Thursday, April 02, 2009

early stages yet

I'm only 6 wks along and already feel like it has been forever!

this has kicked my anxiety up another 5 levels and my mind will just not stop racing

1st there was the possibility that I may have a tubal pregnancy, which thankfully they don't think I have as the pregnancy hormone has increased a lot (all I can say is thank god I don't mind having blood work done), but I was having a lot of pain in my lower right side the week previous to when I found "out" and i'm grateful to have this behind me but still it was an extra stress and worry for me

2nd I have experienced spotting, not a lot but it scared me and I can't help but feel that this just isn't meant to be and that i am going to lose the baby. is that weird? I mean me as a mom, ohmygod!

and lastly I tripped and fell at work last week and it was weird, like for the first time it's not just about me anymore

this is a lot to take in and deal with

the books
the online websites
the terrifying fear of *gasp* labour
the changes in my body (already)

and it goes on and on

and on top of all that the neighbors from hell are moving out (long story short, they were renting to own or 2nd house, but have decided to back out and buy a different house), which i'm glad for it's been nothing but bad from the get go, but it's an extra stress that I just don't need right now.

I think i'll crawl back in bed and not come out for awhile

5 comments:

Wandering Coyote said...

Chin up! You are going to be fine!

Beth said...

Hon, calm down. you. can. do. this! you'll be fine and have a healthy baby.

with my first son, I was 9 weeks pregnant and started spotting...BAD. But they checked me and my cervix was still closed, so I was on bed rest for a couple of weeks until the bleeding stopped. so scary! But he was born fine and is SMART!!!!

You can do this!!!

Mo said...

Labour sounds painful so maybe you should think about labor instead.

*snark*

flea said...

aww thanks guys!!! i'm trying to mellow/chill out and I haven't had any further spotting since

mcBlogger said...

Well Holy Bejesus Batman, I stop blogging for a while and your preggars. That's awesome! My hubby and I have been trying for a while and no luck. So a HUGE congratulations! You must be stoked.