Monday, February 28, 2005


I love, LOVE the oscar's. Not really for the awards (they are usually boring), but mostly for the fashion and the history of great movies. I don't usually stay up for the entire show and last night was no exception (typically I last until after the best supporting actor/actress and then i'm ready for bed). So last night I was all excited watching the count down, all the rich and famous beatiful pps walking down the famous "red" carpet. I would give some sort of vital organ to do this some day, but for now all I can do is watch and wish I could be there.

There weren't many surprizes last night (already been on MSN, gotta love it!), the pps expected to win did. Congrats to Hilary Swank (Best Actress), Jamie Foxx (Best Actor), Morgan Freeman (Best Supporting Actor), Cate Blanchett (Best Supporting Actress) and Clint Eastwood for Best Director and Best picture. I'm kinda glad I didn't stay up as I it was v. predictable and boring. Chris Rock just didn't stand up to the job i'm afraid, he was just lacking something and it's hard to fill the shoes of the likes of Johnny Carson, BillyCrystal, etc, just didn't enjoy him last night ~sorry~.

So in typical blogger style here is my list of best dressed and worst dressed (in my opinion anyways)

Best Dressed :

Cate Blanchett - wearing a "gorgegous" Valentino pale yellow silk taffeta gown was just absolutely stunning and old fasion Hollywood. Loved everything about this dress, the train, the burgandy satin bow, the colour. This women is just beautiful inside and out and she's such a wonderful actress and i'm glad she brought the Ocsar home.

Halle Berry - Does this women ever, EVER look like shit?? Seriousily she could be wearing a potato sack and covered in horse manure and she would still be stunningily beautiful. I almost want to hate her but she's just such a nice, kind, genuine person that I can't. She was wearing a iridescent taupe silk chiffon Versace one shoulder gown with embroidered shirt. She looked flawless and radiant. Unlike some of the other women who chose to wear taupe (see more below) she pulls this off well and then some. Another Oscar dress well done. Whoever is her stylist deserves every penny they get as they know what she can and can't wear and time after time she is just amazing.

Kate Winslet - Again another beautiful, flawless women who never does wrong. Didn't really see much of her on the red carpet but in her photo's, WOW. She chose to wear a Badgley Mischka in periwinkle blue (my fav colour), with a beaded inset down the front of the bodice. Love the colour and the style of the dress. Perfect for her and she looked fab. My only hopes is that some day she does get awarded an oscar as she is a one of a kind talent and she deserves it (mabye next time)

Charlize Theron - Last years best actress winner didn't fail fashion wise this year either. This dress is just dreamy and wonderful. Loved the seafoam Dior gown, with endless amounts of tulle. Looked so fluffy and soft and she couldn't look any better. Well done Charlize.

Beyonce - This girl had more wardrobe changes throughout the night but her inital walk down the red carpet in a black silk velvet Versace was striking and just simply Beyonce. I am just thankful that she didn't wear one of her mother's gawd awful tacky pieces that she's worn in the past.

Scarlett Johansson - My first inital look at this dress was not good but the more I saw her in it the more I liked it plus her honest remark to a reporter that she "couldn't breathe" made me appreciate her humour and her spirit. I'm not a big fan of black but it's a timeless classic and this Roland Mouret gown had a classic 20's feel to it and it grew on me. So I had to put her here.

My in between girl (not sure if I like or dislike, leaning more towards dislike as of right now but i keep changing my mind) is none other than Hilary Swank. She wore a slim fitting, tight sapphire blue gown with long sleeves and high neck and totally backless, not leaving much to the imgination. She did look stunning and certainly got everyone's attention but again just not liking how "tight" it was and not digging.

Worst Dressed:

Natalie Portman - I normally like her and her tastes in clothes, but boy did she go wrong last night. I loved her Roman headpiece but that's as far as that goes. The dress was ill fitted and it just looked nasty. The colour was wrong, wrong wrong ~ girl you can do much, much better and your so pretty all I can say is why??

Gwyneth Paltrow - I'm not a fan of Gwyneth and I hated her pink dress that she wore years ago when she won for "Shakesphere in love". Last night was no different. The dress was ok but the taupe/beige colour was wrong on her. It would just be the same for me, it washes us out and therefore you don't, I repeat don't wear it. Plus she should have had her hair pulled back loosely, or in some kinda up to, i'm not a fan of having hair down with a gown (exception for Halle Berry only).

Rene Zellweger - Again not a fan of Rene, hate her facial expressions when she does the red carpet, hate how super duper skinney she is I almost want to jump thru the screen and give her a donut or something eat girl PLEAZE! Her dress wasn't bad but it was clung so tightly to her uber skinny frame and she looked pained when she walked, also do not, NOT like her brunette locks does not do a thing for her and pls go back to blonde asap

Regina King - Not sure what film this girl is in but she looks familar. Again this was a taupe/beige dress gone wrong. Nasty frilly thing on her shoulder and the colour just does not do her justice. I'm sure she's a beautiful lady, but she looked fugly last night ~sorry~

Melanie Griffith - nasty, nasty, nasty is all I can say about her dress and her mane of bleach blonde hair. She chose to wear Versace (and on anyone else it probably would have been ok) again in a beigey colour. Washed her out and all I can remember seeing is pleats of silk with some embroidery on it. Poor Mel looks like she has been rode hard and put away wet. One to many plastic surgeries perhaps?

That's my take on it all and i'm sure I forgot a few but that's all I saw last night and in some pics today so take it or leave it.

It's quite obvious that I have nothing really to do today and I have zero amount of energy to work today & i'm fighting an extreme headache (been with me since I woke up this "am") but i'm still here at work (only 2 wks left) and i'm on the hunt for a job. Ended up turning down the job in F'ton that I had an interview for last week ~ I wasn't anticipating them wanting me to start on Thursday and the more I thought about it and weighed out the pro's and con's it just wasn't worth it for me to go all that way (an hour) to be making what I would be making & I would be doing shift work starting my shift at like 4:45 PM until 1:00 AM in the morning, which means I wouldn't get home until after 2AM and when hubby finally gets back to work that just won't go over well, so I turned it down. May end up regretting it in fact I kinda already am but I am pretty sure I made the right decision. Something will come up and I didn't feel comfortable jumping on the first opportunity.

Well I should try to do something today but i'm not up to it. Supposed to go after work to have a super in my honour with most of the girls from work. Not really looking forward to it as it's really hitting home that I am going to be done in 2wks. Hard to believe & hard to take in.

That's all for today ~ i'm out

Thursday, February 24, 2005

this and that

don't know what to talk about today, i'm really jittery and nervous for my interview this afternoon. Not sure why, I usually don't get nervous but I am and it's bugging the heck out of me. Get to leave work early though *BONUS* can't complain about that.

Well I got two of my predictions right, not bad I might add but I forgot about Melinda (boy she must have really blown for me to forget her that quickly...) and it really surprized me to see Judd go, although when he sang his song again last night he probably deserved to be goin home. I liked him though, just somethin about him.

I've been having weird dreams lately, which is highly unusual for me as I never dream let alone remember them. It's strange as I usually hit the pillow and i'm out and I don't recall anything but blissfull darkness. But in the last week I have had several dreams sequences where there is some kind of crisis related to the end of the world. In one dream is was due to war/nuclear bombs, etc and in the other dream (one on one night and the other following the next right behind it) pps were extremely sick and dying but it was similar to Dawn of the Dead. V. Creepy and werid and I wake up with this icky strange deja vu feeling. Really strange and bizare. Didn't really hit me until I spoke with a girl that this could all be somehow related to the drastic changes that I am facing which could be true. Just really strange and it creeps me out to the MAX.

Went home last night feelin all bloated and FAT and decided that I would take my two monsters of dogs (German Shepards, one female & one male) for a walk into the big village and back as it was fairly warm out and it would do myself good and it would be good for them. They got sooooo excited that they dragged me for about half of the way until they finally got a little tired. Almost fell on my face several times, and i'm sure that all the pps driving by thought "who da hell", and i looked so cute with my hat and nice jogging pants (being very sarcastic here). But it felt GREAT the fresh air, the nice peaceful quite tranqulity of the woods, but man i'm really starting to work up a sweat and it's starting to get a little dark, so not good, getting a little scared now.....umm it's getting a little creepy now, the damn dogs decided to chase after a squirel or something and pretty much pulled my arm out of joint that feels nice, also am starting to get a blister on one of my baby toes and that hurts too but hey I finally made it home and I feel Fab as I got off of my ass and did something. Now to find something to eat.....heh heh heh

Where it's that time of the month ~ ya know what i'm talking about ~ i've been craving, no that doesn't do it justice but I can't describe it any diffently chocolate, so what do I go and do, stupid me, I had to pick up some groceries yesterday and i'm in the damn chip/snack isle (god I hate that isle) and lo and behold it was like a bright light shining and saints singing and everything there lies the mini Reeses Peanut Butter cups. OMG I frickin love these little bastards and i'm drooling in the middle of the isle and I cannot, CANNOT possibly wait another second to tear into the fuckers. So i'm booting it for the check out and i'm starting to froth at the mouth i'm so ravenous for these. I race to the car and throw in my other junk that I had to get and then i'm in the driver seat and it's just pure and simple maddness now and then there open and oh gawd how wonderfull, words cannot describe the pleasure I had in that moment. To die for and now i've been eating them left and right and I just can't stop. Thankfully, I only get like this mabye every 3-4 months, so it's not like every month but still just wrong on many levels

Well I have got to do some work today at least for another hour, ha ha get to leave at 2 today, Wish me luck in my interview ~ See ya suckers!!

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

American Idol (AI) Predictions - Week One

Ok, I'll try this again, last time I lost it and i probably won't remember most of it ~ stupid internet! Anyways, I want to start doing this every week as it makes me feel high up in the world, just call me H.Foster Recording Marketing Executive extrondinair (another dream job of mine.....heh heh). Move over Simon! ha ha ha ha

Anways let's see if I remember what I typed last time.

The boys - my bottome 3 pics

Jared Yates - He Sang "How could I". Simon compaired him to a "boy" band reject and that about sums this guy up. Can't sing, painful to watch, no flare or personality at all. I had him on mute and it still hurt to watch. Pack your bags boy your goin home.

Scott Savol - Sang "You are my lady". This is a fat whiteboy who looks like he belongs as an extra on the t.v. show "the soprano's". I admit he can sing but he's so grose and creepy to look at that it just ruins it for me. The last thing we need out there is another Ruben Stoddard that starts sweating as soon as they open there mouth to sing. Nasty.

Joseph Murena - Sang "How am I supposed to Live without you". That should say enough really, who sings or wants to sing a Michael Bolton song. BORING and lame. Had him on mute to as he hurt my ears. This guy looks at least over 30 and I am sure he lied his age to get into the contest. The judges gave him encouraging words though and said he's better than that but i'm sure the voting public will think differently.

The Girls - Bottom 3 pics

Sarah Mather - She sang "Get Ready". The judges were brutal on her song choice and I tend to agree. Just didn't work even though I tried to give her a chance. I couldn't remeber her from the audtions stages and i'm thankful that I haven't seen more. She reminds me a lot of a girl that lives close to where I do and is actually dating my hubby's cousin, snagle tooth and all, even the hair (when she had it longer) was the same. WEIRD. Everyone has a twin out there I guess but she has no chance in hell of movin on

Amanda Avila - Sang "How am I supposed to live....." another Michael Bolton song. HELLO pps if you saw a guy sing the same song the night before and totally blow goats don't sing that song too. WRONG wrong wrong.I think that's what she sang and it's what they had posted on the net, course I could be wrong and I can't really remember, I just know it sucked ass. Pretty girl (hubby liked her), she can sing but she's just missin that somethin. Don't think she will get that far and I kinda liked her early on but not so much anymore. Sorry but I think your on your way out

Janay Castine - Sang "I wanna love you forever" Overall the judges were quite nice to her and said that she can be good but her performances last night didn't show it. The girl looked absoltely terrified and she was so shaky and spazzie that I thought she was having a seizure. Vocals were all over and she looked like a deer caught in the headlights. She may be ok, but based on last nights performance she better have a strong fan/family base and she better snap around next week or she won't last long.

so those are my pics and hopefully this will work this time....beter save it first.....done now let's see if I can post it this time............

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Daily Weekender Report

Friday ~ felt sorry for myself, slept in until my mother called and dragged my sorry ass out of bed and got me a movin. Applied in person for two jobs in F'ton (don't really want one but applied anyways...) really liked the other one, in fact they have already called me back for an interview (yippee), ate at Swiss Chalet, yum yum and came home as we are both poor and did not want to venture into the mall

Saturday ~ again felt sorry for myself, stayed in bed well past 1:00 PM, cousin jilly called around that time to go with her & "m" for some kind of ski-doo races at Palfry. Loaded up in the old civic and went for a bumble, turns out that it was over packed and we weren't dressed warm enough, decided to head to Klinkers instead to eat & drink some beer. Continued on our bumble through the back roads of McAdam and Canterbury, then proceed to a friends camp at 1st Eel, "m" put the car into a snow bank while we were all singing along to "I think were alone now" by Tiffany, to funny & good times

Sunday ~ Did absoltely shit, laid in bed pretty much the entire day & watched useless mindless T.V. actually got kind of bored and restless but still way to lazy to do anything about it. Got my weekly dose of Desperate Housewives, good show, can't really remember much now but yeah I think it was good

Monday ~ Again slept in, got to watch some daytime t.v. for a change can't really say that i've missed it. I've realized though that my dream job would to be a "barker" girl on the price is right. I mean how fucking cool would that job be, you get to dress up in dresses, outfits, bathing suits and parade around on stage waving your manicured hands and fake smiling and the fun rather disgusting flirting with Bob Barker who really looks more like a white haired skelton every day (how old is this man anyways......"shudders" just wrong). After my yearly dose of the Price is Right I had to get ready for yet another ultra sound and no i'm not preggers.....anyhoo had to drink 2-3 glasses of water an hour before hand so not fun and rather painful this time around. The stupid doctors here in Woodstock are jerks and asses and I was not impressed by their service and they made me feel stupid and like I was a waste of their time. I know something is not right with me but they can never locate anything on my overies and it's an endless cycle that i'm getting sick of, so yet again nothing came up on the scan and I wanted to leave there blatting but i didn't and my poor kidneys hurt for like an hour afterwords.

Returned home to have yet another nap only to wake up an hour and a half later to watch General Hospital and the proceed to be bored until American Idol came on at 9:00 only to be hugely dissappointed the men sucked ass! Like only 1 or 2 really interested me the rest of them blew goats quite litterally. One guy Antwar I think was really good vocally but he totally freaked me out at the end when they were going over his numbers he just stood there with this stuipd freakish grin on his face and he totally scared me. He looked like an alien or robot, really watch it back and you'll see what i mean......doo dooo doo (twilight zone music here). My fav Constaine kinda turned me off last night with his cocky attitude & vocally he was not on last night. The only ones that I feel belong there are Mario (he rocked the end of the show), Antwar (still creepy), Constaine, Bo, The Dude who sang Travelling Band don't know name, the rest can go the fuck home cause you SUCK, your boring, not cool and you SUCK. Don't drag this out for weeks man just send the lame ones home!!! GRRRR god knows what tonight will bring with the girls.........

So now it's Tuesday and i've been pretty busy at work (well not really) but it looks good to write it. Have one interview for Thursday this week (for a call centre in F'ton don't think I want it but will do the interview anyways) and the good news of the day was to find out that I have been one of the "chosen" ones to go for testing (basically screening before and interview) for the same department that i'm with now only in F'ton. So hopefully that goes really well and cross your fingers and toes that I get an interview and better yet the position as it's really great money and I really would like to stay within the gov't so that one day I can transfer back here......anyways i'm getting off topic. Oh I almost forgot, found out that they did get the 2wks of training for the new dude coming in on the first, therefore I don't get the boot until March 11. Which I will take, better than next Monday.

So that's it for my Weekend update, really didn't do or accomplish much but there it is for all to see and enjoy.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

10 things i've done today

1.) woke up this am and giggled and tee heed silently to self as I have a four day weekend to do NOTHING

2.)pretty much dressed myself in the dark this morning and i'm wearing the same pants I did too days ago with peanut butter on the pant leg

3.)wen't to start car this morning as it was covered in a a sheet of ice/snow and I had a hard time opening the car door as it was frozen shut, ended up scraping my poor sore pinky (yes it's still hurts and is taking forever to heal....) and got the stupid thing bleeding again

4.)had a Dr. appt this am had to have a lovely PAP done, fun fun, turns out I am having problems yet again with a lot of pain/discomfort with my overies (i praticly jumped off the table when she did an internal exam as it really HURT) and she wants me to have another ultra sound ~ yipee~ NOT, i'm sure they won't find anything just like any other time i've had them done i've been around this block a time or to already and i'm not looking forward to yet another dead end

5.)applied for a job today that i'm sooooo not qualified for but thought hey why not try it anyways i'm sure i'll be receiving a nasty rejection letter in the mail early next week

6.)picked my nose today in the bathroom and nicked it a little to hard with my nail and got the damn thing bleeding

7.) was so ticked off at my finger nail that I chewed the bastard off ~ he he take that you nuck and fuck

8.)think that I look really cute and hot today as my hair is lookin pretty fine and I went funky this morning and put on really cool green eye shadow. Course this could just be all in my head and pps are probably secretly making fun of me behind my back, but I don't frickin care today, nothing can ruin my mood today (*note it's now 3:00 in the afternoon and I look like a $3 whore, make up has all rubbed off and not looking so great now)

9.)told an MK representative to basically fuck off, stupid mofo's piss me off ~ grrrrr I don't want or need $400 dollars worth of product back off bitch!!! Mabye it's just that I don't understand it all but she really just ticked me off just now, bitch!!

10.)I probably should have waited to do this at the end of the day as i've now run out of things to talk about ~ oh well have a great weekend all i'm out until next Tuesday suckers!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

Raising "boys"

no I am not a mother nor do I plan to be any time in the near future but I don't really have anything to say today and I really like this joke that a good friend of mine just sent me so onto my blogger page it goes. Hope you enjoy!

a) For those with no children - this is totally hysterical!
b) For those who already have children past this age, this is hilarious.
c) For those who have children this age, this is not funny.
d) For those who have children nearing this age, this is a warning.
e) For those who have not yet had children, this is birth control.

The following came from an anonymous Mother in Austin, Texas . . .

THINGS I'VE LEARNED FROM MY BOYS (honest and not kidding):

1.) A king size waterbed holds enough water to fill a 2000 sq. foot
house 4 inches deep.

2.) If you spray hair spray on dust bunnies and run over them with
roller blades, they can ignite.

3.) A 3-year old boy's voice is louder than 200 adults in a crowded restaurant.

4.) If you hook a dog leash over a ceiling fan, the motor is not strong enough to
rotate a 42 pound boy wearing Batman underwear and a Superman cape.
It is strong enough, however if tied to a paint can, to spread paint on all four walls
of a 20x20 ft. room.

5.) You should not throw baseballs up when the ceiling fan is on. When
using a ceiling fan as a bat, you have to throw the ball up a few times
before you get a hit. A ceiling fan can hit a baseball a long way.

6.) The glass in windows (even double-pane) doesn't stop a baseball
hit by a ceiling fan.

7.) When you hear the toilet flush and the words "uh oh", it's
already too late.

8.) Brake fluid mixed with Clorox makes smoke, and lots of it.

9.) A six-year old Boy can start a fire with a flint rock even
though a 36-year old man says they can only do it in the movies.

10.) Certain Lego's will pass through the digestive tract of a
4-year old boy.

11.) Play dough and microwave should not be used in the same sentence.

12.) Super glue is forever.

13.) No matter how much Jell-O you put in a swimming pool, you still
can't walk on water.

14.) Pool filters do not like Jell-O.

15.) VCR's do not eject "PB & J" sandwiches even though TV commercials
show they do.

16.) Garbage bags do not make good parachutes. (Brandon has already
tried this with a Co-op grocery bag)

17.) Marbles in gas tanks make lots of noise when driving.

18.) You probably DO NOT want to know what that odor is.

19.) Always look in the oven before you turn it on; plastic toys do not
like ovens. (Pat did this)

20.) The fire department in Austin, TX (my home town) has a 5-minute
response time.

21.) The spin cycle on the washing machine does not make earthworms

22.) It will, however, make cats dizzy.

23.) Cats throw up twice their body weight when dizzy.

24.) 80% of Men who read this will try mixing the Clorox and brake

25.) Women will pass this on to almost all of their friends, with or without kids.

You know it will be just my luck to end up having 2 boys someday and then if i'm crazy (and i'm sure I will be) will try our luck for a third child wishing for a girl and it will be yet another boy. And they will all be little terrors and i'm sure I will have a daily occurance of the incidents mentioned above. Let's hope and pray that this never, EVER happens okay.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

It's a NEW day

ok, i'm feelin somewhat better today.

Wen't home last night and blatted my eyes out, had to get it all out of my system so I won't end up doing it here at the office. Didn't really acheive anything by doing it but I am feeling better today. I'm staying positive and I keep telling myself that everything will be ok and it will all work out. It's just very frustrating though as I just went through all of this shit two years ago at my previous position. Funny how things work out for me.

I've been on-line searching for jobs, hoping to do up some resumes today and start getting them out. I have Friday and Monday off coming up and mabye I will take one of those days just to hand out resumes, not all that fun but it needs to be done. Cross your fingers and wish me luck :0)

Called into my Dr.'s office to see if I can get 3 months worth of birth control pills while I still have my blue cross coverage. Shouldn't be a problem so that's one less worry that I won't have to think about. Also got suckered into booking yet another lovely yearly exam that all women have to suffer through scheduled for Thrusday morning ~great~

Which now leaves more space in the old brain dept for me to worry about financial woes. Hubby couldn't really care, he's so laid back and takes everything in stride. He's all like that's what our line of credit is there for and hell no!! Dammit we don't need to put ourselves into further debt ~ oh fuck I really can't handle this shit. I'm sure a mental breakdown is in the near future for me.

Finally heard from my sissy who lectured me for not calling her either ~ regardless I was soooo glad to hear from here and I got her new phone number and called her last night in my desperation. She always calms me down and cheers me up ~ thanks sissy~

I'm having serious anxiety and stress and today I am even noticing that I have chest pain and my throat is kinda sore. Mabye i am slowly dying like I stated in a previous post that or i am just coming down with the cold that has been running rampant through the office

i'm not really looking forward to my vacation days any more, which is surprzing as two weeks ago I was just itching for a break. Weird

I'm super duper hungry and my lunch that I brought today sucks ass, chances are high that I will end up either eating out or raiding the grocery store when I am there to pick up bread and some dog food.

Time to put on my happy face and go back to pretending that eveything is ok. Only you and I know the real truth.

I'm out

Monday, February 14, 2005

Fuck A Duck

Well it's offical, the Program Officer (PO) position has been filled and this guy is supposed to start work on March 1.

Lovely, I knew deep down that my gut was right and i'm glad that I was at least semi prepared for this. On the positive side they are trying to arrange it so that this guy gets like 2-3 weeks of orientation which means that I would get to hang around a little longer than just two weeks, the only problem is they don't know if this is approved yet or not, another "lovely" fits here ~ just fucking shoot me now and get it over with.

My supervisor was extremely nice though and said that if they could keep me instead of some other workers things would be great, but still that means no job for me ~sob~ i don't know what the hell to think or to do. I have been applying for positions every now and then but nothing, nadda, silch. And I really really really hate going on un-employment but I probably won't have any other choice, and I just don't know how the 2 of us will get buy both being on EI. If it was a month from now it wouldn't be a big deal as he ususally gets sent back in early April. Now i'm really fretting and down, happy thoughts

At least it's fucking Valentines Day - stupid fucking holiday

stupid fucking life

supid fucking job

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Thursday, February 10, 2005

a little of everything

My mood today is a combination of everything, i'm not really happy, i'm not overly angry, i'm not really sad i just don't know today.

Another big HUGE mofo storm coming today (already starting to snow) and this time i'm sure it's going to hit us new brunswickers hard, were supposed to get anywhere's between 20-30 cm of hopefully tommorrow will be a snow day YIPPEEE but probably not ~ i can dream can't i????

Yesterday I worked very hard all day trying to sort and organize our dept's filing system so that's my excuse as to why i'm so damn tired and lazy today and I don't feel like doing jack shit

Hubby and I wen't to his grandmother's house last night to pick up his gun that was left to him only to come out with box after box of little trinkets and nick nacks. Also found out that we will probably get a wicker set of a loveset & chairs and table and will probably be able to get the deep freezer as well. Had several failed attempts to get one of the big comfy leather recliners though....dammit

got my one day of curves in yesterday don't think I will be back this week

my two fingers are very sore and swollen today and are looking like they are getting or going to be infected. V Red and are oozing, kinda cool actually

Hubby is all excited about the new Survivor that is coming on tonight and I couldn't give a rats ass. Chances are it will be a royal rumble tonight at my house as it's on at the same time as the OC and I never miss an episode of the OC and I will be soooo mad at him if we don't watch it. I am so sick of Survivor as it's all the same old crap and it's just not exciting any more, call it quits while your ahead Mark whatever your name is or better yet come up with something new and better

Can you belive that a chick from American Idol got thru to the next round and she talked herself out of the opportunity! Stupid, dumbass move chicky when if ever will you have another opportunity like this? Dumb move and i'm sure you are kicking yourself in the ass right now, i know I would be

Have been a lot of sick pps here at the office lately, every time I turn around someone else is sick or hacking and coughing. What I don't understand is why they insist on coming into work like this. What the hell are you trying to prove? Stay the fuck at home and don't spread you frigging germs, I don't want it and i'm sure nobody else does here too! This really ticks me off. Unless you don't get paid sick days (like me ~ he he) and you are in serious financial trouble and you desperately need the money stay home, rest get better and try again another day

it's really cold in here today BRRRRRRRRR

I really, really, really miss my sissy (aka my sister). She lives out in Western Canada and her and her army boyfriend Joel (pronouced JOEL kinda like Noel christmas time you know I can't put the funny astriks thingy over the e....god i'm dumb) are moving to Kingston, Ontario and I haven't heard from her in weeks and she never comes on here and i am seriousily missing her. I don't know how she is or what's new and it's just plain odd and weird. I don't know why she hasn't called and my feelings are kinda hurt ~sob~ he he only a little I just wish I knew how things are for her in a new city and all and I want her to call me dammit!

woke up in a fog again this morning, so did not want to get out of bed I didn't really come fully awake until about 15 minutes ago and it's only shortly after 11:00 in the morning.

Looked down and of course my socks don't match ~ typical for me but today my pants are really short and they ride up past the ankle (which I so hate but they were the only pants clean.....) and everyone keeps telling me my socks don't match......i know already leave me the F alone

well that's it for another day, I just got busy doing other stuff and I totally forgot that I was on-line doing this.....WHOOPS won't look very good better get movin!

Take care all and to everyone in New Bruswick drive safe and keep it outta the ditch!

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

~ Wipe Out ~

This morning was a typical any other morning for me, I got up did my daily routine of a shower, trying to find something clean to wear, grooming myself, getting my lunch together and then finally going out and starting my car so it can run for a few minutes. This morning I did this later than usual as it has been extremely mild here in our neck of the woods and last night it rained/freezing rained and I probably shouldn't even have bothered starting it early as it really did not need it but oh no I had to stick to the routine.

So here I am in a hurry running just a tad late and I only put my shoes half on and I didn''t bother with a coat so I step outside and wow it's so warm out I go down one step, and then another and all of a sudden i'm airborne and everything is happening in slow motion and I can feel myself falling and then next thing I know i'm rolling on the ground in a heap and my right hand takes the brunt of the fall and I get gravel in my nuckles and palm and ohhhhh GAWD it hurts....HURTZ!!!! And I feel like laughing hysterically at myself and I look around to make sure that nobody had seen my little blip and I want to giggle but I can't because my hand is burning and i'm bleeding and dammit if I don't want to cry a little. In the mean time i'm still on the cold, wet, icy ground and I can't seem to pull my ass up which is also hurting a little, so I muck it up and pull myself up off the ground and turn on the stupid piece of shit car. It's all her fault the stupid bitch.

My poor little pinky is really bleeding and dammit if I don't have gravel crammed in their with all the blood and ripped skin. I go back inside sulking like a little child and hubby didn't know what to think, he's like what happend did you slip on the ice??? and i'm like I DON'T KNOW BUT I FELL AND I'M BLEEDING and all you can do is lay there in bed and show me no sympathy what-so-ever, so I then proceeded to throw a "heather" fit and I left the house all in a huff and came to work and then once I get here I almost fall again in the damn parking lot that is an entire sheet of ice, luckily this time my balance prevailed and I stayed on two feet.

So now eveyone looks at my hand and are asking me what did you do get into a brawl or something? And i'm at that point today that I am just saying yes I did what's it to you, what's it to you..........

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Pro's and Con's of our new office

I have really been struggling here at work since our office move. I can't seem to get back into my daily happy routine that I had going on in our old office. And I often feel like I am the only one here struggling but I have been talking to a few of the other girls and they are having the same problem. I can't get my day to day tasks done let alone my "big" projects that I have to do every month. For example I receive these annual/monthly audit reports and i'm supposed to go and pull our file maintenance forms and pull all of the forms out from the previous month (last month was Jan) anyways I have been trying to do this all morning and I haven't gotten anywhere's. I can't stay focused on anything and it's very frustrating. No wonder my head hurts every night when I go home. I'm dreading getting our monthly arrears won't be fun and so not looking forward to it, but hey whose to say I will be there then anyways found out this "am" from a co-worker (only cause I asked, as nobody ever tells me anything) that they are sending out a confirmation letter to a person to fill the vacant position, lovely that's 2 weeks and counting for me........but whose to say this person will even take the position.....sigh....I hate not knowing and it's killing me, slowly and surely it is I KNOW IT!!!!!

Anyhoo I figured I would compare the two offices in kinda a pro's and con's sceneario. So here goes.....

Pro ~ I have tons and tons of counter space more than I actually need and all of my stuff is spread out and i'm up and down out of my chair 50 million times a day

Con ~ My old desk was just right, mabye a little small but I had everything handy, and I didn't have to go far to get anything

Pro ~ The air quality and heating is way better here, in fact I haven't been as stuffed up as I used to be and my headaches haven't been quite as bad here.

Pro ~ I get to use really cool gadgets like a headset and I have this pass to get into pretty much anywhere's in this building. I feel like James Bond on most days........ The only downside to this is that my photo is on this thing and it's hideous, I mean seriousily what the hell was I thinking that day, I have no makeup on and my hair couldn't possibly be any flatter. I look so grose I often will turn it around backwords so that you can't see the pic

Con ~ My filing unit that used to be directly behind me in the other office is now way down the hallway and I am finding it impossible to get down there and do my day to day filing. I never really realized how much filing I do on a day to day basis until it all started piling up on me last week and there was a shit load of filing to do and I was freaking out, I mean really freaking out. It really bugs me when I have stuff pile up and I can't get around to doing it, but I finally got it done and i'm good for another few days. Things are just so different here it's hard to adjust, even on a good day.

Con ~ The damn phone will not STOP!!! It's just a constant annoying little bugger that will not quit. It will be quit for a few minutes and then BOOM it just hits and it starts going all over again. It's an endless cycle that really annoys me. Generally the girl who sits behind me is suppsed to get the phone but she's being pulled in so many directions her self by people from her department that she is often not out front here to get the phone so that leaves poor old me to handle the phone & incoming clients. When this happens I can do nothing but answer the phone and I can't handle doing this & my day to day workload. I'm burnt out and last week I was pretty much at wits end and ready to scream at someone

Pro ~ It is always, ALWAYS busy here, never a dull quiet moment, if there is it's hardly ever and it never lasts very long. The only good thing about this is that the days goes by super duper fast but by the time I get home i'm so burnt out my body can barely function.

Con ~ in the old office I looked forward to our quiet periods of the month, that was when I could get things caught up, files disbursed, surf the net, whatever it gave me a down time. I've been so wired lately I am beginning to think that clients think I am on speed or some sort of caffine high. I talk a mile a minute, I look frazzled - hair all over, nail's chewed off, etc - I often look like I have been run over by a freight truck.

Con ~ another con is that the "big wigs" are around a lot more often. Before I would hardly see them or at least I could see them coming. Now they sneek around and come up behind me without me knowing so not cool and I am contantly trying to kiss ass as I really want to stay here and keep my job - which probably won't happen anyways so it will all be for nothing.

Pro ~ Were right dab in the middle of downtown Woodstock, I can walk to most things and makes it a little easier as I don't have to go quite so far as I used to all though it's not much of a difference.

Con ~ the parking here sucks ass. My hrs are from 8:45 - 5:00 pm. By the time I get here in the morning I might as well park 2 blocks away as there are never any parking spaces and on very cold days this really bites the big one

well i'm tired now and don't feel like writing any more. Angela has twisted my arm and were going to go out for lunch (I basically do not want to go and exercise today so hey i'm game, even thought I can't really afford it....) So yeah, it's Tuesday it's a great day today, just stay positive Heather and eveything will be ok.


yeah if that shit actually happens but it's worth a shot :0)

take care all ~ until we meet again i'm out

Monday, February 07, 2005

a summary of my weekend

It was finally the weekend and I was surprizingily in a good mood come Saturday morning

A big crew of us all went 4 wheeling to Palfry Lake Lodge (close to McAdam)

Had to be all friendly and chummy with one of my best friends ex-boyfriend's and his new flame. Was totally disgusting as they couldn't keep their hands off of each other, I pratically almost bite my tongue off as I was biting my tongue so damn hard. Needless to say I was not having a great time and was swigging back the coolers and feel in pretty damn good until......

Got half way to Palfry when our wheeler broke down....hubby not to happy and neither was I. Luckily my Uncle Gary had his truck down there and he was able to haul the "piggy" home and we loaded onto my dad's and dad road on back with Dana. Everything was good, but I was having serious anxiety over how much it would cost to have it repaired and I totally lost my perfectly good little buzz that I had going on

Thankfully though hubby tore it all apart yesterday and did something to the wires and it seems to be working ok for now (cross your fingers). So hopefully it won't need to go to the shop and cost us an arm & a leg to fix it.

Back to Saturday.....

We get back from Palfry to go and sit at the camp aka "the swamp" and it's so painfully bored that I could literally scream. Having to continue to sit and watch these two grope and fondel each other and "honey" this and that made me want to vomit all over the table I was sitting at. So disgusting, so not appropriate, so damn irritating, get a room you nuck and fucks!!! grrrrrrr

Finally made enough eye contact with hubby to siginal that I want to go home, left the camp shortly after 9:30 PM

Went home and immediately went to bed I was damn tired

Sunday ~

got up and actually did house work

I cleaned like there was no tommorrow, did laundry, washed the bedding & hung it out was so damn warm outside, scrubbed toilets, you name it I cleaned it

laid around all afternoon doing nothing

went to look and see what I could get for supper only to find nothing in the fridge or cupboards.

Decided to sucker my hubby into taking me out for dinner & a movie.....he he he pulled some pretty good tricks (get your mind out of the gutter it was nothing dirty.....) to get him to bite.

Went to supper at Pizza Delight ~ mmm good

Watched Boogeyman, got a little scared but was more irritated with the two dumb teenagers behind us. Stupid little twits keep talking, laughing and screaming through the whole damn movie. Seriousily get a brain and a life. I wasn't that ignorant when I was a teen and I don't like it when you ruin the movie for me. I wanted to turn around several times and give them hell but I was scared they would make a scene and embarss me which would not be cool.

Came home, watched a bit of the super bowl and went to bed

all in all not to bad of a weekend I must say

Friday, February 04, 2005

Praise the Lord

Thank you lord it's finally Friday

Thank you for another day here on this glorious, wonderful, beautiful earth that just keeps piling me up with crap that I don't want to deal with......

Thank you for getting me here to work this morning because I know I was not fully awake while driving.......

Thank you for this weeks paycheck even though half of it is gone already.......

Thank you for giving me the patience that I have used all week in dealing with client's, fellow staff, whomever, as I am sure that I could have very easily killed or have severely hurt people this week and the thought of going to hell is not all the pleasant.....although it is probably warm down there..........

Thank you for giving me the strength and will to fight my strong urge to go to McDonald's all week. I have fought and won it this week as I haven't been there and I was sooooo tempted yesterday but I didn't go, amazingly I didn't go and my waist line thanks you..........

Thank you for keeping my piece of shit car running for another week, and hopefully for a few more months. Just hang in there please as I can't afford to do any more repairs on it and please keep the engine running

Thanks for looking out for my loved ones and ones that I hold dear. Give Jilly the strength she needs to fight her hunger pains and just be there for her. She has finally quit smoking after all these years and she honestly does not need another battle on her hands, respect her wishes and give her what she wants. Be there for her to lean on when she needs a friend.

And finally thanks for listening to me whine and complain but please can't you just give me a break already and let me win the lottery as it would make my life a whole lot better and I would be a much happier person. Please!?

Thursday, February 03, 2005

"If I had a million dollars"

A lyric from the talented Barenaked Ladies song appropriately titled "if I had a million dollars". You see not only did we just have an elderly, retired couple win a million dollars from last weeks Atlantic 649 (they live down around Nackawic I think) and they purchased the ticket from the Shoppers Drug mart out at our "big" mall, but now another million dollars has gone yet again here in Woodstock. This is offical too as one of the girls sons here is dating or engaged to this guys daughter and they called her last night all excited with the news. Dr. Fullerton (local eye doctor extrondinar) is now a millionaire on top of what he probably already has stashed away. So not fair and why couldn't it have been me who wen't to Buntings (local grocery store) last night to purchase some stupid instant scratch ticket.

Jealousy rears it's ugly head. I'm trying to be happy for them as I do know one of his daughters to and everyone here at the office has been saying that he's really nice and he will do good things with this money BUT IT'S NOT FAIR DAMMIT! ok, better now. So i've figured that hey why not put thoughts to paper and write down my wish list if I actually was to win a million or more (i'm greedy ok). So here goes........

First things first I would try to put a certain percentage away in a RSP or some type of account where it could grow and accumlate interest. It would have to be something that I couldn't be able to withdrawal until after a certain age or some sort of limit on it as I would tend to go through the money very, very fast and I would like to have some stability so I would never, EVER have to work again.

Travel, I would just hit the road and take whoever wanted to go with me and just go from here to there and everywhere. I want to experience Rome, Paris, Egypt, Austrailia you name it I would go there. In fact I would probably spend over an entire year just travelling and buying antiques and artifacts gallour

Buy a new Fabber house. There's nothing wrong with the current house that i'm paying on right now, but hell i'm a millionaire I deserve the best and here's what I would do. I would pay off my existing mortgage, move his parents in there as I would tear down there old beat up run down house and I would build my mansion just a little higher up and back away from the road. The view is amazing and you can see clear into the state of Maine on a good day and you can see Mount Kattadin (close but no cigar) and it's just so serene and peaceful. I would probably build a huge, HUGE log home that could pass for some fancy resort. Big windows, big decks I would be in log home heaven. Then I would buy all new furniture, decorations (from my travels.....) and the best of the best of appliances and oh what fun that would be

I would buy a new car, nothing fancy in fact cause I don't really give a rats ass what i drive as long as it gets me there. I would probably buy one of those new Honda cars that runs on battery energy and doesn't use gas or barely any at least. Would just be cool to have one, in bright green or something like that

Shopping spree here I come, on my fab travels I would be able to shop all over the world, Milan, Paris, the top of the line stuff wouldn't stand a chance against me. I would have matching everything, matching shoes, purses, coats, accessories ~ everything that I would love to have now and can't afford I would just go right to town. It would be scary to see what damage I could do shopping alone (i'm sure it would be well over 100,000 all by itself). I am not always a big shopper but when i'm in the right mood watch out

I would probably have my own ranch. This is really more of my husband's dream but I love animals and every girl always wants there own horse, let alone there own ranch. I'd have tons and tons of horses and i'd probably start some sort of riding school and camp through the summer for foster kids or kids who aren't well off in life. And yeah, this would be my good deed that I would do with the money & it benefits me :) Although my one experience on a horse was not all that pleasant, in fact it was down right hilarious (i'll save that story for another day)

I would of corse make sure that my immediate family or ones that are close with me get something as well. I would mabye pay off their debts, or buy them a new car or something like that. It can't be all about me all the time, so I would look after them as well.

I would also have to go freaky and get tons and tons of bling bling. Diamonds here I come!! I'm not all that big on jewlery but if I had endless funds......oh boy the damage I could do. Rings, and necklaces, watches and hey why not through in a tiara in there too.....he he

If only, if only this could happen ~ one can continue to dream and wonder but at least that gives me tons of ideas. The endless possibilities, so not fair but i'll continue to buy tickets and hold my breath every time they scan and check my ticket.

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Oh Blog, how I love thee

Hello Blog ~ I just wanted to say thank you for being a friend, thanks for being there when I need you. When I just need to get something off of my chest you are here for me. When I need a good laugh I go to a friends or complete strangers sites and laugh and laugh. When I am in a pissy mood like today and just need to vent out my frustration, you are here for me. Words cannot express what you mean to me ~tear silently rolls down check~ and i'm truly thankful for your friendship as it has been theraputic to me and I don't know what I would possibly be without you.

It's hard to believe that our friendship only started a few months ago but oh what we have acheived in such little time. I keep in touch with family and close friends and i've even made a few new ones through you. You are very near and dear to my heart and I try my best to get in every day and say something new to you & to check and see if anyone has left a comment for me and you.

You are making me a little angry though today as I keep trying to hit "publish post" and nothing is happening, i've re-typed several things and I keep losing them so I must say shame on you today and quite honestly I feel like I have wasted enough of my time here trying to make you happy. So farewell then and I take back my nice comments that I mentioned earlier on. I only hope you are in a better mood tommorrow.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

The different levels of society

I've run into a few people in the last few days and i've been thinking there should be some sort of chart or graph for people to determine what leveal a person belongs in and whether or not to "avoid" them at all costs. A few that I have run into within the last 4-5 days are:

Dirrty pps - not Christina Agueleria (soo not right but who the hell cares) dirrty, but I mean actual dirt is on there body. These are the lowest of the low and are on the bottom of my chart. I don't mean to stereotype, but generally they are on welfare, un-employed and they seriousily smell nasty. Most times they are angry at the world, they are extremely negative and I hate dealing with them. Not all are like this but most are.

Nobody home in the brain dept pps - these people may look like the above or even worse like a "normal" person, but as soon as they speak you know that they aren't all there in the head. They have this constant stupid expression on their face and you just want to shake them.

Slimy pps - most of the time for me these are generally males, I haven't come across to many women who are slimy - mabye once or twice but I can't really recall it.....anyways back to my description. These men as soon as they walk into a room ooze loudness (tight pants, leather jackets, big gaudy jewlery - rings, watches, necklaces, etc). These men always, always have some sort of sexual comment to make to me and they totally creep me out. I mean I know that i'm cute but do you really need to make me THAT uncomfortable. Once I am done dealing with them I feel like I need to have a shower, this is how slimy and creepy they are ~shudders~

Country Bumpkins - We have a lot of these in my neck of the woods. These are big bellied men who love to hunt, wear camo all year round, beer guzzling, loud mouthin people. Genereally they are nice to deal with but don't piss them off, don't get them talking about hunting and definetely don't tell them a redneck joke as they totally wouldn't get it as that's there life.

totally off the wall - These people are so wacked out on whatever pill mental health has them on that they hardly know who they are let alone that they are on planet earth. I have this one women who is totally wild looking, hair all over and she constantly speaks in this high pitched, shrill voice, I can hear you lady pls tone it down........they never listen and they are always, ALWAYS in the right no matter what you may say or prove differently. They belong in straight jackets in an asulym somewhere's not on the street.

Friendly and nice pps like me - Were kinda caught in the middle most days and we always clump together (there's only 4 of us here in my office, and were all very similar in personalities), were easy going, friendly, nice, always there to help out and lend a hand, but we do have our days when we've had enough and our other side comes out, but over all were happy going, fun loving people

Seniors - some seniors get put further up as they fit in better with those descrptions but I do have the rare senior client that could be my grandma or grandpa. They just have that air about them, they are always friendly, they always talk about their family and sometimes I even notice that they have a grandpa smell on them, whether it be a pipe, cigar or just aftershave. It makes me really miss my grandfather, but at the same time it's like these people are here to remind us of them - very weird

High horse pps - These are people who rightfully belong in middle class society, but yet they think that they are better than everyone else and they sneer down there noses at everyone else. They are very vain, selfish, snotty, stuck up people. They think they are so much better and that they have Wonderful happy lives. I hate these people and I hate dealing with them on a daily basis. They always look you up and down and evaluate you, I feel like saying sometime did I pass the grade today? There's this lady here in the office like this, always wearing fancy jewlery, nice clothes, etc thinks she's so special because she's been filling in for a higher up positon here in the office but really underneath all that cover up she's admin support just like the rest of us. I can't wait for the day that she gets knocked off of her horse, even though it will mean for me that i've lost my job, but it will be worth it to see her knocked down.

The "wealthy" and "rich" - Here in Woodstock we get a lot of "faker's like above but to actually determine who really does have money and whose just living in dept still isn't that hard to determine. You can just tell who comes from money as they ooze this certain higher quality about them, I can't quite say why or what exactly but you can just tell. Plus on most occasions they are dressed flawlessly, they drive BMW or another fancy high priced car, they have beautiful jewlery (not the gaudy, trassy stuff, real nice quality, make you go oooo and ahhhhh kinda jewelry). Most of our wealthy pps are doctors, lawyers and accounts your typcial well off pps even though to a certain degree doctors can be pretty cheap and stingy too.

Well i'm runnin out of steam here but I think I have most bases covered, if not oh well it's my thought for the day and i'm glad it's off my mind.

Today's just another typical Tuesday in the office only it's welfare week and we are very busy taking in money from our clients, so i've had lots of the above in so far and it's not even past noon yet when most of them come to and rise from their crypts, so this afternoon is surely to get much much worse. Wish me luck ~

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Ok I just had to come back and tell anyone who comes here to go to my cousin's (jilly's) site because it's just too funny, you see we wen't to CURVES and you all know how I crack up there....anyways just go to and read her version as I just can't tell it quite like her and I honestly still can't stop laughing about it, I have tears rolling down my cheeks right now just thinking of it. Check it out if you have a chance, you won't regret it