need sleep. eyes are heavy. must stay awake. only 2 1/2 more hrs of work. so hard to stay awake and try not to vomit on my desk at the same time. yups, i think it's offical that i have some kind of flu. which shouldn't surprize me as i usually get everything going around but i haven't been sick in like forever. so not fair.
so for like a week now (mabye a little over) i have been battling severe stomache aches and pains just brushing it off as either a) menstrual cramps b) my IBS c) eating to much junk food over the holidays or d) all of the above.
so i thought nothing of it until this week when the insomina, aches and pains and nausea started along with it.
the week progresses and i end up to here where i am miserable in desperate need of a nights sleep. my eyes are litterally burning right out of my head and i look like the living dead. and the wurst is that i keep making the stupiest misstakes and feel like i'm totally out of it. best trip i've been on in awhile! but seriousily not cool when trying to work, i think i'm actually slurring today. i was in tears yesterday morning as i did not want to get out of bed and haul my ass to work. need sleep but yet i cannot sleep. how weird and fucked up is that shit.
so now here i sit trying not to think about sleep or feel sorry for myself wanting nothing more than to curl up in a ball and DIE!! i need drugs. good drugs. can anyone hook me up????