Tuesday, October 25, 2005

skanky ass breath

you know when you can smell your own breath it has to be pretty bad am i right? and i cannot for the life of me pinpoint what exactly my breath smells like but it's nasty

man i hate, hate bad breath it's one of my many pet peeves and to know that i have bad breath myself is just down right wrong. but alas i have no gum, mint or tooth paste with me so i'm avoiding everyone.

and to top it all off i have a nice icky grose layer of crap (fungi is the word i want to use...) on my tongue. have you ever had strep throat? this is what my tongue and throat feels like i'm starting to get. i know, i know i was recently Ms. Sickly pants but i can't help but feel like i'm getting ill again. all the signs are there and trust me i've had strep enough times to know what to expect. and this skanky ass breath is a sure WARNING sign in big bright flashing fashion. or mabye i just have bad breath syndrome.

who knows but i sure as hell could use a mint right now.

Monday, October 24, 2005

bowling, turkey and more rain

that about sums up my weekend! ha ha

so on saturday hubby and i wen't bowling with jilly & "m". pretty good time we laughed a lot espically when i almost went face first down the alley way. yeah that was fun....! and man do i ever suck like gutter ball everytime. sad. but it was good times much better than sitting at home feeling sorry for myself. so now my ass hurtz! like really i'm still sore from sat nite. how sad is that. i'm so out of shape. :(

what's next....oh yeah turkey!

where mom & dad were away for thanksgiving they decided to have turkey and all that good stuff yesterday. yum :) that made me happy & everyone got together that mattered which was nice. afterwords we all had a mini makeover party doing nails and jilly plucked my man brows for me and they look so much better! thanks jilly :) i just can't seem to do them myself so it's nice to hae someone do them for you.

and last but not least rain. oh the rain. will you ever go away? now we are supposed to get heavy rain from hurricane wilma tommorrow night. nice. i don't think the ground could be any more saturated. yuck. how i hate rain. i don't mind if it rains a little but gish this is crazy, i think it's going to rain all week. uck!

hope everyone else is having a peachy monday

dreadful pissy ass monday how i hate thee

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

another "top ten"

these are always such fun i couldn't resist

Top 10 Movies to Watch Over and Over Again
1. Dazed and Confused
2. Muriel's Wedding
3. Almost Famous
4. Speed (just for Keaneu's biceps alone)
5. Wizard of OZ
6. The Notebook (and i cry everytime)
7. Braveheart (crying again...)
8. How to lose a guy in 10 days
9. The Craft
10. Clueless

Top Ten Songs to Crank Up in Your Car With the Windows Down Because You're Proud of It
this is a tough one......
1. Yellow, Coldplay
2. Zombie, The Cranberries
3. Music, Madonna
4. Bitch, Merdith wuz her name..
5. i'm real, j-lo featuring ja rule isn't it?
6. Mr. Brightside, the Killers
7. Holiday, Madonna
8. Beautiful, Christina Aguliera
9. Sunday Morning, No Doubt
10. We belong together, Mariah Carey

Top 10 Male Actors
1. Ryan Gosling
2. Keaneau Reeves
3. Johnny Depp
4. Harrison Ford
5. Denzel Washington
6. Jamie Fox
7. Sean Penn
8. Jack Nicholson
9. Matthew McConaughey
10. Jake Gyllenhall

Top Ten Female Actors:
1. Charlize Theron
2. Kate Winslet
3. Kate Hudson
4. Sandra Bullock
5. Susan Sarandon
6. Uma Thermon
7. Cameron Diaz
8. Reese Witherspoon
9. Sarah Michelle Geller
10. Jennifer Garner

Top Ten Actors/Actress/Singers that need to dissapper (at least out of the tabloids or on ET):
1. Tom Cruise aka TomKat
2. Rene Zelleweger
3. Jessica Simpson
4. Ashlee Simpson
5. Janet Jackson
6. Britney Spears & K Fed
7. Angelina Jolie or "Brangelina" who comes up with this??
8. Jennifer Anniston - leave the girl alone already!
9. Lindsay Lohen
10. Paris Hilton

Top 10 Favourite TV Shows
1. LOST
2. The O.C.
3. Desperate Housewives
4. Threshold
5. Smallville
6. Supernatural
7. Invasion
8. Medium
9. C.S.I (the original)
10.What not to wear

the "Graham" Clan


ok, this is the last one that i have in my resources for now (i'm so going home and playing with the camera!)

so this is my dad's side of the family we had a big get together in August of this year.

i'm over on the left in black standing next to my gram mcfarlane (my mom's mom..) and my mom is right behind her (yup they are really short). hubby is way in the back hiding you can pretty much only see his white hat towards the middle and my dad is right in the front kneeling on the righthand side, how we all ended up so far apart is beyond me...

ways a pretty good time, great to see everyone. thought i would post this here for sis & Lindsay (way out there in Ontario!) cause they missed out. wish you could have been there though :)

here's another!


here's another wedding pic. i love this one as i feel like cleopatra or marilyn monroe in diamonds are a girls best friends (or whatever that movie is called all i remember is the song she sings...)

anyways, from left to right are hubbies two brother's Travis, Jonathan, hubby, best friends Lee, Benji (whose also holding my flowers) and the best man Jamie

look what i can do!!!


omg i actually posted a pic on here! i'm so proud of myself!

so as you can see this is a pic of hubby and me (pls note that hubby is extremely loaded at this point so his eyes are bugged out of his head.....) on our wedding day (August 23, 2003) 2 years ago. my how time flies....

Monday, October 17, 2005

Check it out!

"My Humps"

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside your trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
my lovely little lumps. (Check it out)

I drive these brothers crazy,
I do it on the daily,
They treat me really nicely,
They buy me all these ice-ys.
Dolce & Gabbana,
Fendi and then DonnaKaran,
they be sharin’All their money got me wearin’Fly gearrr but I ain’t askin,
They say they love my ass ‘n,
Seven Jeans, True Religion's,
I say no, but they keep givin
’So I keep on takin’
And no I ain’t taken
We can keep on datin’I keep on demonstrating.

My love, my love, my love, my love
You love my lady lumps,
My hump, my hump, my hump,
My humps they got u,
She’s got me spending.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.
She’s got me spendin’.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me,
on me, on me

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
What u gon’ do with all that ass?
All that ass inside them jeans?
I’m a make, make, make, make you scream
Make u scream, make you scream.
Cos of my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely lady lumps. (Check it out)

I met a girl down at the disco.
She said hey, hey, hey yea let’s go.
I could be your baby, you can be my honey
Lets spend time not money.
I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,Milky, milky cocoa,
Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight.

They say I’m really sexy,
The boys they wanna sex me.
They always standing next to me,
Always dancing next to me,
Tryin’ a feel my hump, hump.
Lookin’ at my lump, lump.
U can look but you can’t touch it,
If u touch it I’ma start some drama,
You don’t want no drama,
No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama
So don’t pull on my hand boy,
You ain’t my man, boy,
I’m just tryn’a dance boy,
And move my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.
My lovely lady lumps [x3]
In the back and in the front.
My lovin’ got u,
She’s got me spendin’.(Oh)
Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.
She’s got me spendin’.(Oh)
Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
What you gon’ do with all that ass?
All that ass inside them jeans?
I’ma make, make, make, make you scream
Make you scream, make you scream.
What you gon do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,
Get you love drunk off this hump.
What you gon’ do wit all that breast?
All that breast inside that shirt?
I’ma make, make, make, make you work
Make you work, work, make you work.
She’s got me spendin’.
Spendin all your money on me and spendin’ time on me
She’s got me spendin’.
Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

oi where to begin with this one?

now i like the black eyed peas and man if i had Fergie's body i would walk around naked all the time but there latest song and video has me wondering.

WTF?

did she just say what i think she said.

holy crap!!!

just check out the lyric's that i have bolded for instances and refering to ones buttocks and bust areas as humps and lumps is a little bizare is it not at least i think so. but despite all this i cannot get this song out of my head so obviousily someone is doing something right. right?

just had to share the stupidity

~p.s~

feeling much better by the way. not quite as sickly as i was last week although i'm still not 100% but BIG improvement from last week, just wish the damn cough and chest pain would let up some already! gish

Thursday, October 13, 2005

must have's

top ten must have's while fighting "the Plague" aka flu/cold symptoms

10. Comfy bed and big fluffy blanket to roll up in
9. Heating pad and or magic bag for muscle aches and their warmth when the chills set in
8. Drugs (any kind HA! I prefer Advil Cold and Sinus myself)
7. Cold face cloth
6. Deoderant for when you suddenly get hot and break out into sweats
5. Kleenex the good kind that doesn't chafe the heck out of your nose and i carry it everywhere along with a bag to throw away the ucky ones
4. Comfy pj's (or clothes while at work)
3. Vaseline/moisturizer for raw runny nose (ouch!)
2. Water sweet cold precious water

and the # one thing to have

1. Lipton's chicken noodle soup YUM

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

i'm ill

ohhhh so sick

miserable bloody cold this is the first cold that i've had in about a year and a half so i'm down for the count.

can't stop sneezing and blowing my nose even though i'm starting to resemble rudolph and it's beginning to hurt. i'm sitting here yet i am in a fog so not with the program and i know i won't get any work accomplished today.

eyes are watering and my head is pounding so don't wanna be at work but i missed yesterday as i was worse off than today.

lips are chapped all to pieces as i was running a fever yesterday could not move out of bed or out of the fetal position. thought i was going to die.

wanna go home :(

only 6 1/2 hours to go

mabye i'll work thru lunch to leave early

Friday, October 07, 2005

cakes and pies!!

in case you haven't read my last few posts it's a holiday weekend for us canucks.

yup it's thanksgiving which means lot's and lot's of food but more importantly turkey, mashed potatoes, cakes and pies and whatever else you can stuff yourself with while giving "thanks" to life, god? whatever, all i care about is the food and not having to work on monday ~yippee~.

which also means that i so do not feel like working today and i just want the day over with. and even worse i have to get groceries after work which i'm sure will be extremely painful as everyone is out and about doing last minute shopping so the lines will be crazy i'm sure. so not looking forward to it.

also this is my first thanksgiving that my fam dam is away it's just me and hubby as my mom and dad are visiting my sister so that's kinda weird in a way as i'm going to miss my mom's cooking. but i still get to eat at the in-law's on sunday so i'm sure i'll have some stories as it's usually quite painful yet amuzing at the same time as they are so different from my family.

so this weekend should be a good one despite the fact that it's going to rain and be cold

i'm hoping to

eat some turkey and have at least 1 piece of someone's apple pie (never as good as mom's but i still love apple pie...)
sleep like i've never slept before
get drunk and party hardy with jilly bean as she is home for the long weekend
finish reading the clan of the cave bear series (still have 2 books to go) so lot's of reading to do!
sleep a little more
and just relax and mabye drink a little more.......

take care all

later

Thursday, October 06, 2005

not so into

so i'm not so into techonology, i mean i am but not overly so. i don't know how to take photo's from my digital camera and put them onto a computer, i don't know how to download music, i wouldn't even know how to run an mp3 player, i don't know how to make my blog all fancy dancey with links, pics and all that fun stuff i would like to learn but quite honestly i don't have the patience and my computer at home sucks the big one so sorry there won't be any pics on my blog page :(

not so into rap music, i am when they have a catchy little chorus or a wicked beat and a more pop sound but the hardcore rap nope not my thing

not so into slim fitted tappered pants i have heard rumours that these are back in style and i hope to god it's not true. say it aint so!!!

not so into jennifer love hewitts new show such a rip off of medium not even funny plus i just hate her so do not watch this show is you want to watch a good show with ghosts and psycic powers watch medium on NBC

not so into doing math in my head. i've always sucked at doing math and hated it throughout my school years and i hate it when pps put me on the spot. thank god for calculators is all i have to say

not so into bon jovi's new song i know i've dissed it already but gish can't you old 80's bands go away already

not so into tom cruise and katie holmes this is such a scam and now they are pregnant! ha, what an ass. he has diminshed rapidly in my eyes since this whole tomkat began and then the whole comment thing about broke sheilds and scientology and aliens, what an ass, why do we still watch still watch his movies we should be boycotting so he can go away already

so not into working today. blah wanna go home and wish it was friday

1 more day til the weekend

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

bits and bites

so excited and happy as i finally can get my mop (aka my hair) cut and highlighted. i'm in desperate need of a cut as my hair has been flat, wild and driving me nuts now for weeks so i'm stoked to get a new "do" plus i just love chatting it up with jackie (the best hairdresser EVER!)

looks like i may not be going to the big city again as mom and dad are now in the talks of going out to Kingston to visit my sister over the long weekend. so another shopping trip postponed yet again hopefully i will get there before the end of the month. sigh.

day number three of the diet is going well eating in today just wish i hadn't forgot my book at home so i'm not sure what i will do for 1 hr and i can't really leave early as my hair appt is not until 5:45 not even sure what i will do to kill that 30 min.....just hope i'm not tempted to eat out that's the challenge

ok is anyone else watching Supernatural on the WB (or ASN for us Atlantic Canadians) ???? if not u have to watch this show not only is it a really good show but the lead guy Jensen Ackles (formerlly lana's b-friend from Smallville and years ago he was on DOOL) is a super hottie. like drool worthy hot. omg he's so fine you cannot take your eyes off of him the entire time yum and he was in boxer shorts last night omg!!!! ladies you have to check out this show, trust me

can't wait for lost tonight hope it's a good episode which i'm sure it will be

is it just me or does this season of amazing race look really dumb, the whole family thing?? i haven't tuned in once just not interested plus it can't compair to rob & amber love those two!!

isn't this weather fantastic!! so awsome and can't beleive it's this warm although it probaly won't last long i'm lovin every minute of it while it lasts

so i think they are going to give me more stuff to do at work which is great and i'm glad and all but yet at the same time part of me is sad.....no i take that back i'd rather be busy any day than bored and staring at walls.................

two more days til a long weekend. yippee!!!

what's not to be happy about??

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

lean, mean, fighting machine

this is what i hope no better yet determined to become.

i want abs of steel and a firm tight ass not thunder thighs and a budda belly (which is what i have now). yup it's day two of my actual diet and gasp!! i actually walked the dogs last night omg i'm so impressed with myself and i hope i can keep this momentum going and work out if not every night than every other.

some rules that i must follow if i am to suceed:

drink lot's and lot's of water to the point that i can't take anymore. doing well so far i have my little bottle of water that i can't help but stare at all day at work and i'm trying to get 4 of these in a work day (not including what i would drink at home) and have only achieved 3 thus far hoping to get to 4 though

no eating out mabye once every two weeks if that. so far so good this week........

no eating after 7pm (did this all last week and feel so much better in the mornings huge difference!)

exercise get moving anything. just need to be active.

so yeah i'm in diet mode and i hope to god it works and i see a difference soon

going shopping with my mom this weekend hoping to get an outfit or two and some halloween decorations and stuff so lot's of $$ will be spent. can't wait.

on a downer note think i'm getting a bug or something or it could just plain be mentrual cramps but i'm draggy and slow today and hurt everywhere and my throat is somewhat sore. so hope i'm not getting sick as i haven't been sick in like a year or more.

anyways that's it, happy tuesday!!

Friday, September 30, 2005

you might be a little overweight if.........

(these apply to myself and myself alone)

you might be a little overweight if your blouse your wearing gapes at every button every time you move or slouch a little. giving the perverts in your office a "nice" little peek at your breasts and fat rolls on your stomache.

you might be a little overweight if you go to put on your favorite pair of boots and you are unable to zip them up the entire way as your calves are just either a) to muscular or b) a little rounder than this time last year (i prefer to hope that they are muscular but i know they are not as i don't work out.....)

you might be a little overweight if the pants you used to wear quite frequently cut into you rather painfully in the middle but they fit fine everywhere else.

you might be a little overweight if your only pair of jeans looks like you have literally been poured into them with a little extra overflowing around the waist. but sense they are your only pair of jeans you wear them anyways, despite the fact that you know they look awful and don't flatter you in the least.

you might be a little overweight if while your eating you know that you should stop as you are getting full but yet you continue to clean off your plate as your parents and or grandparents always used to threaten you as a child to finish your plate as there are plenty of "starving" children all over the world that could live for weeks on what i would be wasting if i did not eat it. so i continue to clean off my plate and hate myself for it.......

you might be a little overweight if you continue to say to yourself i'll start my diet next week

you might be a little overweight if you know that you shouldn't give into temptation and eat that raw cookie dough but your craving it sooooo badly that you just don't give a damn about your waistline and to hell with that diet! heck i'm not dieting until monday anyways so why not!!

Thursday, September 29, 2005

going CRAZY

you know i have often heard people say that if a person thinks they are going crazy then they are not crazy but i beg to differ.

i think i have reached the tip of my ice berg.

i'm bored out of my mind at work and at home. all we've been doing is watching t.v. (which i love) but it's getting kinda mundane. the job is non challenging and all i do is answer the phone and some filing which puts me to sleep. i've asked a few pps for some stuff to do and nothing!!! give me something, ANYTHING. i need more!!! so i'm left to either a)chatting on msn (which they are ok with) or b) serfing the net (not so sure they are ok with) but what else am i to do stare at the walls?

constantly restless but have no energy to do anything about it. remember my walk from yesterday. ha!!! so did not move off the couch just like i said i wouldn't but i could not get off my ass and out the door even though part of me wanted too.....

i talk to myself and will laugh at myself if i do something stupid. most times it's while i'm driving in my car. like when i happen to run up over a curb or cut someone off. yeah nothing but good times with me and my alter ego.

i'm paranoid about everything like work (don't make enough money, nobody tells me anything, nobody trained me, what am i supposed to be doing), life at home (hubby not really talking lately), money (never enough) you name it i think that there's a hidden agenda or something wrong.

sleep deprived yet i'm always tired

will cry over nothing or anything that sets me off and then i cannot stop and i will laugh at myself for crying over nothing. ha ha ha look at you cry baby! then i just cry some more............

i think i need anti depressants or some kind of drug, i'm in for a long winter

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

hump day

yup it's wednesday aka hump day. i never got why pps referred to it as thus but it makes sense now. not quite tues or thurs just in the middle like a hump.

sigh

not sure what to do with myself of late i'm so restless. i know that there is stuff that i could/should be doing here at work but i just can't seem to muster up the energy to do it. i started to sort through some files this morning and almost fell asleep so i gave that up and don't want to touch it again today as it's now like 3-4pm and that's so nappy time for me without doing something totally boring and mundane.

so i changed my template figured it was time for a change. i really like the green it's kinda soothing. oh and i finally figured out how to do links! so cool and rather impressed with myself!

looking forward to LOST again tonight. pretty bad when all you look forward to in life is a few t.v. shows.

planning to take dogs for a walk tonight when i get home as the weather turned out to be really quite nice and warm today. mind you when i get home i'll probably be unable to move from the couch but it's nice to think that i will............

anyways. not much else going on right now life is pretty boring.

i'm out

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

mumblings and grumblings

there are just some songs that need to be band from radio. want some examples?

here goes:

hey ya - outkast ~ man did i love this song when it first came out. shake it like a poloroid picture....then local stations picked it up like the end of summer and played it and played it. they still play at least twice a day and one of the radio host picked up this song except with different words in reference to hillbillies and it's sooooo annoying beyond words. hate it must go!!

old school love - divine brown ~ i never ever liked this song. hate it. yet they play it over and over. grates on my last nerves.

crazy in love - beyonce ~ they just love to ruin a good song don't they again overplayed waaaaaayyy to much. cannot stand it anymore.

crapbucket - k-os ~ now normally i enjoy k-os and i digged this song at first but again enough already, mabye i should be emailing our local radio station?? like they would listen.

have a nice day - bon jovi ~ first time i heard it i hate it. second time no better. they play this like 4 times a day. wrong on so many levels plus i don't like bon jovi (well he's hot but there song's suck).

matchbox twenty and or the lead singer, was his name?? hate them hate there songs. pls don't play them no more.

other forms of irritation today:

i was given the job to make up some flyers for work which i don't mind doing love it in fact but having to cut them up with the thing (you know from grade school that the teacher's use) where you line them up and cut them in half with the huge blade....? am i making sense? probably not oh well, anyways i hate these and i mean hate this piece of office equipment. every time i cut a piece of paper it's crooked even though i'm lining it up with the lines on my paper and the lines on the piece of crap. crooked. grrrr no wonder my eye is twitching. plus to make matters worse this machine has haunted me from my first admin job as my old boss was such a precise/picky ass and lectured me several times on how to keep it straight, blah blah blah. it's a piece of paper who cares????!!!!!! so now every time i use this stupid thing (what's the proper name anyone??) i think of that bastard. and again anger rises within me and my eye twitch's.

i have no wardrobe and desperatly need to go shopping for pants espically since my waistline is not going to be diminishing anytime soon. not only is that an issue but i have no hip/trendy clothes. they are all just blah or old looking as i have had them for like 5 years. must go shopping will hopefully go this sat if i can get someone to go with. only problem is i will have to use credit card as i'm poor and this only makes me more depressed. sigh. it never ends. but i have to have new clothes, i must!

can you believe it's the end of september already? where the heck did the summer and time go? i'm having a major issue adjusting to the new weather and waking up in the dark in the mornings is not fun. so cannot get my ass out of bed in the mornings.........

praying that my old piece of crap car will get me through the winter. hey better yet pray for me i'm sure it's a death trap. it rattles and shakes and vibrates and goes it. i'm sure something will brake in the next month or two it's been awhile since something has happend.

Monday, September 26, 2005

cold, wet, damp ~ ucky monday

monday again. ugh!!! how i hate monday's.

not only is this monday crappy enough it's rainy, windy, damp and cold.

now that i mention it not only do i hate monday's but i hate fall. because you see fall leads to winter and that does not make me happy. another thing that does not make me happy is "hunting" season which has begun. everywhere you look (trust me you don't have to look hard in my area) you see men in trucks everywhere sporting the lovely fashionable hunter's orange hats and camoflauge jackets, pants and boots too! oh how fun!!

so the boys got there big old bull moose ~ how exciting!!!!!!! not. how bout how disgusting. poor little ole moosey, well okay he wasn't little but you get my drift. i just don't agree with the whole hunting thing i mean it's not like we have to hunt now-a-days to live/eat do we? were not in the olden days anymore so why slaughter an animal for it's antlers and what little meat you get off of it? "it's a sport" my hubby says. blah blah blah. i hate it. he loves it. something i'm going to have to get over and used to i'm afraid. still doesn't mean i have to like it though.

so i spent my weekend alone. doing nothing for once and ahhhh the peace and quiet. so nice to have a break for a change.

my mom's b-day was yesterday so we all got together for dinner & b-day cake. mmmmm chocolate cake. yum yum. it's also my cousin tommy's b-day today. so happy birthday to him!

well not much else new really have nothing funny or amuzing to write today it's just so BLAH. don't wanna be working today rather be home curled up in bed, ah well the things we do to earn a dollar.

Friday, September 23, 2005

all about Me

i hold my pen wrong and everyone always comments on it, my grade four teacher Mrs. Farrell used to come around the classroom watching everyone as they worked and she would always tap my desk with her ruler and say "your not holding your pencil properly". if only she could see me today!

i have asthma and was really quite sickly as a child, in and out of the hospital having allergy tests and on an aersol machine until i was a teenager. i still have it but i tell myself that i don't and most times i'm fine except when my allergies flair up or when it's really cold i always cough.

i give blood every 2-3 months as i have a rare blood type.

i wish that i could have lived through the original 1969 Woodstock concert. i love this era and i truly belive that i am reincarnated from this time as i love the music, fashion, the whole vibe of it all as everything was changing.

i am very insecure and have no self confidence in myself and i constantly compare myself with others which sucks and i wish i would stop doing it.

i have an uncanny resemblance to my late grandmother it's eerie as i kid everyone would tell me this and i would get so embarssed and mad as i just wanted to be me but now that she's gone i truly feel honored and even closer to her. i miss her terribly and think of her everyday.

i was quiet and shy all through elementary school and had very few friends. even to this day i take awhile to warm up to people and talk to them. not so much shy i just don't talk all that much to pps i don't know. i'm very much like my dad in this way.

as stated above i resemble my dad's mom and have my dad's nose but i have all of my mother's personality traits. i was first very disturbed by this revalation (nobody wants to act like their mom) but i've grown used to it and really who else in the world would i want to be like anyways.

im not religous and do not go to church but i do believe that there is something BIGGER guiding us. i just don't feel you have to sit in church to show your beliefs. you can meditate, walk in the woods, lock yourself in a room to think, whatever it may be you can still be spirtual without going to church.

i've also never read the bible and hardly know anything about it.

i feel really bad for saying all this but it's how i feel (i'm so going to hell!)

my most embarssing moment happend when i was in grade seven. it was at a school dance and i finally got up enough nerve to ask the guy that i liked and whom i liked from like grade 4 thru grade 8 to dance. so we danced and i was in absolte heaven the whole time and then the song is over and we break apart and he's walking away when another girl (much older) comes over and pulls me aside to tell me that i have "something" on the back of my pants. i immediately run to the bathroom to discover that i had started my period (which i only started at the beginning of that year) and i was soaked right through my jeans. i had a huge red blob on my ass and i did not want to leave that bathroom. luckily in my haste to run to the bathroom i had grabbed my coat and i tied it around my waist to slink back into the dance. i sat in the corner the rest of the evening and prayed for it to be over. to this day i don't know if he ever knew but i'm sure he did and of course he never ever liked me there was always someone prettier or cooler, i don't even know if he knew that i liked him.

i was always jealous of my older sister. she was smarter much smarter and so pretty she could be a model cause she's tall and just so amazing. i finally got over this when she went to college but all thru high school i was so jealous.

my favorite color's are purple and blue

my favorite seasome street character's were ernie, oscar and grover he's way cooler than elmo

i love my mom's apple pie

i hate to buy groceries and i always spend way to much money as i'm not a "smart" shopper and i don't look for the best buy.

i've never had the chicken pocks and now i'm terrified to get them.

i'm really, really missing jilly and hope she is doing well in the big city.

i'm out have a good weekend pps!! :)

Thursday, September 22, 2005

forgive me waistline for i have sinned

i'm a weak, weak person

i gave into temptation today and now i'm feeling tremendously guilty.

it's thursday today aka Quarter Pounder day at McDonald's (the dreaded evil bastards.....) and of course i just had to have it. sigh. why do i do this to myself? i've been good it's been at leats 3 weeks since my last sinful indulgence. but i'm swearing right here and now that this is the last, LAST time I promise. no more.

so to make up for my bad behaviour i am not going to eat supper as i consumed enough calories and then some this afternoon.

other mumblings and grumblings.........

tons and tons of rumors circulating that gas prices are on the rise once again, i have heard several different amounts ranging from $1.79 - $2.25 per litre. supposably it's $2.20 in Halifax and $1.79 in Moncton. everyone here is racing to fill up and the line ups are un-real, unlike anything i have ever seen. all of this is supposed to be because of hurricane rita, mabye pps are just freaking out or mabye there is truth behind it who knows but i filled up my car.

LOST was really great last night, nice to see what's in the hatch but there are still lot's of questions and new questions like who is desmond and what is he doing there? and the whole walt thing totally freaked me out. good job guys and keep it up. i love this show!!!

a bit disappointed though of Invasion. commercials looked really awsome but it just fell flat. it was ok but not that great, i think what ruined it was the young girl rose she annoyed the heck out of me. the whole alien thing though is cool though but if you want to check out a really good alien show check out Threshold on CBS friday nights. this show blew me away last week was so good and creepy reminds me of the x-files.

it's moose season in new brunswick (yippe ~ not) oh how i hate this time of year. so hubby is out and about being all manly guiding/hunting moose. so i'm home alone until probably saturday night, which has it's advantages and disadvantages.

so that's a wrap