totally bored outta my mind. not sure why i even ventured here today as i have "nothing much" to talk or write about today. basically just hoping to entertain myself for at least a half an hour of my painfully boring day today here at the office.
so did not want to get my ass outta bed again this morning! what is wrong with me?? i'm healthy, alive and have a wonderful (well most of the time..) husband i have a fabulous family and have tremendous support from all of them so therefore i shouldn't be getting depressed but alas i feel myself going down the same ole path that i venture down this time of year. i should seek out my dr but i am to damn stubborn and i know it's more due to my anxiety than depression and he's just going to put me on those damn depression pills that make me feel better but totally make me wanna throw up all the time. so i don't want to go see the wizard so what to do?? just deal with it i suppose. seeings how it's only 2-3 months outta the year.
and i have days where i feel fine (i.e. saturday) but then i wake up and i have a day like today where i'm down and have no energy what-so-ever. so i go from being quite high and happy to being very low, grumpy, irritable and extremely tired. doesn't help when other pps here at work are down too, thus pulling me even further into the blackness. uck!
so on the positive side of things here are some things i could/should/would do if i weren't such a lazy/poor mofo:
start exercising - must do this pronto as it creates happy endorfins which i really need.
get outside more - did this on saturday, felt much better, the fresh air did me wonders
get my ass outta bed on the weekends - no more sleeping well past noon or having naps from
plan a vacation to a tropical location - this would at least give me something positive to plan/think about
stop fretting about my weight it's only 10 pounds and i will lose it eventually
stop fretting about money
stop fretting about things i have no control over
purchase sleeping pills or something to help me go to sleep at night - lack of sleep has been a BIG factor of late, but if i wasn't sub-consicousily fretting about stuff this probably wouldn't be an issue
cheer the fuck up!!!!!!
that's all i can think of thus far and you know i feel somewhat better just getting this off of my brain. so sorry for the lame ass post today!
i'm out :)