Wednesday, November 19, 2008

i robot

i feel like a robot

i'm just going through all the motions of life but I feel empty and numb

here is what my day consists of:

drag by butt ouf of bed (literally)
go to work in an empty office and process refunds all day
drive home
cook super for 1 (hubs is still working away all week)
play with dogs
get fire going
watch mindless t.v
maybe work on baby quilt for brother in law & wife's new son for x-mas (not likely)
go to bed around 11 wake up every morning around 2:30 -3 and then toss and turn until time to get up and do it all over again


i'm tired, achey and i know i'm depressed, i just can't seem to pick myself up or think of anything positive

no luck on the job front/hunt either

look like i'll be filing for EI which may take up to six weeks to get 1st payment

not good

esp when the hubs will be filing after next week also

needless to say that we will not be doing Christmas this year

fun times in the Maritimes


Wandering Coyote said...

This the shittiest time of year for this to be happening (not that there is a great time, but you know what I mean). Chin up, chin up.

mcBlogger said...

Wow,that really sucks. Worst time of year too. My heart goes out to you and your hubbs. I'm sure your friends and family will be more than understanding about Christmas time and gifts especially as it's supposed to be more about sharing the joy. I know it's hard, but maybe you can look at it like a mini vacation, just without the umbrella drinks.

flea said...

wc - yup, i get what you mean, totally! and i'm trying to keep my chin up, some days are better than others

mcB - long time my friend!! and i'm sure they will understand, just trying to make the hubs understand now that's entirely different. we fight about this every time i bring it up, he just doesn't get it, to me gifts are the least important thing at Christmas