Saturday, August 04, 2007

from happy news, to sad news


well, you know from one high to another, there's no other way for me...
to the left is one of my dogs, bandit, who for the past month has slowly gotten lamer, thinner, and just plain uncomfortable. I've known for probably a few months that we would inevitably have to put him down but you know how you never want to face the fact and you keep thinking oh he'll get better or i don't know exactly what, denial i guess. and it's just so heartbreaking to see him this way as he is just not himself
well, sadly i think today is the day
i think the hubs finally realizes that he's just in too much pain and what's the point of keeping him here for our own selfish reasons....
so as i sit here typing frantically away, the grave is being dug and now i can't stop crying. words can't express my heartache or how much this dog has truly meant to me. from the 1st time i meet him, which is a funny story perhaps for another day to how he loves us so unconditionally. and on an even sadder note i think the other animals "know" or sense something as there all watching him or around him.
i just had to get some of these emotions out, sorry for dumping it on you all
*update - it's now offical my bandit has gone on to a better place. my house feels empty and quiet and i keep expecting to see or hear him, so weird

7 comments:

Wandering Coyote said...

So, so sorry to hear about this, Flea.

Beth said...

awww Flea....I'm so sorry. He looks like a wonderful dog and I'm sure he misses you too. It's so hard to let a pet go, esp. when they're not really pets anymore, but members of your own family.

:(

Mo said...

I'm just so so so very sorry hun. It's never easy to lose them.

Scottsdale Girl said...

Rest in Peace Bandit, you were a good dog.

Bridget Jones said...

Very sorry Flea. He isn't in pain anymore...

flea said...

* big hugs & thanks to everyone for there heartfelt comments, they truly help & mean a lot. i'm doing ok, trying not to dwell on it but it's v. hard. one day at a time i guess

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry flea...it always amazes me how hard it is to lose an animal. You did the right thing, and he's better off now. I'm sorry for your loss.