so umm you know how in my wishes post i wanted my employer to give me a raise and just say thanks.....well they said thanks alright, me and 2 other employees were laid off thursday morning and basically had to pack up our things after the "news" and get the heck out of there.
to say that i'm shocked, hurt, angry is an understatement. i feel like i've been sucker punched and stabbed in the back. mind you i'm not getting into all the details here and it's a long story and i'm trying (it's now 4 days later) very hard to not think about it, and to let it all go and start over but it's really, really hard. i'm so bitter and resentful and i just would like to know why, yeah they gave us a reason but i think it was a bullshit one. it's very hard to not take this sort of thing personally, and as i stated before i am an emotional person and of course i take it personally. i have also wondered or contemplated "conspiracy therories", like how long have they been planing this and it has been sort of different since i wen't on my trip....just things like that, that are slowing driving me insane...
but as of today
it's a new start
whether i find another job or just go on un-employment and take the summer of, i don't care, it's in fate's/god's hands now and what will be will be
sorry i haven't kept up with everyone's comments and or blog's lately but i usally blog from work and it's hard to get in the habit of blogging at home, but i hope to catch up!