goodbye Anna Nicole, goodbye

as some of you may or may not yet know (i'm sure you do), Anna Nicole Smith has passed away today. despite all the jokes, the puns and her wacked out life, she was a person, she has a family, a 5 month old daughter who will never know her mother.....

so i'd like to take a moment and say rest in peace Anna Nicole and pause and remember you back in the day when you looked normal and beautiful (and not on drugs and or TrimSpa,ooops that was a bad and not really funny...)

what the frock happend to John Travolta?!

did anyone else see Oprah last night? and did anyone else just happen to notice how freaky JT looked? or was it just me? comparing him to Tim Allen and William H. Macy he looked almost in-human.....

he looked a little too worked on, the hair (plugs i'm sure), the face (one to many nip/tucks) he was shiny people, SHINY!! honestly i was sort of frightened. now i love JT (Grease is my all time fav) but why, WHY submit us and yourself to this can't you age gracefully? guess he's yet another victim of Hollywood...

in other news i'm doing better mentally, it's been a battle

i've been super stressed, over tired, cranky and having major headaches, so in lieu of all this i decided to take yesterday off as a "sick" day aka a mental health day. do i feel guilty. no. well mabye a little. and i have not been feeling great so in a way i was sick and i am sort of stuffed up and could very well be coming down with a cold, but they don't need to know that....

also my biggest loser challenge is still going strong, although i have yet to lose any weight (and i probably won't i think i've peaked) but, i'm still doing exercises at least 3-4 times a week and i do feel better, things feel tighter and even some pants are fiting me better! mind u i haven't really changed my eating pattern but i do write down everything i eat, and i don't eat after 7 that is one rule i stick too. my goal is to lose at least 10 pounds, so hopefully....but if not i would be happy to just be toned up and turn that fat into muscle. buh bye fat!!

that's really all that's new with me, just trudging along singing my same old song....

i just want to thank everyone for the kind helpful words of encouragement in my previous post i never got around to responding to you all

til we meet again :P

isn't it funny...

how you meet somebody or more so "know" of them and then they continue to pop up randomly over the years, and you think oh yeah i knew her back in _____ and _______ and you just continue on your merry way, and then the next time you hear of this said person it's not good news at all

in fact it's terrible news

finding out that this person, who i've known of but never actually knew has been killed in a car accident is a low blow. i'm not sure why. what made her have such a lasting impression on me, i know i was severely jealous and envious of her as she was super cute, skinny and she seemed to have everything, but i never knew her (if i had known her i would've known that she was battling cancer that first time i met her and that in fact she didn't have everything) and i'm sure she never remembered me. so why would it effect me so, i mean sure it's really sad and devastating as she had 3 kids and was only 33 i mean 33!! like that's just wrong to die so young with so much ahead of you, and i mean it could happen to anyone, anytime any place, but i keep coming back as to why it's really upsetting me and i keep coming back to nothing

i personally believe that everything happens for a purpose and or reason, or that it's all mapped out and were on the moving track doing what we are "ment" to do. perhaps she was ment to keep popping up in my life over the years, was it coincidence that she just so happended to have worked with my cousin, was it coincidence that we voulenteered our time at a local charity/auction one night, or that she used to go to my hairdresser???

just plain weird and funny but not like haha funny

i've been doing the same thing that i did when a close friend of mine was killed at such a young age, i imagine myself waking up in the morning, dreading my day, looking forward to watching Ugly Betty or whatever and just doing my typical mundane things that i do every day, not knowing that it's my last day, not knowing i won't see my loved ones again. i often wonder what goes thru there minds in that last instant, what did they see/feel? did they know they were going to die? i think this is what haunts me most. i never used to be scared of death but as i'm getting older, the realization sinks in that we are not imortal, we aren't here forever and we should savor the time we are here

lame but true

stay safe ~ peace out :P

it's a new day

no more whining, bitching, rantings, complainings whatever's about work related stuff...

i'm stickig to what's important:

my health & happiness
staying close to loved ones and friends
being positive and not dwelling on the negatives in life (ahem work)
not worrying about things that i cannot control

it's a new day and a new attitude

blah blah blah and oh yeah blah!

so my life is a wee bit chaotic and anxiety filled lately, not sure why, oh wait i do know why it's all connected to work.

u see about 2 wks ago it was casually mentioned that "hey, we don't currently feel that your living up to your potential so were going to move you to the dungeon aka downstairs, to another department where we feel u are better suited", thus leaving me highly confused and a little excited as i initally from the start wished to be in this position where they are moving me too, but yet at the same time hurt. make sense? probably not, but over that week my emotions were/are in turmoil and after that 1st brief encounter nobody has said boo to me about anything, thus my anxiety runs full throttle and i've become parnoid and a bit resentful. so finally about a 1 1/2 later i can't stand it anymore and corner my supervisor and ask wtf is up. i wanted to cry, scream as all these emotions needed to come out. although he couldn't really provide me with any more info than what i already knew it did somewhat make me feel better, and i do get a somewhat piddly raise, but, i'll happily take what i can get as we are lacking in funds right now.....

anyways

so that about brings me to date, i am now back with the intial company i started out with, they have yet to decide if i am offically moving to the dungeon, although i think it's inevitible as i really can't see how i can be the only person working from upstairs when everyone else is down....but whatever, what the fuck do i know??! i'm still highly confused and to top all that off i'm somewhat sick to my stomache today, or perhaps it's nerves....or i have once again caught the GD flu, as everyone and their dog has been freaking sick lately.

sigh

and did i mention my freaking head hurts too!

change is a good thing right? then why does it feel like the rug has been pulled out from underneath me? and that my gut feeling is that they want to stick me back on the main front lines, the dreaded "receptionist" position? overall i feel like i've been given the run around and i am quite tempted to search for another job, yet, they are so hard to find and i hate to start the whole procedure over again. and they do treat me somewhat good here, sometimes...despite the shitty bonus and the crap they've put me thru the last 2 wks

what to do, what to do

i need a drink, that's what i need, or a good cry, mabye both........

who would've thought...

you know back in 1994 my favorite show on the whole planet was "My So Called Life", i loved this show and everything about it, but, more importantly i loved Jared Leto who played the hot yummy love interest for Claire Danes, but even more sadly due to another new show Friends stealing the ratings this show was canned after only 1 awsome, life altering season.

ah the memories

i even had multiple posters, pics (swipped from a teen mag i'm sure) hanging/taped in my locker, one very similar to this in fact....

so what my question is how can one go from this, total, undeniable hotness to this????!!!!:

positively SCARY!!!! like what the hell has happend to you Jordan...ahem Jared i mean. i get that you probably didn't dig all the young screaming girls screaming at you and calling you a "pin up" but honestly did you have to go quite this far?? and i also get that your in some sort of punk rock band but still they have cute lead singers.....take the guy that fronts All American Rejects, he's totally yummy and doesn't look like he's a vampire reject.

sigh i miss the good old days

Popples

here's the best pic i came across, guess it was also a cartoon back in the 80's, the one i had was white and blue (i think), and one year for Christmas this was all i wanted

update: just found this over at Wikipeda

Popples were characters in a Saturday morning cartoon by the same name that aired in the United States from 1986 to 1987. They first appeared in a one-time Shelly Duvall special called "It's Popple Time", in which they were puppets and marionettes. The special went over very well, so it was decided to make a cartoon series with the same characters. Popples were created by Those Characters From Cleveland (TCFC), a subsidiary company of American Greetings, and the plush toys were manufactured by Mattel. The cartoon was produced by DiC Entertainment and LBS Communications in association with The Maltese Companies.
Popples resemble brightly colored teddy bears with long tails tipped with pompoms. They have pouches on their backs that can be everted, so they are in the pouches. The name "Popple" is a reference to the popping sound they make when unfolding themselves from such a ball. In the cartoon Popples commonly pull large items from their pouches that couldn't possibly fit inside, which presumably come from hammerspace.
The Popples live with a brother and sister, Billy and Bonnie. Billy and Bonnie think they are the only kids who have Popples until a neighbor family moves in and they have their own Popples, the Rock stars, Pufflings and babies. The Popples tend to come around and mess up whatever the kids are trying to do, such as if they are trying to brush their teeth the Popples end up spilling water, toothpaste and soap all over the bathroom. If the kids are trying to clean their rooms, the Popples come along, mess up the room even worse and then help them get everything back to normal just in the nick of time. The plot revolved around the children's efforts to hide the existence of the Popples from the adults around them.

when i was growing up...

a little trip down memory lane......

~one of my favorite shows to watch was Reading Rainbow
~other favorites consisted of Seasme Street, Mr. Dress Up, and Sharon, Lois and Bram
~Ernie was initally my favorite character on Seasme Street and i did a mean impression of his laugh
~ other favorites: snuffy, grover, oscar and of course cookie monster
~my first pet (that i remember) was Sassy (my poodle) and she was my dog, i loved her more than anything
~i had a popple
~ i also had a pound puppy
~i loved to go visit my grandmother after school, she would usually fed me donuts and we would watch All my children, or do word search puzzles
~my first recollection of having a crush was in the 4th grade, i liked him for years afterwords to no avail
~i was terribly shy and quiet until junior high
~i once sang "i think were alone now" with three other girls in front of the entire class
~my favorite group was New Kids on the Block (jordan was my fav)
~ i have lots of memories of my sister and I and other various local kids (mostly neighbors) playing house, in the cluster of woods beside our house
~ i idolized my sister, she was the one i ran to if something wen't wrong at school
~ i remember lot's of camping trips with the family, and how i got stuck sleeping on the inside (by the tarp "fake" wall) of the bed in that old camper of ours (thanks sissy! :P)
~ i knew the Phantom of the Opera by heart
~ i was in brownies and girl guides
~ i played basketball but wasn't really all that into it, just did it becuz my sister and everyone else in the fam dam did, that, and it was the only sport our school offered besides badmintion and honestly who would submit themselves to that....sadly i did for like 1 year in the 7th grade... ~ i lost a tooth by eating a crunchy/burnt french fry
~ i once, during a winter storm (not sure why) stuck my tongue to the outside front door, and of course it froze to it, needless to say momentary panic ensued, but i did eventually break free without too much damage
~ i thought that chucky lived in my closet
~ i also thought that my toys/teddy bars came to life at night time
~ i also thought that during a full moon i would invision a person's eye filling that moon as if peering in on us from another world...i had a vivid imagination....
~ i had a skip it, it was blue
~ i never dared/could do a kart wheel, my one attempt to do so almost resulted in me breaking my wrist, i never tried again
~ my dad was my hero
~ i remember one time he came to pick me up at school during recess for something (prob a dentist appt) and i was so embarassed as it was just wrong for him to be there with my friends watching, those two worlds should never collide! (at least that's what i thought)
~ i was quite a sick kid really, with my asthma and allergies, thankfully i don't remember most of it but i do remember my allergy test (excruciating) and getting lots of aerosol treatments
~ i loved the noon hour sock hops
~ my first encounter with Stephen King was in the 5th grade, our homeroom teacher read us "the eyes of the dragon", i was mesmerized
~ oh how i hated math classes
~ i almost failed a couple of times actually, but due to it being a small school i think they just pushed me thru out of the goodness of there heart
~ strangely enough i enjoyed biology
~ i got to discet a cow's eye in this class (so Awsome!)
~ i had a crush on my older cousin (i know so lame and grose but as if anything would ever come of it) but everyone else in the school did too, and i tend to be a follower sometimes....
~ at his graduation i asked him to save a "slow" dance for me in front of all my friends (thinking i was so cool!) and he said yes, sadly, he left and never gave me my 4/5 minutes of fame to rub it in to all my friends :( i was morified and left crying
~ another favorite t.v. show in my tweens/teens was full house and saved by the bell, i think i saw every episode and i loved Zack (still do)
~ i had paula abdul's "straight up now tell me" CD
~ i also loved, loved Millie Vinillie's "girl u know it's true" song before the big scandal
~ i used to tape songs from the radio all the time
~ i played my nintendo all the time, espically my little mermaid game. i so kicked ass in this game!!!!
~ i had a my child doll, remember those? sort of a much fanicer version of a cabbage patch doll, and i loved her more than life it's self
~ i had a jordan knight poster on my ceiling so every night he would be the last thing i saw
~ i also had a really cool poster showing the top of the ocean and then the under neath, with all the fishy's & dolphins, this thing was huge (floor to ceiling) and i loved to stare into it
~ i had a teddy bar called carmel, and his girlfirend was jilly's bear lilly
~ i remember one time both jill and i had strep throat and we were at her mom's house, both sicker than dogs and sharol making chicken noodle soup (my fav), unfortunately, it didn't stay down and i didn't make it to the bathroom in time
~ one of my first memories of seeing a movie in theater was going to see Robin Hood (with Kevin Coster), i loved this movie and was sooo in love with Christian Slater
~ i remember packing a suit case and wanting to run away (dont remember why now) and making it clear down the road before my sister came and got me, i was bound and determined to go somewhere
~ we (sissy & jilly) used to make up dance routines and perform them on the lawn
~ we (sissy & jilly) also used to cut our barbies hair and style it with gel/moose along with designing them cool outfits that we made from cutting up old nylon stockings and any other fabric we could find

Golden Globes - the "good"

so i did end up having time today to run down my fav dresses of the night (a meeting was cancelled that i was supposed to have been in this afternoon), so, here we go!!

Honorable Mentions: St. Angelina herself, even though i'm still not really sure if i totally dug the dress (it was dark grey afterall) but needless to say she was still breathtakingly stunning, Ali Larter and Hayden Pinette from the show hero's which i still have yet to start watching and Hilary Swank



1st up is Reese Witherspoon, also recently split from her just as cute ex Ryan Phillippe, now cameron diaz should take notes, this is how you attend an awards show showing everybody that you are single and HOT! at first i hated the dress, but the more i looked at it i luv it, and her hair is smoking!! in fact i may just try to mimmick this the next trip to my salon...anyways my main point of focus here is her Red, yes RED shoes!!! so freaking hot & sexy and i so want a pair of these!! You go Girl!












next up is America's sweet heart America Fiera (i'm too lazy to google her and get the proper spelling), better known as Betty from the hit show Ugly Betty. now this is a girl that young women/girls should look up too and want to aspire too. she's a real women with curves and shape, and beautiful on the inside and out, and she pulls off this gown spectacularly. luv the color, luv how happy she is and way to go on snagging best actress in a comedy! you so deserve it












up next is Drew Barrymore, remember last year's show where she showed up not sporting a bra in a whore-en-dous green ensamble? so sad yet it's almost worth it to see her here like this. she looks AMAZING! the dress hugs her in all the right places and the healthy tan just makes her look so relaxed and flawless, luv everything about this look, here's to hoping she's on a comeback as i luv her from way back













i think this is Helen Mier? Meir?? can't remember, anyways, man if i look this good when i get up to her age.....wow, simply amazing, classsy, and perfect. the color is superb what else can u say really?


































and lastly, i've saved my favorite for last and it's none other than Jennifer Lopez, man would i love to be her for like a day, or better yet have access to her wardrobe for a day. geesh. she's just so gosh darn perfect it's almost sickening but yet you can't help but love her at the same time for channeling her inner goddess in this dress. the dress, the hair, it all is goregous! simply amazing

Golden Globe fashion run down

will start off with none other than the "bad" or "wurst" of the evening

honorable mentions go to: Vanessa Williams, Gillian Anderson, Jennifer Love Hewitt


who better to start off with than the diva herself, miss Beyonce, now not only is she really striking quite the "diva" pose here, and thinking that she is really working this gold dress, which of course hugs all her bootylicious curves, which normally would be a good thing but sadly this shiny gold number really doesn't do it for her, and neither does the tacky, icky blonde hair extensions, she looks like a fake plastic doll or something, it's just wrong on so many levels, sorry B but you get an F on this one













next up is recently dumped Cameron Diaz, oh boy, where to start here and be nice about it......hate the dark hair, it really needs to go, go back to your happy perky blonde days, and the dress, oh boy the dress, girl one would think where you were attending an awards show where your ex is going to be at, you would want to look amazing and make him green with envy, unfortunately for you i think u just confirmed why justin just dumped your ass....to many ruffles, the color is whore-en-dous, and yeah, it's just all around nasty













next up is nicolette sheridan from the not so much hit show (at least not for me, i haven't watched once this year...) Desperate Housewives, and that's about what she is Desperate, with a capitol D. she never, ever chooses a gown that i say, wow, she looks really amazing or better yet at least current and hip and in this decade, when was the last time a mermaid skirt was cool? the 80s?? ick i hate this dress so badly! time to move on














now i really wanted to give patricia arquette the benefit of the doubt, i love her show and i love her (she's a great actress and she's proud of her "normal" curvy figure) so i wasn't go to be all harsh on her ass, but frankly she deserves it. like what the hell. what's up with the black bra like top, and the icky, dull grey color, or better yet why if you know that you are curvy would you pick such an un-flattering dress? and to top all that off, her hair is well nasty to say the least, sorry girl but you could have done, way ,way better and where's your cute adorable hubby??












and lastly, i can't remember this girls name but i think she stares in the movie babel, if that tells you anything. but i just couldn't resist this, i mean she had to know that she would be put on several worst lists by chossing this, or perhaps that's what she was going for.....better to be on that than fall into the just "meh" category and be totally forgetten. overall i like the soft purple color but it stops there, the floating balls, the black shoulders and her bleach blonde hair really washes her out, in fact i almost feel somewhat sorry for her, but she had to know before she left her house what she looked like, so i don't, you my dear are by far the wurst dressed of the night, even beating out over the top beyonce in her golden shiny number

Tagged Again!

A - Available/Single or Taken? sadly i am taken, although i still look :) mwhaaa!
B - Best Friend? Sissy and Jilly
C - Cake or pie? cake
D - Drink Of Choice? is this with alcohol? guess not....water i guess
E – Essential Item You Use Everyday? toilet paper
F - Favourite Color? blues, purples and browns
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms? Neither
H - Hometown? Canterbury, NB
I - Indulgence? chocolate and or shopping for myself
J - January Or February? February, because winter's closer to an end! (agree withWC here)
K - Kids & Their Names? have none at this time (thank GOD!)
L - Life Is Incomplete Without? family and friends (and my pets)
M - Marriage date? August 23, 2003
N - Number Of Siblings? 1 older sissy
O - Oranges Or Apples? Apples
P - Phobias/Fears? the dark, pretty much every insect on the planet
Q - Favourite Quote? "make love not war", some hippie chick/dude
R - Reason to Smile? waking up every day healthy and alive
S - Season? Spring or Fall? spring
T - Tag 3 or 4 people? Nancy Drew, Miss 1999, Beth
U - Unknown Fact About Me? my arms are double jointed
V - Vegetable you don’t like? califlower
W - Worst Habit? chewing my nails
X-rays You’ve Had? knee
Y - Your Favorite Food? french fries, ice cream
Z – Zodiac sign? Leo

i've been tagged

by Sadie Lou, mind you it's a little late, but better late than never......

3 things I got this (past) year for Christmas:

my fav gift hands down was from the hubs, and it's my pink, yes pink, razor cell phone *luv's it! will eventually take a pic of me with it and show u all, HEE!!

hubs did well this year as he also bought me a perfect, dainty, silver dressy watch for me, that even has some bling bling on it, or fake bling bling, but whatever it's still sparklie and suits me to a tee

and lastly my mommy bought me a really nice sheet set that matches my bedroom perfectly, and who can't use a nice sheet set?

honorable mentions: Stephen King's latest book (Lisey's Story), thanks Auntie Sharol!, really cool sweater from Old Navy from my mother in law, which i was surprized as she usually gets me really fugly stuff that i end up giving away....but shhh don't tell the hubby....., a whole box filled with Dessert makeup - lotions from my sissy, so i smell super sweet, and a bunch of other stuff that i can't remember

3 things to not buy me next year:

this is actually sort of hard....

umm note to mother in law, please do not buy me clothes from Northern Reflections ever again! EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!
photo albums, i have enough already!
cook books, ok i take the hint i should learn to cook but really lay off

so that's that

oh yeah and 3 pps i want to spread the joy too:

McBlogger
Nancy Drew
Ben O

or who ever feels like it :P

friday freeplay (3)

5 songs i can't get enough of

Pink - U and Ur Hand Tonight (luv this!!)

Gwen Stefani - Sweet Escape

Champion - No Heaven

Mario Vasquerez - Gallery

K- Os - Sunday Morning (he's Canadian, so you probably haven't heard of him the in States but i highly recommend you check his music out, like seriouisly)

Read this and SIGN

http://helpnazanin.com/

i just stumbled across this on CTV's website @ www.ctv.ca

if you read this article and don't sign the petition (espically as a women) then you have no heart

please do the right thing and Sign the petition NOW

that's all i have to say about that

:)

i have been challenged

yes my friends it is offical, i have signed up here at the office for.....

are ya ready


THE BIGGEST LOSER CHALLENGE aka BLC

and the topper of this cake is that not only did i sign up but i'm my teams team leader. which is really almost sort of comical but i'm hoping to turn it around and really focus on the task at hand.

right

but no really, i'm taking this very seriousily, honest and it's not really about losing the weight (well sort of) but more importantly living my life healthy and choosing healthy "food" choices, which i so do not do right now

so today is day 1

we have weighed and measured our selves and honestly i'm ok with what i way, which really scared the bee jebus out of me but i know what i have to do and by all that is holy i am going to do it.

yes my friends i have sworn myself off of mcdonald's

sob :(

but it had to be done

next step in the works is to actually cut french fries entirely from the diet but that one is going to be ruff , but i shall try, or at least only have them once a week

and i'm taking this all in stride, i'm going to try to exercise 4-5 times thru the week and i'm even contemplaiting purchasing one of thos pedometer counter thingies

so bring it on team 2, bring it on!!!

p.s. god i hope i can stick with this for the 3 months........

say IT is SO!

omg

omg

please someone out their in blog land back up perez hilton and tell me it is true that JT & that whore (not really, i do like her but just not with him) Cameron Diaz!!

like holy friggin shit i think i just creamed my panties !!!!!!!!!

now he can totally save brit brit and they can live happily ever after as they are so ment to be together, you know what they say about first loves and they totally were!!!

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

you know i probably should be ashamed of myself right now but i'm soooo not! one would think i was like 12 years old, sadly that isn't the case......

tops & flops of 2006

well it's the end (well almost) of 2006 and i'm bored @ work and frankly do not feel like doing another GD thing, thanks the lords there is now only 2 more hrs to burn here, mind u i could actually get quite a lot accomplished as there are only like 4 people actually here today but meh

so instead i would rather rate my tops (aka highs) & flops (lows) of 2006, personally and of course media celeb wise

so starting in no order

my fav NEW t.v. shows : Ugly Betty, Daybreak
wurst T.V. show but yet i can't help but watch: Flavor of Love 2
Best Reality T.V.: So you think u can dance, American Idol and Dancing with the stars 2
some old fav's: Grey's Anatomy, Smallville, LOST, Medium
fav movies: Step Up, The Departed, Casino Royale
top songs: Nelly Furtado "Promiscious girl", Shakira "Hips Don't Lie", Justin Timberlake "SexyBack", Rhianna "SOS", Sean Paul "Temperature", All American Rejects "Move Along",
fav new Band: All American Rejects
fav female celeb: Kate Winslet
fav male celeb: Channing Tatem
wurst/most hated female celeb: Britney Spears
runner up: Paris Hilton
wurst/most hated male celeb: Tom Cruise
runner up: Kevin ahem K-Fed Federline
the births of baby Suri, Shiloh and Kingston James

some personal highlights for me this year:

getting my promotion (SWEET)
getting my OWN office (even sweeter!)
visiting my sissy not once but TWICE
taking in the sights in Toronto
SEPHORA!
shopping @ the Eaton Centre
SEPHORA!!!!!
the Toronto Zoo
attending Lindsey & Andrew's wedding in Kingston
vacationing in PEI
taking belly dancing lessons
attending brother in laws wedding in St-Andrews (and getting sloshed at the reception)
getting my new precious pink Razor (cell phone) for Christmas!!!!
Miss Jilly moving back home!
purchasing my flat iron, oh how i can't imagine what i ever did before hand
seeing Guns & Roses LIVE!!


some not so personal highlights:

being sick like how many freaking times (i've lost count)
dis-locating my knee & breaking a bone piece off and having to have surgery
having SURGERY people! scared to DEATH!
being locked in a public washroom for like 5+ minutes
losing my uncle Orville in a car accident
having sore ribs for like a month
attack of the killer house flys , so traumatizing

merry Christmas!!

just wanted to take a quick sec and wish you all a

very

very

merry

CHRISTMAS!!!

have a drink, eat some food and spend time with the ones you love, there's no better way to do it folks!

~cheers~

quickie

omygosh i have way to much info/crap/stuff/lists running thru my brain right now i am in an utter frantic panic and there is no way to possibly contain it any longer

~shopping~

~wrapping~

~delivering gifts~

~cooking~ (ha who am i kidding) but i would like too......

~cleaning~

sigh

it's all rather a bit much and having a lack of $$ in the bank account isn't the nicest feeling either (cursing that GODDAMN bonus yet again, but i'm supposed to have stored that far far away, so i'm sorry for the re-lapse)

so i'm now feeling somewhat guilty as a co-worker got me a lovely present that it just to cute beyond words and honestly i hadn't thought of getting her anything (well i did fleetingly but i thought that surely we wouldn't be doing that here, or perhaps i was wishing we wouldn't as i am a rather selfish person and i don't have the extra cash to spend on yet another gift...) anyways i'm totally rambling, i got a gift and now i should buy her one, but i don't know what, and then i got to thinking that perhaps i should buy cards for everyone in the office as i don't want to exclude anyone or hurt anyone's feelings.......god it's a never ending cycle and i totally should have done this or thought of this weeks ago but sadly i'm not to swift on the up kick and i'm stuck at the last minute trying to scramble for ideas

phew!

that was quite the little burst of energy/words that have been pent up ALL day! i sort of feel a little better, but not entirely. is it time to leave yet? i have to get groceries, pick up this and that and i'm sure i'll forget something......

just plain sick

so i've been down and out with a terrible bout of the flu (i will spare you all the traumatic details, and trust me they are traumatic) and today is my first "full day" back at work and i'm freaking exhausted and drained already and it's not even past 10:00 yet.

sigh

i guess that's what being out 2 1/2 days in flu hell will do to a person

on the positive side of things i have lost like 8 pounds which i'm sure as soon as my appetite comes back in full force i will put back on in one consumption of sweets, treats and what nots (it is Christmas people) but i'm enjoying being slimmer even if it's only for a few days

other notes, i have been extremely grumpy lately this may be due to my bout of the flu or perhaps i'm just a grinch but i'll be happy, greatful to have this season done and over with, i have several lists in my head that need to be completed yet no idea where to officially start and it stresses me the heck out, thus not making me a happy camper

oh

and also

instead of getting the "christmas cash bonus" that i was oh so ever anticipating this year as i was really hoping to at least pay off one of my evil credit cards, sadly, did not happen. nope. instead i got a $100 gift card to a local grocery store, which by the way i don't even shop at.....anyhoo..... how's that for a slap in the face. totally am not happy about this and not sure if i should break the breach and say something as i don't want to seem ungreatful (when really i am sort of) but frankly i don't think it's fair or right do to give us this without an explanation of some sort.......am i being wrong here?? i could explain the situation further but frankly i'm sort of tired now and irritated beyond words and yeah. i'm out

happy friday :P