newgnr.com ) were all top of the game performers. so if you haven't checked out there tour dates i encourage you to do so, and get your tickets now, trust me you have to see it, the electricity/anticpation in the air before they took the stage was just so beyond words, i'm so glad that we wen't and didn't let this pass us by

other performers of the evening were some band i can't remember the name of, but they were pretty good, The Suicide Girls, who were so called "burlesque" dancers but in my opinion they were strippers, and we got to see plenty of titties, which made hubby happy and had me secretly wishing that i could join them and become a member myself (GASP!) mind u i'd have to lose at least 20 pounds to get up there and be half nekid on stage, and the opening act to GNR was none other then a local Canadian band (i consider Nova Scotia local as it's only a province away) The Trews (to check them out go here www.thetrewsmusic.com ), they were freaking awsome too and really put there guts and soul into there performance, true die hard rock musician's fer sure, i loved them and must pick up there album like now!

all in all it was a long night as GNR didn't take the stage until midnight and played well into 2:00AM so we didn't get home (2 hr drive to concert site) until after 4:00 AM i just thank god i had enough sense to take the following day off as i'm stilln ot 100% yet and still really tired and feeling like ASS, guess that's what staying awake for 23hrs will do to a person.....

anyways, happy turkey day to all my U.S. bloggers, stay safe and have a piece of pie or something sweet for me would ya..... :P

drunken flea flea take 3....or is it 4...??

you know it really doesn't take much to make me a happy little flea flea

first of all i received my Sephora order (aka Christmas gift to myself, a little early...) which totally lifted me out of my "down in the dumps" phase and i now smell positively delightful as i purchased body wash and lotion that is just scrumpshious and makes me want to lick myself all day long as it's so yummy....

and

secondly

me and miss jilly wen't out (all by our lonessome's as several friends bailed on us but hey i give us major props for still going out as normally we would've just given in and not even bothered...but anyways that's off the topic.....) and man did we ever have a fantastic time!

highlight of the evening had to go to when i was dancing on this stage like area thingy doing my thing and two, count em TWO! super hot, YOUNG! guys jump up on the stage and head for little ole me, thus sandwhiching me between the two of them as we dance, grind, and shake our asses and oh yeah baby it was so FUCKING HOT!!!!! miss jilly almost peeded her pants laughing her ass off at me and when i was finished and came off the stage all she could muster was that they looked like fucking they were Abercromie & Fitch models!! SWEET!!!!

to much fun fer sure and the rest of it's sort of a blur but i recall repeatadly calling some guy dirty dan (his name was Dan) and jill and i snickering over it......asking some guy that i just met last weekend on my last "outing" for a smoke (miss jilly was plain out of) and lot's and lot's of dancing, in fact i can still not walk right today, i feel like the Tin Man from the Wizard of OZ as my legs just won't bend and they hurt so bloody bad! but man it was so worth it and i can't wait until the next time we go out....HEE!!! SO BAD!! i luv it

Friday Freeplay

five current songs i can't get enough of

Smack That - Akon ft Eminem

Irreplaceable - Beyonce

Wind It Up - Gwen Stefani

When Your Heart Stops Beating - +44

It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects

happy friday all have a great weekend!

peace out :P

down and out

so well all know how much i hate november and honestly i couldn't possibly be any more down in the dumps, i'm feeling terribly sorry for myself and want nothing more than to curl up in my dark bedroom under my cozy, comfy, fuzzy blanket that i love oh so much (purchased at HomeSense, luv that store!), anyways, back to my whining, and lay there and cry and cry and cry some more, i've also been suffering from terribly migrane like headaches lately, although i don't think it's a full fledged migrane but pretty damn close if u ask me

not only is everything reminding me of lisa but work is really stressful lately (year end) and the weather is just down right shitty, and i think i'm sort of going thru some sort of mid twenties crisis or something as i just want to drink and party all the time, or mabye i'm trying to repress other "serious" stuff, i dunno but man i could use a good drink right now

speaking of which i got totally smashed on friday afterwork with a group of fellow co-workers, was an awsome good time and i hope we do it again as it's a major stress reliver

i have nothing else really to report my life is rather blah lately therefore i have no funny nor entertaining stories to report or share with you all

i will note though on a positive spin that i am now 1 week away from seeing GNR live baby! and having a much needed vacation day next wednesday, i'm thinking/hoping that this might just be what the dr. ordered!!

~cheers~

stop. pause. reflect. rewind.

5 years ago today my life as i knew it changed in an instant

therefore ever since on November 9th i stop, pause, reflect and rewind to remember my dear friend Lisa Marie Nicole Sharpe, who was on her way to work, just like any other day, when her car spun out of control and into an on-coming lane of traffic, she wasn't killed instantly and hung on for another day before leaving all of us and moving on for bigger and better things

it blows my mind to think that 5 years have gone by in an instant faster than a blink of an eye, when in fact i still feel like i'm 21 (and super skinny), that my group of friends and i were going to live forever and concur the world....

it's raining here today, just like it was on that dreaded god awful day, almost feels like deja vu except so many things are different now.....where to begin really? if i could sit with you now and tell you what you missed i don't even know where i would begin?

you wouldn't know about text messaging
you wouldn't know what America's next top model was a t.v. show or that Tyra Banks hosted it
you wouldn't know who Kevin Federline was
or who Paris Hilton is
you wouldn't know about Hurricane Katrina and the devastation it caused
you wouldn't know that the Boston Red Soxs won the World Series thus ending there curse
you wouldn't know that the Crocodile Hunter is dead
you wouldn't know who the hell TomKat was and probably wouldn't believe me when i told you that Tom Cruise has lost his marbles.....
you've missed so many good movies and awsome songs

more importantly you've missed the changes in all our lives
"J" is now with another women and happy and they just recently bought a house
Sandy is well Sandy, she hasn't been the same since you left us
Marsha & Jason now have two beautiful little girls
Shelly & Jamie now have a son
Jilly & "M" are engaged and living together
and hubby and I have been married for 3 years! imagine that!

i like to think that you watch out for all of us though, and i'm sure you do, sort of a guardian angel for "the circle"

i miss you terribly and i think of you all the time

Firsts

we had our first "official" snow today and driving to work was hell, why is it we always forget how to drive in snow?

i tried my first ever Twix bar last week (i know, i know, i've been in the dark way to long when it comes to some chocolate bars), anyways, omg! i died and wen't to heaven, they are now one of my fav's (almost up there with snickers)

i've also had my first ever mcsteamy dream with another man (not my hubby) and it sort of left me, ah, umm breathless.....and thinking nasty thoughts, which has also led to more fantazing on my part

i'm also having my "first" social event @ my home, i'm rather nervous about it all and i hope to god at least 5 people show up

i oh so badly wanted to go out this weekend, get drunk and party it up, but sadly becuz miss jilly is away and i have only 1 other friend to call to do so, and she turned me down........ so i was left to suffer @ home, how BORING! thank god miss jilly is back this weekend and i sure as hell hope she's up to doing something, so jilly you have been warned :P

i bought my first CD in like a year, wondering whose? miss Xtina herself in Back to Basic's and it's a kick ass album if i do say so myself, i'm hooked on her new single "hurt" as i was in a downright depressive mood last week

i'm also dying for miss gwennie gwen's new album which is due out before Chriastmas

and well that's it, can't think of any more firsts at the moment........

peace out :P

tra la la la la

so i had no title, and i really have no pupose of being here today really but i had a minute, and here i be

random muslings/rants

is anyone else having a difficult time adjusting to the time change? like honestly, i am freaking exhausted this week and pulling my sorry ass out of bed every morning is becomming more and more difficult as the week progresses

so far today we have had rain, snow and sunshine, how's that for a fall day?

LOST is still as good as ever, finally glad that the story has picked up some, who the heck was the guy with the eye patch? and what's up with them trying to introduce 2 new pps? hello! i can barely keep up now, let alone to add another two.....although the guy is sorta hot

major drama happening in the work environment, can't really explain, nor do i want to but some major shit is going to fly come tomorrow (thankfully does not involve me)

we are now entering miss flea flea's dreaded least favorite month. blah. how i hate november

lot's of stuff to plan for and do though, like christmas shopping, another chore i dispise

in fact if it wasn't for all this damn left over halloween candy that everyone keeps bringing in, i probably wouldn't be happy, but, due to all the sugar i have consumed i can't stop grinning, last count i have had 5 blow pop's, at least 20-30 mini snickers bars and my stomache now hurts, but do u think i can stop eating candy, hell no!

bugger, i have to get groceries tonight and i totally forgot, man that suxs

anyways, i'm out too tired to write today, just had to get that halloween post outta the way, take care all! :P

Trick or Treat

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

keepin it short & sweet today, just wanted to wish everyone a safe & spooktacular night

and be sure to eat lots, and lot, and LOTS of CANDY!!

MWWHHAAAAAAA!

Guns and freaking Roses!!!!

like holy shit

holy. fucking. shit. i'm, well a little overwhelmed at the moment

why??

two words baby Guns & Roses

my hubby owes me BIG TIME, like majorlly big and seeings how Christmas is right around the corner, miss flea flea is going to have a steller Christmas this year. i'm thinking purses, and shoes, and clothes, oh my!! heeee!

you see i just scored us 2 tickets to G&R's world tour, which is selling out like crazy, and you know how evil and coniving i am, i think i will continue to let on that i haven't scored tickets, and that they are all sold out just to rub it in and make him pout & whine

oh yeah baby!

this is sooooooooo worth it

~snickers~

when i grow up

my first recollection of ever even thinking about what i wanted to be when i grew up was probably in elementary school, and i wanted nothing more than to be a nurse (RN) just like my mom

well, that didn't last long

by junior high i was destined to be an author, or at least that was my dream. i was hooked on Christopher Pike's young adult books and, Stephen King wasn't far behind. i was sold, this is what i wanted to do

i also went thru a phase where i wanted to be Angela Bowers from "who's the Boss" anyone remember this show? she was an advertising executive or someting and i thought that was just the coolest thing ever getting to wear business suits, go to big fancy meetings, travel, ah yes this was my ticket to success

and then high school hit

i sort of hit a brick wall and i still haven't awakened from my coma as i still have no clue as to what i want or desire to be when i grow up.

and what's even scarier is that i am now considered, GASP! a grown up

i've always envied those people that knew from early on as to what they wanted to be, they knew what college to go to, what sort of job they would be doing, they had it made. and well there i sat in my high school class siging up for my college "prep" classes and not having the sweetest clue, and 7 years later i still don't

there are times when i wish i would've stuck with the writing, i loved to write at one time, i almost feel that if i would've been in a larger, city/school i may have pursued this but coming from a very small community and an even smaller school i wasn't able to expand my horizons, or perhaps i just liked the "idea" of it all, actually writing a book or coming up with an original story now a days is, well, all most impossible. i've contemplated becomming a journalist, but seeing how everyone is so obsessed (including me) with celebrities, i think that's a no go as i feel they have a right to their own privacay and there are some things that not everyone needs to know

i even went back to my early roots and really considered nursing again, but lacking the drive, motovation and "math" skills, i quickly backed out of that option

watching CSI every week also intrigues me, how i would love to be able to assess a crime scene and get the bad guy. they mystery of it all, very much appeals to me. or even being a police dectective solving crimes, putting the bad guy behind bars would be really cool and up my alley, but again, me being from a small community, this is sort of a no go. mind you i shouldn't be restricting myself as to where i live, i think i'm just making excuses as i have no drive or ambition to do anything

mind u nothing is as it is on t.v. or in the movies but one can dream

my current job is just "ok" and i have it pretty good by any means, my supervisor, boss and everyone here is great but 10 years ago this is the last place or thing i would have envisioned myself doing. which is sort of sad. where did i go wrong? or better yet why am i settling for this mediocre crap? some days i'm happy and other days, well , not so much. i just feel like my life is pointless and that it's going no where fast, and i don't really know what to do to change it. i. just. don't. know. and some days this really gets me down as i don't feel that i'm living my life to it's fullest, to what purpose do i serve?

sigh

to many fucking questions that are un-answered that i'm sure someone up above (man i hope so) is testing me for, i'll leave it at that

pease out :P

trying to jump on the "happy" bandwagon

instead of me coming here to bitch, whine and complain about my ailments, or how i think i'm coming down with the plague because other co-workers refuse to stay home and recover, they have to come in here and spread it to everyone else......anyhoo i'm trying a different approach for a change.

here goes

i am grateful for my two amazing parents, who are still together after 30 years together. they are always there for me (no matter what, where, when) and words can't really express or do justice as to just how much they mean to me

i am also grateful that they are both in good health

i am grateful for my ever wise and wonderful sister, who always listens, evaluates, and lays it out like it is

i am also grateful that she has a killer fashion, home decor, crafty style about her and i only wish that she lived closer to me so that she could help me out in that dept

i am grateful that i have a full time job, despite the fact that half the time i don't know what i do exactly but i receive a paycheck every week, i have health coverage and i am able to pay into a pension plan

i'm grateful that both hubby and i are also in good health and able to work

i'm grateful for having a roof over my head, food to eat and clothes to wear on my back

i'm grateful to be able to spend time with my remaining grandmother and i savor every moment with her and cherish her stories and her memories of my grandfather

i'm grateful and proud to be Canadian

i'm grateful that i am able to walk down a street, go to the mall, get my mail without having to worry about suicide bombers, getting shot, or being caught in a crossfire/ambush

i'm grateful for the fact that i don't have to hide my face in shame just because i am a women. i can express myself openly and be treated as equal and not looked upon as being stupid/useless

i'm grateful that i can see, hear and smell all the life around me

but most of all, i'm grateful for being alive and living another day, even though it's really not panning out in my favor, i'm still grateful to be living it.

ARGH!!

not only is it monday, evil dreadful monday but i quite possibly had the wurst morning ever, and it's still morning people. it's not even 10:00 yet and i've had the following happen to me:

- couldn't wear the outfit that i initally wanted as there was some weird funky stain on my said pants that i have no idea where it came from, or what it was on them, do not have time to deal with and just grab outfit #2

- was out of my favorite cereal and had to replace with toast & peanut butter :(

- received call from hubby on his cell stating that he forgot to take the garbage out. great.

- already running late at this point and i still haven't got makeup and hair flat ironed

- dogs are barking and driving me insane as they will. not. shut. up. or quit barking at the neighbors evil, fucking dogs

- as i am sitting eating my crap ass toast (i really wanted my cereal), and drinking a horrible fruit juice, my cat decides that she wants to "cuddle" and gets cat hair all over my 2nd pick outfit and i don't have time to lint roll it off as i forgot the FUCKING garbage again. FUCK!

- so i hurry and eat my toast, brush my teeth, grab my coat, purse, lunch, and i'm out of the house but guess what. it frosted last night, therefore my car is covered in a layer of frost that will at least take 5 minutes to de-fog. nice.

- thinking to save myself time, i decided to walk the said fucking garbage down to the road. and as i pick up the 3, count em 3 bags (who knew we threw out so much crap), water proceeds to spill all over my said 2nd pick outfit. at least i hope it was water. it may have been dog piss as our neighbors dogs have a habit of "marking there territory" and tearing our bags to shit, but i'm getting ahead of myself here........

continuing on

- so i disregard the water or ahem piss and proceed to half carry and drag the garbage down our very long driveway and about midway point just guess what happens. just guess. take a wild guess

- yup, you got it, the bag or one of the bags busted wide open. so not only am i now 5 minutes late i have to pick up garbage, nasty vile smelling garbage, and haha we have no more bags left for me to dump this crap over into so i manage somehow to stuff it all back in the bag that ripped apart, and ewwwwww, omg was so utterly disgusting sorting thru half eaten food. yuck. and do you know why my bag ripped? becuase my fucking neighbors dogs had tore a hole in it. cha. they are so going to pay

- meanwhile i am now over 10+ minutes late, i have no time to change my wet pants, i barely have time to wash my garbage smelly hands and then i'm on my merry way driving like a mad women to get to work on time, and surprizingly i still made it in here 5 minutes early. dunno how i managed that, just praise jebus that no cops were out this morning

- so now here i sit in dress pants covered in hair and what's probably dried dog pee on my pant leg, and i think i smell like garbage which is also giving me a really bad headache. can i go home now????

quickies

holy god i've suffered several pound your head against the key board moments today, and on top of my supeberb wonderful day i'm getting a headache and a real dousey of one too by the feel of it

work is well frustrating, espically when nobody will train me or tell me what i should be doing. i've asked my "supervisor" like 4 times for stuff to do and nothing. i should almost feel a bit hurt as it seems like he's ignoring me but i know he is extremely busy i just don't know why he won't let me in to help, as that is at least what i thought i was supposed to do

fat bastard in the office next to me is another one of my irritance (is that even a word, hell i don't care i just made it one), he's overly loud and way to fucking friendly for my liking

not only that buy i'm dieting and what does someone bring into the office a fucking cake, fuckers, and it's a marble cake with real "butter" frosting. like this stuff is to.die.for. honestly. i've had not one but 2 pieces today, talk about restraint

speaking of my said diet, which isn't going so well i was able to do one of my workout video's last night, so that's one good thing right? i should make it 2 in a row, but with this pounding headache i think it's a no go

dare i say it i'm somewhat disappointed in LOST, seems sort of slow and yet i'm still dying for next weeks show. for instance why haven't they shown anyone back at the beach? what the hell happend to Locke, Desmond and Charlie and Eko? and how the hell do they know so much about everyone on the plane. it's just plain weird

what is wrong with people that they are still voting for Sarah Evans on DWS (dancing w/the Stars), shes the wurst dancer there and it's a crying shame that Willa was sent home when she was a much better dancer

it's raining here today a cold, cold bitter rain with "gusty" winds, which is so fucking depressing and blah, no wonder my head hurts

hubby lost an expensive watch that i think i bought for his b-day a year or so ago, like a fancy "woodsworker" watch that was waterproof, had a compass and everything, this thing was not cheap, and because he can't go without had to purchase another one on ebay, thankfully somewhat cheaper but still, as per my previous post we are poor and in debt and totally do not need any extra expenses. so frustrating.

and to top it all off this stuff about North Korea is truly bothering & upsetting me, i have a gut feeling that this is not a good thing, and we have yet to see or hear the last of this issue. i can totally see them teaming up with the taliban and Al Quida or whomever to attack the U.S., not cool and my anxiety and panic steps up a notch and i just want to scream at the top of my lungs that were all going to die, and the world is going to end!!!

really though, all these nuclear weapons that are out there floating around scare the shit out of me

thank god it's almost quitting time!

time to go home, eat supper and de-stress

bills, bills, bills

you just know that this is so going to be a major bitch rant, cuz the word bills is in the title, so hold onto your hats as i've had this one pent in for awhile............

i hate, hate this time of year, not only is hubby laid off from work for the entire winter (thus meaning we pull in half the income) but dare i say it, Christmas is only gasp, 3 months away. and despite the fact that we have been living together for five years, we never seem to prepare for the hard financial struggle that we battle all winter long. in fact, in the last month i have been on a major spending spree. even though i knew, in the back of my mind come a month from now i would be hurtin, but did i care. no. god i'm stupid sometimes.

and on top of that

were like $16,000 in debt to our lines of credits

from what? god only knows, it all started when we built our house and well it's grown quite a lot since then.

rack up a visa bill, pff pay it off with our line of credit, that has been our motto for the past 2 years, and well frankly i'm sick of it. not only do we struggle to make a monthly payment on the GD things, but they ding us at least a total of $100 (between the 2, we each have one, which is somehow worse), just for fucking interest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh

and everytime i realize how much we have to pay back, i feel this wall closing in on me and it's just too much, panic sets in, and honestly it almost makes me sick and i vow to stop spending and well that only usually lasts for a week and then were right back into the swing of things.

and did i also mention we also have a gorgeous house that we kinda sorta got when we shouldn't have cuz the mtg. is well, i won't go there

and i should note to you all that i'm just a wee bit spoiled and thus i think this is where the problem results from. i want the best of the best and expect nothing less. and not only that but i seem to have expensive taste. like for example a fellow employee recently brought in one of those home and gift catalogues and is also having a party which i'm going to and soooo shouldn't be, but anyways, anything i look at or like even just a little is like the most expensive thing on the page. same thing goes with furniture or clothes even. doesn't matter if i like it it's expensive. perhaps i have way to high of a standard, and i can't expect to have everything right away, were just starting out, this is our 2nd year in our home and i still don't have curtains for godsakes and most of our furniture is 2nd hand, and so we've only painted 3 rooms in our house. so what. why is everything so materialistic?! who cares if you drive a piece of shit car or not? well ok i sort of do care, but why should i? as long as i have a roof over my head and food to eat then what else really matters besides a kick ass pair of shoes, and a killer wardrobe........ok, ok, i am kidding (sort of).

we in north america take so much for granted,

and i totally just lost my train of thought on that one.......

ok i'm so done on that one

:P

fall "it" list

so i was totally busy yesterday and didn't have a chance to follow up on LOST, whops!

oh well, you'll live right?

anyways, i'm uber hyper today and it's friday!! woot woot

so what better way to celebrate a friday than a list of what i think is "hot" or "it" at the moment ( preferably things that i luv at this moment in time, but i thought "it" was cooler, ok?), shall we begin??

favorite new food - mozza sticks, ok i know i'm a total lame ass for never trying these before, but OMG these things are to die for, i could quite easily eat like 20 no problem, like really i could, and i so can't believe that i have gone this long with out trying one

favorite new t.v. show - mind u it's still early yet but i'm totally hooked on ABC's Ugly Betty, if you aren't watching this u should be, esp if you are a women, it's witty and funny and well you just need to watch it ok. trust me

favorite new song - JoJo's - it's too little to late, don't ask ok i just do

favorite new cleaning product - scrubbing bubbles one touch shower cleaner thingy, mind u this isn't the correct name but all u need to know is that scrubbing bubbles makes it. it hangs in your shower and u push a button and it sprays and cleans your shower. no more scrubbing on my knees or no more water spots my shower walls. i. luv. this. thing. fer real ya'll. oh how i hated cleaning my stand up shower but now i don't have too. this little thing does it for me, what more could you ask for. now if only i could get ones of these for the rest of the house......

favorite new hairstyling product (as in tool) - my brand spankin new flat iron, again i can't believe i have gone this long without one, like what the hell was i doing before?

favorite new shampoo - duh, i think no explaination is due here, 1 word people, Ojon

favorite new blog - i've stumbled across some pretty good ones lately but the one that started me off again on new searches for cool blogs was the one and only Miss 1999

i'm sure i've got more but that's all i can come up with for now, i may or not be back

peace out :P

LOST

that's all i need to say and my heart starts racing, i was trying to think of an appropriate title but nothing really does it justice.

i've done well really up until a week ago when they started showing promo's for tonight's show, and well that sealed it, the countdown was on (were now down to 6 1/2 hrs and counting..)

i can't even work today i am that excited, or it could be the fact that i am still not sleeping but i refuse to talk about that today as it just drags me down

so moving on

i can't wait to find out what's going to happen now, what will the other's do with Jack, Sawyer and kate? what about Michael and Walt, how could they just leave like that? and where does Desmond fit into all of this?

but

more importantly i just cannot wait to see Sawyer shirtless again................ahhhh what bliss, how i love him so

i'm so stoked i can barely contain myself!!

drunken crackwhore - take 2

oh good lord, what a wild weekend miss flea flea had, i'm not even sure where to begin honestly it was that much of a whirlwind. i do recall that i was being such a good girl, staying home, resting trying to get better but something occured late saturday night (ahem Sandy, my bestest friend called me at 10:00) and it all went down hill from there.

she begged and pleaded for me to go to our cousins (by marriage) staggette party, and you know i just can't say no my friends and or drinking even though i knew, knew i shouldn't go i totally caved and wen't. i never, ever do anything so spur of the moment like this and honestly i can't believe that my hubby didn't pitch a fit at a)me going out clubbing b)my skanky ass outfit (duh had to compete with girls like 4 years younger than me) or c)my rockstar hair, nothingless he said nothing, which alone was quite shocking.

so off i go just like cinderella off to the ball, only it was a club, same thing only different right? well, will pretend that. i wen't with the intentions of having one drink and i did, you know what got me don't cha, the mr. happy weed. aha. yes. i haven't associated with my long lost buddy mr. happy in quite some time, and frankly he hit my like a ton of bricks, now any time i'm stoned i cannot function, or talk to anyone, i sort of just stare off with a smile on my face and you get the point, i should just have stayed at the house by my self and so not have gone to the bar, but again i was just flying on a whim this night and off i go. and honestly the rest of the night is a blur, besides some guy that sandy knew trying to kiss me, and then pretend that he was only being like the "french" as that's the sort of thing they do. yeah right i'm just hot baby!!!! haha i wish, or how bout when one of sandy's friends was talking to me and i'm just smiling and nodding and i thought she asked me what my name was as she had her hand out, so i go to shake her hand and say my name's flea and she's like ummm i asked to see your ring......i think i may have snorted as i was hit with a sudden laughing fit. ah. good times.

and you know what the best part is, mr. happy took away my rib pain for like 2 hrs! and i had a permi grin on for at least 4 hours. honestly i think this shit should be legalized without getting into all the political mambo jumbo, really it should and it's no wonder they give it to cancer patients, not that i'm comparing myself to one, but it's the cat's ass, and oh how i missed it. so i didn't arrive back home til like 3:30, slept like the dead (finally) til 10 or so and then hubby's buddy calls us to go wheelin, it's amazing what a little fresh air can do to a person. was such a beautiful fall day, so nice to be outside and it was just relaxing and perfect, just what i needed. so all in all i must say i had a fantastic weekend.

how bout you?

it's HERE!!

my Ojon has arrived people!!

i want you all to do a happy dance for me as i'm totally un-able to at this time

and sadly not even this could snap me out of my funk, i didn't go to work today, x-rays are done and now i'm just waiting to see if they call me stating that they "found" anything, and drugs that they gave me still don't take all the pain away.

~sigh~

still though, i'm remaining positive, HAPPY FRIDAY BIATCHES!

luv you all! :P

let the whining begin

are u ready for it? lord i hope so as i'm in a "pity me" mood today

you know that song "every breath you take", i think it's by Sting or the Police or something, but that about sums it up. or better yet every time i take a breath and have it hurt like a son of a bitch, this song runs through my head. not sure which is worse at this point

i literally crawled, hauled my ass out of bed this morning (getting out of bed with sore ribs is the wurst). did. not. want. to. get. up. or move. grabbed the 1st comfy thing i saw (jeans & baggy sweater), pulled hair into pony tail, slapped on some foundation and mascara and came to work. i don't even think i combed my hair.

so tired, words cannot express or do justice

called an made another dr appt for this afternoon, i'm demanding x-rays this time. i'm just scared i'm going to cry as the pain is that bad and i'm also super emotional lately, course it's my dr he already knows how mentally fucked up i am, so i shouldn't be concerened but still it would be embarassing

i so considered calling in sick again today, is that wrong?

in fact i'm working thru lunch and leaving after said dr appt this afternoon and not coming back, noramlly this would have me extactic, but i have no MOJO today and i'm more releaved than anything to leave early and crawl back in my bed

the only bra that i can wear and be "comfortable" in is my sports bra, all my other ones cut into my sore spot right along my ribs. luckily i am not well endowed in the "breast" department

omg sneezing is the absolte worst, worst pain i have ever experienced

super cold today too, despite the fact that i'm wearing a tee-shirt & sweater

think i just need to have a good cry and get it over with. anyone have any good suggestions of a sad, sad movie to watch? open to ideas

i've gained the 5 pounds i lost back in a week and a half. how depressing is that. oh, and i can't exercise cause it hurts

i don't get paid til next thursday, a week from today and were flat broke

why, why did they have to move Grey's Anatomy to thursdays' the same time that CSI is on? WHY!?

and where the hell is Medium? i sure hope they didn't scrap this show, will be really pissed

i'm home alone the next few days as hubby is away for the Big Moose hunt 2006. so exciting (rolling eyes), i'm actually secretly hoping they don't get one this year, god i'm evil

poor poor pitiful me, eh? god i shouldn't be this way, there are way more worse things that are happening in the world, but i just can't seem to snap out of it. perhaps i will get smashed tonight all by my lonesome with my dogs and cats.

peace out! :P

upset stomache, indigestion, nausea, diarrhea, HEY! Pepto-Bismal!

no, not all of these currently apply to me. no. uh ah, the only one that applies is, dare i say it out loud, as i'm afraid of yet another washroom run, diarrhea. quite possibly the worst thing ever, but i'll spare u the grose details.

and do you know why i'm suffering from this god awful bout of the ruins? because i was put on a "stronger" dose of meds because of my still, STILL! aching, fucking, injured side! and this said medication is making me pay. oh yes indeed! i have lost count how many times i have gone to the bathroom, i now have an extremely sore ass to go along with my sore ribs. nice huh. not only is it nice, everything is just fucking GREAT! great i say. you know how last week i started off with killer news to begin the week. CHA! like where the hell is that this week? that's what i would like to know. can't a person have more than one happy week in her poor pathetic life? pffff.guess not.

so not only do i have the fucking ruins, my side is still in agony! like almost crying in tears agony, and dr's have still not requested a chest x-ray, and still tell me if it's not gone in 2 wks to contact my dr yet again. i am no going on week 3 with this. and the pain is still very intense and not lessening at all. like what the fuck do i have to do or say to get my point across? it hurts to breathe, it hurts to sit, it basically hurts all the fucking time. i'm not sleeping, therefore i have major baggage under my eyes. i wanted so badly to post a pic of my new fab "rockstar" hair but sadly my face isn't so rockstar these days. sigh. i'm so frustrated and just plain tired. i missed work yesterday, did not want to come today (almost wished i hadn't as it's majorlly dead here today) and i want to oh so badly to my new work out tape but i can't, because I'M INJURED!

fuck

i think i'm gonig to grab yet another piece of cake from the evil kitchen here at work and sit here and cry for the next hour. i don't think anyone will notice.

and yes i'm fucking pre-menstrual too on top of all this other shit

T-Minus 15 hrs and counting

until my new ultime fav hair product (it truly works wonders) goes on sale on the Shopping Channel

am i embarassed and ashmed of admitting that i'm addticted to the shopping channel?

Hell no!

their website is like CRACK, there is EVERYTHING u can imagine on their but more importantly my Ojon is on there, and i will be buying like mad tomorrow as their new line is coming out!

i'm so excited i can barely contain myself right now

let the shopping begin!!!

p.p.s
in case you are a total shampoo/conditioner crackwhore like me and you may want to check this out for yourself tomorrow tune into the Shopping Channel all day tomorrow or go online @ www.theshoppingchannel.com, you can thank me later

the bestest news EVER!!!

miss jilly is coming home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, sorry had to get that bubble of energy out of my system, like pronto. and in case you are wondering or wish for me to further elaborate, my fav cousin miss jilly (she used to blog but lately not so much) has recently just discovered that she has obtained a full time position back home (woodstock) and she will be raking in major dough as she will now be a "management" position!! i'm so jealous i'm sure i've turned green. not only is this steller news all in itself but she can move back home from her current residence that she's been living in for the past year (3+hrs away). to say i've missed her around home is an understatement, and i can't wait to have her back here, so we can do lunch and go shopping and all that fun stuff that we used to do on our lunch hours. sooo exciting! and i can't wait to go home and celebrate with her tonight! weeeee i haven't been this happy/excited in well, let's not go there..........

in other "flea" news, i have somehow injured myself and have no clue how, or what has caused this excruciating pain, but i have now had it for a week (must've occured during last weekend's drunken stupor) now and frankly i'm a little concerned as it could be a)a pulled muscle , b)a fractured rib or c)lung cancer or a tumor and i have 3 weeks to live! ok so that's a bit drastic, but i totally think it's a) or b) just not sure which, but every time i move the wrong way or take a deep breath a sharp pain shoots right under neath my right boob/rib cage. like wtf. now i'm not one to normally whine (ha!) or complain (double HA HA) but it really, really HURTZ! and because i know you all care so much, i just had to come here and whine some more about it cuz anybody i seem to start telling at home or here at work totally ignore me and just walk away or bring up another topic. which by the way is sooooooo rude! anyways, i'm dying i know it! no, not really but i think it's a legit enough reason to skip work........don't you? at least like a day or 2......oh yeah i can't as i'm trying to make a good impression while in this new "position". dammit! scratch that idea

did i also mention that i finally got my new desk/setup! didn't think so! it's SWEET! and everyone in the office has a total hate on for me now, i luv it! perhaps i shall take a pic and show you all someday in the near future. it's totally awsome, a little bare at the moment as they still have yet to throw me in full force to the new position, but i'm sure that'll change soon. i'm still really nervous about the transition and having more responsibilities but i'm lovin havin my own space and privacy, and thus far i like what work they have given me, so keep your fingers crossed

i so should not be this happy on a monday, i dunno what has gotten into me, this is so not like me on a typical monday, i must say i'm kinda digging starting out my week on a positive note though i only hope it continues

peace out biatches! :P

Goodbye Summer

even though technically fall doesn't begin til next thursday (the 21st), here's a little diddy from me to you,

Goodbye Summer,
Goodbye my friend,
Goodbye sandals,
Goodbye capris,
Goodbye flirty summer skirts,
Goodbye tank tops,
Goodbye strawberry shortcake,
Goodbye corn on the cob,
Goodbye BBQ,
Goodbye blackflies i'll even miss you too,
Goodbye painted toes,
Goodbye hot, muggy, humid days,
Goodbye thunderstorms,
Goodbye reality t.v.,
Goodbye Summer,
Goodbye my friend,
I will miss you,
I will miss you til we meet again,

Hello Fall,
You are not my friend,
Hello red, yellow, and orange leaves,
Hello cold damp mornings and evenings,
Hello fog,
Hello rainy days,
Hello hunting season,
Hello everything "camo",
Hello thanksgiving,
Hello halloween,
Hello sweaters,
Hello socks and coats,
Hello wood heat,
Hello dry skin,
Hello must see t.v.,
Hello fall,
You are not my friend,
How i loathe thee,
How i loathe thee til the bitter end,

drunken crackwhore

now normally i only drink (aka get drunk) like say mabye 4-6 times over a full year (,Halloween, Christmas, New Year's, July 1st, and the odd camping trip or corn boil), but this past year i seem to have broken from the trend as i think i'm way past my "normal" restrictions. i've lost count. now not only have i lost count but i've also done something i've never done before. what you may ask? well, i got piss ass drunk with hubby's family and a bunch of strange people i've never ever met before. yes. it's true.

so in my typical run down/play by play here is a run down of my evening

- attended party @ my brother-in-law's house in St. Andrews, NB, to celebrate his marriage (wedding was earlier in the day) with a BBQ (they didn't have a dance, not really sure why), that ended up being rained out as it down poured, but that didn't phase any of us at all. i should note that i didn't even want to go to this said gathering, but it ended up with me being the one having such a steller time
- spent the 1st hour or so in a corner with hubby and his sister & hubby. not really drinking at this point, and already plotting when we could make our escape
- an hour later and 1 1/2 cooler's later i was beginning to somewhat enjoy myself
- another hour later and several shooters later i had a new best friend. my shooter buddy, that i've never met before in my life. told her several times how much i loved her and thought she was soooo cool.
- appointed Hugh (another brother-in-law) as our "Leader" to get us all back to our hotel in one piece, even though he was the drunkest out of all of us at this point
- continued doing shooters and drank another 1 1/2 cooler, i am now socializing like crazy and talking to everyone. my little space in the corner has long been forgotten
- everyone (including me) had a good laugh at my expense as the cooler's i was drinking made my mouth like a bright vibrant red. like ronald mcdonald red.
- danced around the living room with brother-in-law, and proceeded to take several crazy/dirty/raunchy pictures with him (oh god!)
- am still doing shooters, and have totally lost count. hubby is now warning me to slack off and is giving me "his look". i just ignore him
- i either broke the toilet or was just unable to function enough to run it as it had some sort of fancy lever thingy on it
- flirted with the best man right in front of hubby, just to show him i still "got it"
- more dancing
- consumed my last cooler, and totally forgot where i sat it down, didn't really matter as i'm so gone by this point
- made yet another "new" best friend, whom i yet again professed my love and new found friendship too
- there may have been some more dancing and singing it's all a little blurry at this point
- one of the living room chairs got broken by like 4-5 people piling on it, i don't think i was involved in this, but i'm not 100% sure. resulted in a 10-15 minute laughing fit by everyone
- shortly there after we dance to one last song and headed for the hotel by foot as it was now 3:00 AM and none of us were in any shape to drive
- was the longest walk of my life. several stops as i thought i was going to puke and or die on the side of the road along with several laughing fits
- passed out blissfully and laughing in my bed and believe it or not i was not sick! ha!

what have i learned:

- shooters are not your friend, although they will make you new ones in no time, they always come back to bite you in the ass
- do not take raunchy photo's with brother-in-law, espically when it's not my camera and i have no control over deleting it
- do not flirt with said brother-in-law, even though he is really, really cute.......
- always pack advil in my over night bag - so regretted not packing drugs my head still hurts

ah, the joys of drinking!

Congrats Jonathan & Tammy it was a beautiful wedding and an even better party

ATTACK of the KILLER house flys

like fer real, i'm so not even kidding i wish to hell i was, and sadly no it wasn't just one fly, no oh no, my house was full, FULL of at least well over 100 fucking house flys. i. kid. you not.

now we have had like 1 or 2 or mabye even 3 in our house at one time before and i always comment to hubby like how do they get in, or better yet i thought that buy "building" a brand spakin new house we wouldn't have this issue as i usually consider or connect them to an older house. don't ask me why i just did. well i don't any more, because we have a problem, or better yet I have a problem as i hate, loathe, disgust any type of insect and once you get a "herd" of them all you can hear is this constant buzzing sound which just makes me shudder just recalling the horror.

so the story goes a little something like this.

i come home from work yesterday just like any other day, only it's really warm, like almost summer weather warm, so it's nice, really nice and sunny, hence the reason these houseflys are out like a banshee and all over the outside of my home. me thinking nothing of it, just enter my house again like any other day (ha) only as i walk through the door, not one or two but (thousands) not sure of the number here but anyways, they all hit me in the face and i hear buzzing, like everywhere and as i slowly turn around, i see them. in fact i almost, almost can't even see my door, that's how many there were. and as i begin to whimper and scream in horror and am now staggering/stumbling futher into my house i see more of them on my other 2 doors. i'm almost now crying at this point and the thought that this is some sort of practical joke that my hubby has played on me crosses my mind but i cross that out as he just wouldn't be that cruel (one would hope)

so with tears in my eyes and a scream captured in my throat i grab my weapon of choice. well really two. i first tried my piece of crapola of a vacuum cleaner, it did well but was just lacking the suction power i desired. so my weapon was........WINDEX and it's sidekick PAPERTOWEL, i think these two would rivel BATMAN and ROBIN as they kicked ASS. still. the fuckers got on me though. like . eww. but it worked. and when hubby got home he thought i made the whole thing up as there were only like 1 or 2 still floating around on the ceiling.

would i make this shit up?

like, no

and sadly, i tried to take a picture to capture all this drama so that i would have proof but the light from the door ruined it all to hell