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i'm back!!

while i had a nice week away, nothing compares to coming back home and having nice weather (finally!)

on the downside though, my hunt for my next job officially begins (boo)

so that's all i got....

hope all is well with everyone else

come with me were going to the treehouse...

not sure which childhood show that's from, but it's been going through my brain today...

so i'm off to visit my sissy tomorrow, flying by myself for the 1st time and i'm sort of terrified in a way...i'm pretty sure i'll be fine but still as you know most things being done for the 1st time is scary as you aren't quite sure what to expect. i just hope i don't get lost in the Montreal airport or that some french dude doesn't kidnap me and keep me locked up in his basement for months and all my family will think that i'm dead when i'm not....and yeah i have to much time on my hands lately.

i also can't seem to stop eating. mind you that's probably due to the fact that i'm an emotional eater and i did suffer from pms but i just can't stop. which makes me sort of glad that i didn't buy potato chips that i liked, or popcorn....i'm hoping this will go away while i'm visiting my sissy.

i've applied for 2 jobs, and heard nothing and i'm trying very hard to stay positive but things frankly seem sort of grim. i'm tired of being a "receptionist" and hate the thought of starting at the bottom again, so thoughts of going back to school are running through my head.....which technically really isn't possible as we have bills and so forth so i'm terribly confused and don't know where to start or begin. so i'm hoping my week away i can just relax and de-stress and enjoy time with my sissy.

the good news though is my car is now fixed and will hopefully run another few months

that's all i got

peace the spork out, i may or may not post while i'm away :0)

turn about

so umm you know how in my wishes post i wanted my employer to give me a raise and just say thanks.....well they said thanks alright, me and 2 other employees were laid off thursday morning and basically had to pack up our things after the "news" and get the heck out of there.

to say that i'm shocked, hurt, angry is an understatement. i feel like i've been sucker punched and stabbed in the back. mind you i'm not getting into all the details here and it's a long story and i'm trying (it's now 4 days later) very hard to not think about it, and to let it all go and start over but it's really, really hard. i'm so bitter and resentful and i just would like to know why, yeah they gave us a reason but i think it was a bullshit one. it's very hard to not take this sort of thing personally, and as i stated before i am an emotional person and of course i take it personally. i have also wondered or contemplated "conspiracy therories", like how long have they been planing this and it has been sort of different since i wen't on my trip....just things like that, that are slowing driving me insane...

but as of today

Done

it's a new start

whether i find another job or just go on un-employment and take the summer of, i don't care, it's in fate's/god's hands now and what will be will be

sorry i haven't kept up with everyone's comments and or blog's lately but i usally blog from work and it's hard to get in the habit of blogging at home, but i hope to catch up!

wishes

i wish that i weren't such an emotional person, who takes everything to heart and wears there heart on there sleeve...

i wish that i wouldn't stress and fret about the "little" things....

i wish that i could speak my mind without hesitating.....

i wish i could lose those extra 10 pounds that i've been wanting off for 2 years...

i wish that people wouldn't judge me....

i wish i had an endless supply of money....

i wish i didn't have to deal with car repairs...

i wish my employer would give me a raise and say that i do good work and that i'm appreciated..

i wish for a chocolate sundae to just magically appear...

i wish for a day with my grandmother again....

i wish i wouldn't always break out like a teenager everytime i have pms...

i wish i would know when to stop chewing my nails...

i wish i was at home right now outside in the sunshine instead of sitting here in the office...

i wish i had a magic genie that could grant me three wishes...

i wish i had a maid...

i wish i had a cook....

i wish i owned a plane so i could fly where ever i wanted...

i wish my sissy was here so i can hug her and talk to her...

i wish i didn't have heart burn right now from eating my lunch to damn fast....

i wish i could have an afternoon nap without anyone noticing...

i wish i had a college degree in something...

i wish i had a huge shoe collection w/it's own closet to display them...

i wish i could go shopping for clothes/shoes and all that fun stuff...

i wish i didn't love french fries so much...

i wish i could have a torrid love affair with Sawyer from LOST....

i wish that everyday could be like friday....

i wish i had the afternoon off to spend time with jilly, mom and Sharol...

i wish i could snap my fingers and have all these things

i'm a weak, weak person

well i've always known that, but you know how i wen't on a speel last week about not purchasing body wash or smelly products, umm yeah, i caved and bought new body wash today cuz i was in the drug store for my mom (whose sick, i know aren't i just the sweetest!!) anyways, and guess what, there before me was the dreaded isle that i cannot avoid, and oh my god they had shea butter stuff ON SALE!!! and i couldn't walk away, and then i smelled it and yeah, so forgive me fellow bloggers i have sinned....but i'll smell so YUMMY!

so not only was that bad enough but i totally gorged myself on mcdonald's, so i'm a major sinner today

but on the positive side of things i did refrain myself from placing an order on sephora the other day, so that's one thing right??

sigh

now i totally want to go back on sephora...must restrain thy self...

changing the topic now to try and divert myself, i have so many options as to what i can do this weekend it's been driving me crazy! i could A)go to a themed costume party with fellow co-workers, which i somewhat would like to go to (without the hubs of course!) or B)go on a ATV poker ralley with the hubs and other friends or C)not a GD thing, well except mabye some housework, i'm leaning more towards C but yet i keep thinking i'd like to do A or B....so frustrating and stressful!!

dammit i'm sighing again

anyways, peace the spork out and have a super fantstic weekend!!

hair therapy

thankfully i am getting some of this tonight, i'm in desperate need of a cut. ever since my trip my hair has been dry and sun damaged. i'm also looking forward to getting a new cut/style as i'm ready and due for a change.

why is it that men can't understand this? i mean i need my hair fix! it's a form of therapy for me, i gossip with my hairdresser (jackie who is the queen of hairdressers! love her!!!) and it's not like i go every month (although i could) i span it out to at least 12 wks between each visit, and yeah it's somewhat of a UN-necessary expense but i've tried to dye my own hair before and frankly it did not come out so well...and i'd rather not re-visit that....and honestly i just like to be pampered and have someone else do it for me. also, whatever she uses/does to my hair makes it amazingly soft and shiny and i hate to wash it for days as i don't want it to go away

so yeah i can't wait to have my hair done tonight and that's pretty much all i got going on right now, i'm disgusted with work and prefer not to talk about that as it just makes my blood pressure rise.....anywhoo happy Thursday!! :P