Friday, March 26, 2010

another one bites the dust

quickie post coming up but at least it is a post...

so I didn't get into the 2nd course that I applied for either, which left me very upset. actually no, I was major upset and flew into a tail spin (aka hissy fit), I cried, I yelled and then I cried some more. I thought I didn't have my hopes up but I guess I sort of now I don't really know what my future holds work wise and frankly i'm done worrying about it at least until summer is over.

that is one thing I am very, very grateful for is that we have a one year mat leave option (even though the pay is paltry to say the least at least it is there)


i'm sort of feeling dim and low actually, perhaps it is the weather as it went from very warm/mild/sunny to bleak, cold and windy within a week

or perhaps i'm a tad bit depressed

there I said it

I shouldn't be at all but that blackness is there

la de da happy thoughts happy thoughts cannot let it in again

I need a girls day out

or hair therapy

or a $5000 shopping spree...wouldn't that be fun!

and i'm over and out for now, must sleep


MJ said...

It's normal to be a tad bit depressed. Don't wallow in it, but don't ignore it or it rears it's ugly head.

They say it takes up to a YEAR for your hormones to even out.

Yoga helps, if you're into that. :)

flea said...

mj - thanks, i'm trying not too but some days are harder than others...but all I have to do is look at her and i'm that helps. I can't seem to get into yoga and I have tried :( perhaps i'll try again though

Swishy said...

It is totally OK to be a little depressed. I swear I spend half my life a little depressed and I didn't just have a baby :)

That sucks about the course. But you will figure it out, I promise. In the meantime, I am totally up for a girls day :)

Wandering Coyote said...

I also think it's normal for you to be a little depressed. Take it one day at a time, and yes - do something nice for yourself! And the weather could totally affect your mood, too. I hope you get some sunny spring weather soon, Flea!