to blog or not to blog

that is the question?

what has happend to the blogging world? is it the same for everyone else as it is for me?

just don't have the time or energy

or is blogging being pushed out by facebook and twitter (which I can say I don't do)

I can say that I do miss blogging and my few friends that I have made on here I do still read, I just don't comment

I can also say that I cannot possibly delete or remove this site as I have so many near and dear memories and some great posts on here that I can't part with. perhaps someday (if I get time) I will transfer them somewhere other than here so I can keep them to look back on

or better yet perhaps I will get the blogging bug again now that i'm on summer break from school?

who knows

I sure as hell don't

I have missed you

life is good, i'm happy, doing well in school, little miss is growing up before my eyes, time moving much to fast

life moves along

and so are the days of our lives

untitled

sometimes,

I sit and think and wonder

I can feel invincible and on top of the world one day

other times

I feel so alone, scared and vulnerable

we are part of such a vast and mighty universe it frightens me sometimes

sometimes,

I could sit and sob and cry

other times

I could laugh out loud and smile all day

sometimes,

I sit and think of you, an unknown you who may be thinking of me too

I wonder if i'm on the right path

have I chosen right?

Is everything pre-planned ahead of time?

sometimes,

my imgination runs wild

and i'm far away from here, having chosen that other path

would things be any different?

sometimes, I miss my old life

I miss blogging

and sleep

would I change it if I could

no

but sometimes, I just wonder and imagine

busy busy flea flea

I haven't forgotten you my dear old blog, i've just been, well, umm busy to say the least. Since I started school back in January (which seems like a lifetime ago), life has become an utter whirlwind. My life consists of school, homework, more school, spending time with my daughter whom I can't help but feel that i'm also neglecting - its that hardcore. I keep telling myself that it is only temporary and it will be worth it in the end but it is exhausting.

I have no clue what i'm running on anymore - i'm that tired

but strangely i'm happy

this is what i'm meant to do, it feels so right

just wish I would've done it years ago when I thought of it and was just to chicken to do it. would have still been hard i'm sure but at least it would've been number one priority where as now that is my daughter. not saying that I wish I hadn't had her (never in a million years would I take that back) but just sayin. ya know?

probably not making much sense, again, i'm sleep deprived people cut me some slack

just thought I would post a quick update for anyone out there that still reads or cares - i am still alive, and doing alright :P