Tuesday, July 13, 2010

tick tock tick tock

ugh! in less than one month and in 25 days I will turn 30

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I think I just threw up in my mouth a little

i initially didn't care (denial) about this birthday, but as it is ever vastly approaching I am starting to hyperventilate just a teency tiny bit

I mean as a kid I used to think 30 was old

house, married, kid, dogs, check. all I can say is thank god I don't have a mini van because that would complete my mental image of a 30 year old back when I was in my early 20's. and while I have most of those things I don't feel any older (ok, who am I kidding some days I feel it). and it leaves me wondering what the hell have I done or accomplished in the last 10 years? career wise, I have gone absolutely no where, I am still with the same man so that is something...and I have a beautiful daughter so life is good. but holy hell times flies! i'm going to blink and I'll be 40!! eek.

can I become peter pan? I just want to stay in this now

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in other news:

I need to go on a serious diet but to lazy to even try it (haha that rhymes)


Lily is doing so well and i'm savoring and enjoying every day with her and dreading the thought of even looking for work/going back to work. but i'm trying to not think about it or dwell on it and just enjoy the summer, which is turning out weather wise to be fab! and super hot, even fabber! she's still not crawling yet (i'm actually sort of dreading her moving, I like her staying in one spot) but it won't be long, i'll probably shed a tear when she does get a moving

I just can't believe it is July already, and the month is half gone! summer is way to short