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another month gone by and I honestly don't know where time is going or what I do in a run of a day but I blink and they go by.

this month Lily has seemed to just grow right before my eyes, one day she was little and now she's eating baby food, rice cereal and showing her first tooth. her poops have changed along with everything else and let me tell you oh how I miss the breast milk poops! sure they were a bit more messy but at least they didn't smell...ugh these new ones smell unlike anything I have ever smelled before!

what else has happened? well we purchased a new truck (new to us, it is a 2005) at the start of the month so that was sort of exciting. been walking a lot as the weather is still very nice & warm for this time of year. and that's about it really for may.

I leave you with a couple of my recent fav pics

laughing at mommy cuz she is funny!

6 months old!

see, I can sit up! well almost...

weird

it's weird how when I do get a moment (usually when little one is asleep) I don't know quite what to do with myself. it is just go, go and go all day long. and according to one friend it just gets worse the bigger and busier they get. so i'm trying to enjoy the moment of her not crawling although i'm sure I will just blink and off she'll go

I also take back all the harsh words and criticism I used to give to stay at home mothers, this by far is the hardest thing I have ever done. at the end of the day you sit and try to think where the hell the day went? you're exhausted, hair not combed (yet again), no makeup, same clothes pretty much as the day before (clean underwear, check), and somehow you manage to shrug it off, smile crawl in bed and get up and do it all again

day

after day

after day

I don't know what the hell I did before. god when I think back, I think wow you were really, really lazy. but at the same time, oh what I would give just to lay in bed all day and curl up with a good book. those were the days

and may i just bring up for a moment, becuase i'm sure it will leave me just as fast if I don't but holy hell my breasts are HUGE. none of my previous shirts from before will ever fit me again, I swear. who would've ever thought my small little "B" cups would become such mammoths. and not only are they mammoths but they are starting to droop and sag. ugh. so grose. I miss my "B" cup.

i'm sure they weigh in at about 5 pounds

another 10 pounds sits around my middle, in the deflated tire that i'm sure I will have for the rest of my life. and yah I could probably lose it if I did sit ups or crunches but i'm too tired and can't seem to fit it in anywhere. I have been walking a lot though, not much good that does to lose the poundage but it is good to get out in the fresh air, the weather here has been pretty good the last few weeks

i'm excited and sad about the LOST finale on Sunday. i'm sure I will bawl my eyes out

missing survivor already too

baby girl will be 6 months old on Monday! 6 months, that's half a year gone already. jeebus. now that makes me want to cry.

what day is it today? like seriousily

holy shitballs, I feel like I haven't been here in a long, long time

I can't believe we are half way through May already. May people! jebus I still feel like it is February or March at least as our nice warm weather has gone right out the window. it is FREEZING, well, at least today it is. I can't seem to get warm...

i'm off topic

what's new people? I so need to catch up with you all

there is a lot going on

were on the countdown for the final episode of LOST, Survivor, Supernatural and my guilty pleasure The Vampire Diaries. i'm so giddy and excited for them all but yet sad at the same time as we all know summertime t.v. blows. god I watch way to much t.v.

but hey at least I admit it!

loved Betty White on SNL ~ awesomeness

rumors are swirling that another crackbook group has formed to get her on Glee, now that would be hilarious!

in other news baby girl is growing and changing every stinking day, it is just so amazing to see, I know I have talked about it before, but it is just, wow. speechless.

i'm still dwelling/stewing about what I am going to do job wise in the fall (the dreaded fall...), and I keep trying to tell myself to not sweat it or to worry, but I can't help having that little nugget of info in the back of my brain, and it's driving me insane

I also think I have insomnia

I'm dead tired as baby girl is usually up at 5:30/6 am every day and I go, and go all day until her bedtime at 8/8:30 p.m. but do you think I can go to sleep when it comes my bedtime. hell no. probably cuz I can't turn my brain off, it just will not stop. little bits of things to do just keep popping up out of no where

i'm serious about the insane thing too by the way

ok, ok i'm not insane

just a typical overtired, mommy

and that's all I got - over and out