i'm beginning to think that i have multiple personalities floating around in my brain just itching to get out and take on the world
Monday, August 14, 2006
you know your going to have a great day when
~you can't find a damn thing to wear to work
~your hair just won't style the way you want it to, and you look like you have electrucuted yourself
~not only are you nauseous while at work, you have also vomitted not once but twice and feel the urge to do so again at any moment of time
~you are whiter than the white shirt you are wearing
~your head is pounding like no tomorrow
~your wishing you were back home in bed
~your hands are cold and clamy
~you've got splatters of (purple, yes purple due to me eating grapes prior to vomitting, i'm hoping if anyone asks i'll just say it's purple kool-aid) vomit on your white shirt and are praying that nobody notices that or your skanky ass vomit breath
~and guess what it's not even noon yet
~sigh~
*update - 2 hrs later
not only am i still feelin all sicky and nauseous i think i just Shat my pants, as i now seem to have the runs. yeah. nice. and while some of you may be finding humour in this i'm not laughing (well mabye part of me is chuckling) but still! so, whomever out there put this god awful curse on me to be sick like every day or every other day. i hate you. i put this curse back on you 10 fold.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
it's PICTURE time!!!
here's a pic of our fab campsite:
here's a shot of Cabot Beach:
here's a shot of the sunset from our view from our deep sea fishing boat:
me and my hubby (yes, i actually fished, i'm not just holding the pole for the picture...):
me again....(nicole ritchie eat your heart out! :P) :
me in the car, packed up and ready to leave:
and i had to post a pic from my birthday, this is me opening my gift from my sissy and i almost peed my pants after i opened it (i actually squeeled like a pig) as she had gotten me a collection of Miss Julie Garwoods romance novels that i've been dying to have now for months.....thank god for sister's is all i can say. thanks sissy you really made my b-day!!
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
it's my b-day
I - Irritated, with this godamn cold
R - really anxious for the (work) day to be over
T - Thoroughly amused with myself as nobody here at work knows it's my birthday
H - Hella Good, as in feelin hella good cuz it's my b-day
D - duh, cake, as in ice cream cake, mmmmmm
A - anger, although slight at a) having to work and b) having to cover off at the front desk
Y - yet another year gone by, not so sure this is a good thing
G - Giddy, beyond belief
I - Impatient, god will this (work) day ever be over? geez
R - Ready to blow this joint
L - Lovin every minute & second of this day
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
sicker than a dog
and to make matters worse hubby and i were planning to go to Prince Edward Island for the long weekend coming up. which means that this bloody cold that hit me yesterday had better be gone and pronto. i look like i've been on a week long bender and then some, my eyes are all puffed up and running (yeah like eww) along with my runny nose, which thankfully hasn't hit it's "red" phase yet but i'm sure it will be by tomorrow. and tired. omg i don't think i've ever, EVER been this tired
this so suxs right now
i should be happy and frolicking about cause it's summer time and not only that it's August and my birthday's next week and it's the bestest month out of the whole year and i'm totally whining right now but i'm sick! and it's so not FAIR
so now i'm trying to pin point the evil doer/carrier that gave me this god-for-saken cold, and of course my paranoid mind thinks that i'm in SK's (stephen kings) book "the Stand" (awsome book by the way and you should totally check it out if you haven't yet) and that i'm dying of captin trips, sigh, why!?
why!!!!
i'm going to blow my nose now ~sniff~ and mabye cry a little
Monday, July 31, 2006
teensy weensy little white lies
for example:
my boss likes things perfect and when he asks you to do something you jump and then bitch about it later. now normally i'm not an ass kisser but with him i do as he says and just deal with it. so the other day i had to run out and do some errands and he asked me to pick him up his lunch and a pop (at two different locations) and perhaps if i had some of his money left over to get him a piece of pie. well i got the sandwhich and the pop (soda for you yankees) and while in line for the pop, looked over to the side where the restaurant is (this is a convenience store/restaurant in one) and just decided to hell with the pie, it's bloody hot and i have no AC in my car and my face is all red and i really don't give a rats ass if he has his pie or not so i'll just say that there was a really, really, really long line up at the cash register and that was that i turned around and left and what do you know my lil white lie worked! he didn't know any different! brillant!!!
another example is when a friend or fellow co-worker gets a new do, aka "hair do", you all know what i'm talking about and in fact this has me doubting my latest "do" but that's a story and possibly picture for another day.....anyhoo this girl at my office about a month ago got her hair cut, styled and colored, not her normal hair color i might add she put blue streaks in her red hair. like who the hell does that? a 12 year old? anyway, i was so like "omg your hair looks so wicked! when really in my head i'm screaming "OMFG who the hell puts blue, BLUE streaks in their hair! how hideous!!!" all the while with a perfectly straight face
or telling evil brillo head girl downstairs that her skirt is super cute and sooo flattering to her figure, when really you can see thru it and the big pink flowers on it look like gigantic heads and can barely stand to look at her with a straight face, let alone give her a compliment, sigh i'm such a bitch but honestly i just can't help it
some other brief examples are when people ask me if i saw something i totally lie and say i have or sometimes i have even blamed things that i have done wrong on evil brillo head girl downstairs, although i'm not really working with her now so i guess that's out, which so sux's
anyways,
i'm totally out of steam now and it's wicked nice out here and i think i may just take my two hound dogs for a W A L K, imagine me exercising! better get to it before the energy leaves me
peace out biatches!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
must not eat...must not eat
ok wait
must think of reasons to not eat, umm
i have to at least lose 5 pounds before my cousins wedding in august
i'm tired of my fat rolll and having to suck it in all the bloody time
i think i now have a double chin
and my arms are freaking huge
so yeah that's somewhat better but i still want that damn bag of popcorn
dammit i thought that would help ~ well guess i'll resume the mantra
must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat have to lose 15 pounds must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat
god am i still typing must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat but it's only popcorn must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat ok i'm stopping now must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat must not eat no really i am
UPDATE
so i totally caved and ate the bag of popcorn, i just had to i mean come on Big Brother All Stars was on and i just had to have something to celebrate that fact.....right......??..dammit that's another diet down the shit hole
Friday, July 21, 2006
my "laminated" list
so you may be asking what the heck is a laminated list? well your in luck as you are about to find out, or if your like me and a total t.v. junkie i'm sure you already know where i'm going with this. in case you aren't a t.v. crack whore junkie like me, the laminated list comes from a little old show called Friends. the reasoning behind the list was that the said couple (rachel & ross i do believe) could make up a list of 5 celebs in that they could so have an affair with and the other couldn't be mad about it, as it was on the laminated list.
so just in case (you never, ever know) i ever run into a classified celeb here is my top 5 laminated list. i was oringally only going to post one pic but then i thought to myself why only one when we could double the fun!
#5 (but not really my #5 as i fucked up my order of pictures so he's really #3)
oh, legolas you could take me far, far away off into the elvin forest any day, with just me and you and the squirrels living in our peaceful little forest by a rolling misting river, you could catch our food with your bow and arrows and play the flute by a fire in the evenings.............sorry i got caught up in my little elvin fantasy there what can i say about Orlando? luv the long blonde hair in this pic, luv the piercing blue eyes (ahem contacts), but more importantly i totally dig the whole "elf" & "one with nature" thing
mind you he also looks extremely hot & steamy in this pic as well, sans blonde hair and blue eyes.this picture really speaks to me sort of like
i'm going to take you now, ever so slowly as i undress you with my eyes first and then my hands, softly, ever so softly........
WHAT! sorry again getting a litle carried away i'll try to stick with a PG version but seriousily this boy is YUMMY, and sure he may look a little femine sometimes, and sure he's probably smaller/skinner than i am but he's so on my list
#5 (the real one)

Josh Holloway, aka hottie Sawyer on LOST and reason number 115 as to why i love that show is that he's contantly walking around with no shirt on and i totally dig the shoulder length blonde hair (in fact i'm realizing i dig the longer hair more and more often, total turn on, but not fabio long that's just ~shudders~ nasty and wrong on so many levels)
so i'm assuming this pic must be a promo for LOST hence the beach in the back ground, but he looks oh so steamy in that sexy little black shirt
and here's a better close up of just how yummy he really is! and with stuble i might add!is it hot in here?
and were only getting started
#4 - Justin Timberlake


DAMN! who knew he had all that under there! now that is some fine ass american meat right there! i only wish he would've pulled his pants oh so much lower.......did i just say that out loud? whoops! i think i prefer him with the shaved head look though, it makes him look ruff & tough, although his curly locks are rather sexy too in a more boyish way. either way i wouldn't kick him out of bed for eating crackers and poor brit brit is sure kicking her self in the ass now that she's stuck with k-fed. girl what the hell were you thinking??
# 2 - Bad Boy Johnny Depp
this is one crush that steams way back for me, or at least after i saw Edward Scissorhandsand as the years progress he just gets better and better
who cares that he's married (or lives with) some french chick and has kids! he just screams sex appeal, and once again i prefer him with a tad longer hair style, and the facial hair is another bonus point, oh and the tattoos and the list goes on and on and on
once again the scruffy look, only this time with a bit more of a preppy look going on, which i must say he also pulls of rather wellmmmmmmmmmm
i could stare into those eyes forever and ever
and lastly numero uno Ryan Gosling


I originally fell in love with Ryan back when he was on a small little Canadian T.V. show called Breaker High in which he literally stole the show, his character was the cute shy guy that never got the girl but yet he was funny, wity and so charasmatic.
i didn't see him again until the movie murder by numbers, and he again blew me away not only with his looks but with his acting as he is truly talented and is going to be huge some day, it's just a matter of time
and then of course he was in a little movie called the Notebook and that just sealed his and mines fates for ever right then and there. HOTT with two t's is all i can say and the chemistry between him and Rachel McAdams was very obivious and hence the reason i'm sure they are together today (lucky girl), with a beard or whithout i would so do nasty things to this guy, or at least in my dreams anyways!
so there's my list, sorry guys i'm sure it wasn't that exciting for you but here's your challenge come up with a list of your own and post it
anyways suckers i'm out, i'll probably be away a few days as i'm training the "new" girl to replace me on the front lines and i begin ~gasp~ my new position probably mid week! scary as hell!
check ya later :P
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Tag ~ Your IT!
5 Things always in my purse:
1-wallet
2-lip gloss
3-pens
4-more lip gloss
5-lint
5 Things always in my wallet:
1-debit card
2-credit card
3-driver's liscense
4 - wedding picture (aww)
5 - pizza delight coupons
5 Things always in my refrigerator:
1-milk
2-diet coke
3-OJ
4- eggs
5-fruit
5 Things always in my closet:
1- t-shirts/tank tops
2-pants (casual & dressey)
3-shoes
4- 1 out of style prom dress
5- 1 baby shower gift that i never delivered that is still wrapped.....
5 Things always in my car:
1-sunglasses
2- CD's
3-napkins (usually from mcdonald's)
4- several empty water bottles
5 - 1 penny (for good luck)
5 (or more) Things always on my desk:
1- wedding picture
2-water bottle
3-kleenax (damn allergies)
4-stapler
5- mounds and mounds of paper
5 people i'm tagging (you are now it!)
Barry
Jimmy
McBlogger
Mrs. Bee Otch (aka the Philospher)
Kleo
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Mulitiple Choice

nice huh so classy
take a guess that i am either:
a) the new spokewomen for Captin Morgan Rum ( i hear the acutally have some new yummy coolers out, which would so work for me, anyone that has any contacts with them.....hook me up!)
b) Keith Richards long lost daughter
c) headed for the crazy house as i've gone off my rocker and put on heavy, heavy medications to stop the twitchings and convulsations
d) recently diagnosed with not one but two lazy eyes
e) all of the above
f) none of the above this is just what i look like on a daily basis
you decide!!
Monday, July 17, 2006
oh the horror!
so most of you know from a previous post from awhile back that i can hold my pee for a long time which usually means that i avoid having to go to the dreaded public washroom, and oh how i hate to, no, better yet i should say i despise to use them but today on my way to my weekly allergy shot at my dr.'s office which just so happens to reside in an out-of-date building that is older than, well you get my drift and as i'm walking in to my appointment it hits me
gotta pee ~ gotta go right now ~ gotta pee pee ~ omg i have to pee like right now!
my bladder is screaming at me for release and i know, oh yes i know that i'm going to have to cave and give in to my urge to urinate as much as i hate to use there itsy bitsy teeny tiny "public" washroom just outside of my dr's office which by the way everyone can here you in there doing your "business", which just makes it every so much more horrifying. i'm in luck though as it's only shelley (admin) and some other lady who looks really nice (thankfully no kids, dirty people, or seniors) so i quickly go in shut the door (failing to notice that the door knob is hanging every so crookedly) and
ahhhhhhhhh
instant relief and i couldn't care less if the pope or the president heard me at this point
so i finish up, wash my hands, primp in the mirror and go to turn the knob to leave, only, hmm that's odd it won't open, i twist and i turn and i pull and nothing, NOTHING and i'm telling myself not to panic and remain calm when in fact i am doing none of the sort and there's this damn annoying fan going and i can't hear anything outside and i'm very near pounding down this piece of shit door when i faintly here shelley on the other side saying something and i'm like what? "i can't hear you", honestly this is like a scene from some t.v. show and i'm sure this would only ever, EVER possibly happen to me. visions of me spending the rest of the afternoon trapped in this godforsaken smelley, stinky ass bathroom flash thru my brain and my panic again rises another level, i'm twisting and turning when at the same time shelley is from the other side of the door, obivioisily we aren't getting anywhere's here
i then suddenly realize what i have to do, and oh boy i don't want to
i calmly stated to shelley to turn off the light, thus putting me into total darkness. and again those of you that know me know that i am terrified, no i should say scared to death of the dark but it's the only way i can hear for her to instruct me on what to do to get me outta this goddamn death trap!
and then i'm in the dark
trying oh so hard not to cry, laugh and scream at the same time
this was the longest 5 fucking minutes of my life i swear but praise baby jesus i got out, without them having to go and get the maintaince guy and thankfully it's still just shelley and this really nice women who made light of it all when really all i wanted to do was curl up in the fetal position and cry myself to sleep
i am so never, EVER going into a public washroom like that ever, ever again
i think that's my lesson learned for the day
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
book review
but i'm very dissapointed to say that i wasn't that big of a fan of the book i mean don't get me wrong it was still quite good, it had lots of funny "i can so relate" moments, but i was just lacking or mabye it was the fact that i had such high hopes or my constant comparison to Sophie Kinsella's series of Shop~a~holic books which just blew me away and i can re-read over and over and still laugh out loud each time.mabye it's the fact that i can't see why the lead character would stay in that job so long when her boss is such a bitch and how she completely wraps herself in her job and forgets about her family, boyfriend and best friend, when she totally hates it! i dunno there was just something missing
i'm still stoked to see the movie though as i've heard that miss meryl streep puts on an amazing performance and what girl wouldn't love a movie with flashy clothes, gorgeous shoes and beautiful people?
so out of 5 possible stars i'm giving this book a 2 1/2
i almost wish i would've read the book after seeing the movie now.........
Monday, July 10, 2006
cha CHING!!
you all know how a few weeks ago i was ranting and raving mad about my job and how i didn't think they would give me the promotion that i oh so desperately wanted...
well...............
i GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so not only am i done (well on a 3 month trial basis) as the ASS (admin assistant) of the company, but i get a raise and best of all, my own, very own OFFICE which i have never ever had and that alone just gets me tee heeing and extatic. so i am now going to be responsible for accounts payable and bank rec's and whatever else they throw my way. i am some what scared shitless as you all know i don't have a heavy work load at the moment and this will be a lot more work but i think i'm up for the challenge, or at least i'm going to give a really good go at it
so this probably means no more blogging from work, no more mindless surfing but thankfully i can still do this from home but somehow it's just not the same :(
or at least until i get into some sort of system/routine because let's face it everyone needs a break of some sort thru the day right??
anyways i just had to share my "good" news for a change
peace out bitches!
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
the exercise video
and i also couldn't be smart enough to acutally read the small print on the back of the box until after the said work out but that's irrelevant at this point
so i go home last night, feeling fat, bloated and all that jazz and i'm sitting there thinking to myself get off the couch and do something for the love of god when i just so happen to spy this video tape that i borrowed laying where i left it 2 weeks ago and i thought hmmm i should try this out. so i go and get changed into my work out gear which consists of spandex pants and my sports bra (so sexy!) and i'm getting pumped at the prospect of getting lean and mean by doing this pilates work out and visions of me in my new "fit" state prancing around in a bikini flash thru my head as i pop the video tape in and press play ~ and oh look at all these beautiful fit people i'll look just like them!
and then were really going at it, like full force umm where was the warm up? did i miss something?
lunges and sqauts and stretches, oh my!
and the main girl is really quite irritating and kept saying stuff like "if you want to kick it up a notch" and "keep going" and "four more", i really wanted to punch this bitch in the head. i'm panting and really starting to sweat when she's like it's time to move on to the "abs" so let's sit on the floor (oh thank god i really don't think i could do another squat) and i'm so greatful to just be on the floor and having no clue what i was in for next i was sort of giddy at the moment (must've been the happy endorfins kicking in)
i can't really explain what happend next besides the fact that they had me laying on the floor, with one leg stretched out in front of me about an inch off the floor and the other leg being held by the hamstring as close to my head as feesably possible (which wasn't that close) and then they started what they call the "scissor" where you rotate from leg to leg (without bending) and again as close to your head as possible. some of these girls were touching there legs to there head! imagine. well i wasn't, i did well to just get the damn leg halfway there and omg the burn, the BURN and the PAIN! i had to stop as i felt fer sure i was going to vomit and i was so sweaty i had stuck to my laminite flooring, i had to grab onto one of my german shepards to pull myself off the floor as i was spent and those stupid ass bitches are still going at it! i quickly grabbed the remote and turned that evil, EVIL specimen off.
so much for that
Monday, July 03, 2006
as promised
these first few ones are from the beautiful Toronto Zoo

you know i just can never resist getting on these sort of things.......i believe this one is a rhino, and i'm sporting some sexy sweet ass hair that was soaked with sweat as it was like well over 30+ degrees out
my favorite animal and the king of the jungle the lions (and my zodiac sign) truly stunning and magnificent
thought this one was so cute! a mama gorilla and her baby which jumped on her back as they went into there feeding area
on the day that we were there the hippo was about the only animal that was awake and putting on a show he was really splashing and thrashing around and i got this fab shot of him with his mouth wide open
me posing in front of the much music satilite dish. they had all these barricades up for the MMVA's that were on later that night
and then the gates of heaven opened up and there was.....
the bestest, greatest, fantastic store of all. it was like a candy store (only it's makeup) for grown up women only times that by 20. i was speechless and didn't know where to start in here and ended up restraining myself pretty well and only walking away with some Frederick Fekki hair glossing cream and some Hollywood Glow which i still think came to over $60 but like that matters!! so giddy and had such a rush afterwords.
if only i could do that every day
mabye it's a good thing i can't....anyways hope you enjoyed the pics and i hope your all having a fabulous long weekend (mines about over and i'm back to work tomorrow. boo!) but that's how she goes
check ya later!
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
whatever pops into my head at this moment in time
i almost just choked on a cracker while trying to answer that "annoying" office phone
you don't believe me about the choking thing do you but really i almost did........in fact i still think it's lodged in my throat somewhere
our local crap-ola of a radio station is currently playing "let's get it started" by the black eyed peas. like hello that was so last year.
i would luv to have my own radio station or better yet be a radio host that must be a fun job, course anything is better than what i'm currently doing.
although i shouldn't really complain because usually the last hour of work (4-5) i do nothing, no really i don't i usually either a)blog (like now) b) pretend to be doing constructive work c) chat on msn to a fellow co-worker or my mommy or d) stare off into space while appearing deep in thought or e) all of the above but usually i just blog or blog surf
i think i've recently become a compulsive eater i just ate half a bag of crackers in 2 minutes. that's so wrong and i just had to hide them in a desk drawer to make myself stop. nice.
it's freezing here in our office today and i'm so thankful i did not shave my legs this morning even though i am wearing capri's and people can see the hair. every 5 seconds i take a chill and it grows another millimeter half an inch whatever but i woudl be so pissed if i just shaved to have it grow back in a day!
i hate to shave, in fact i would start waxing but a) the pain b)$$ and c) the PAIN
total wimp
my dog chased a mentally handicapped man this morning and i spit my cereal out laughing at the site (i know i know i shouldn't be like that but c'mon i just couldn't help it and he's my neighbor so it's OK)
my cute kick ass black sandals which i truly love and feel so HOTT in, kill my feet. i can hardly walk 5 steps now, i think my feet must swell up thru the day or something cause by 5 they really, really hurt
is it wrong for me to pluck my eyebrow's in my car? this seems to be the best lighting and best mirror for me to take at my bushy eyebrows. going to attempt this tonight while the hubby is away and nobody's around to see me look so silly.
did i mention that this weekend is July 1? Canada day = big drunk weekend also means that our local community is holding a dance which gives me the opportunity to dance.
the song "all she wants to do is dance, dance" just ran thru my head. no idea who sings this or what the actual song title is called
i don't think i could possibly chew my nails any shorter yet here they are in my mouth with me chewing on them.....well not at this second as i'm typing but you get my drift
everytime i look at the clock only a few minutes has gone by and i keep telling myself not to look but i still do which is soooo annoying
canadian idol has begun for another season (the debuted the top 11 guys) and honestly i was so bored with it last night i gave up over half way thru the guys performances. the talent seems good but the show is just lacking something. mabye it's the host or the judges i dunno but it sucks BIG TIME compared to the american show. i know they probably have no where near the budget that the U.S. show does but comon you should've fired ben back on the 1st season he's soooo bad! i can't even stand to look at him and he's so akward he makes me want to barf.
omg 15 minutes to burn
well i guess i'm going to go with option c)
check ya later
Monday, June 26, 2006
H to the izzo
a few quick highlights though:
duh! seeing my sissy
the Toronto zoo (pics to follow...although they aren't that great)
laughing until tears streamed down my face at a video that jilly captured of my mom, and we proceeded to watch it over and over and over and laughing harder each time.....
scoping out MuchMusic! finally and we got to see them setting up for the MMVA's so cool!
the Eaton Centre which leads to....
SEPHORA! I died and went to heaven
not so cool highlights:
the fighting, screaming, yelling, crying hissy fits,
and temper tantrums
that each and every one of us threw at some point
getting lost not once but twice in Kingston and having to call my sissy to come get us
almost (this close) to causing an accident in which we all would've DIED on the main freeway to Toronto
almost being held buy gun/knife point by a homeless weirdo.............
well not really but he was really scary and strung out on something and he so could've! you just never know with those homeless pps!!
the heat. omg it was so bloody hot! like it was insane i've never felt anything like it! thank god for country breezes is all i have to say
not going up the CN Tower even though we were RIGHT THERE!
our crappy ass hotel (ahem RAMADA) in downtown Toronto (ahem 300 Jarvis Street) if you are planning on going to Toronto do not, i Repeat DO NOT STAY HERE! was the wurst hotel ever!
stuipd ass outlet centre (cannot recall name, Dairy, Dearie....help me jilly here.....) that was so not an outlet centre! FALSE ADVERTISING! there were only like 3 in the whole GODDAMN MALL!
oh
and the 2 hrs of sleep that i got on the way home
and did i mention i was sick the WHOLE FRIGGIN TIME!
because a stuipd co-worker of mine refused to call in sick and spread all her germs in the office thus infecting me and my hubby
BIATCH!
good times, good times
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
20 minutes and counting
and i cannot possibly work anymore today
my desk is all cleaned off, i've got all my shit (ahem work) caught up and
now it's just a matter of minutes and i'm outta here!
~tick tock ~ goes my clock
now pray for nice weather, good luck and fortune
oh and the odd shopping bargain/steal
i'm outta here pps see ya next week sometime (i'm sure i'll have a lot of catching up to do)
peace out :0)
quickie
3 hrs
and then i'm off for
5 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and to top that wonderfull prize off i'm going to Ontario to see my sissy!
and oh yeah shop like i've never shopped before!
tee hee
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
shhh can u keep a secret
i cannot stand the smell of tuna it makes me gag
which is weird cause i don't have a sensitive gag reflux.....wink wink (HA HA)
i hate it when people always call me "cute" or the "quiet one"
i feel that a lot of my friends and or family do not know the real me
i would say that i am fake with quite a few people
i secretly really like Paris Hilton's new song even though i cannot stand her. the video is way hilarous though you must check it out if you are in need of a laugh
i can't cook
i don't ever sew or iron anything (i don't even know where my iron is)
i can do laundry though, that's at least something
and i do clean.......at least sometimes, usually when i know people will be over
i only brush my teeth twice a day and i never floss
i'm addicted to tanning beds but i only allow myself to go twice a week
that's only when i can afford to go
i will only use tampons when it's that time of the month i plain out refuse to buy pads. uck!
sometimes i wonder what the heck i'm doing with my life
other times i'm pretty content
Canadian Idol really blows this year & the judges are just plain rude/mean so thinking of not wathcing this year (i'll give it one more week)
i'm scared shitless at even the thought of having children/giving birth
i despise living pay check to pay check and it drives me insane
no really it does even though i have no control over it.....well i do sorta but we just can't seem to stop spending
i usually get my way
and pitch a holy ole fit if i don't get it
i luv listening to the oldie's there are some wicked tunes from that time and you just don't get them now-a-days, truly you don't
i still don't know what i want to be when i grow up
some of my favorite shows when i was a kid were Seasme Street, Mr. Dress Up, Reading Rainbow, Mr. Rogers
i don't really remember a lot from my childhood, it's a blank except for the odd memory here or there or when someone says "remember when" (must've been all that weed i smoked from 18-20)
i haven't smoked a joint in months, in fact it's probably more like a year
i have tons of stuff to do today but i just had to take 30 minutes to chill and de-stress
at the office people tell me when they come/go and i'm supposed to make a note of it so that if anyone calls then someone knows where they are......i so don't do this.....in fact when they tell me they are leaving i'm silently thinking in my head "i don't give a sweet f@!*#!"
i forget stuff a lot too
and i'm so not observant
in fact i really don't know why i picked this career choice as it's so not right for me but yet at the same time it somehow is. weird
~i'm out~
Thursday, June 08, 2006
more bad, sad, just plain awful news
to say i'm numb isn't even the right word that i want to use right now
stunned, shocked, mortified, speechless
i'm hurting/aching for my aunt, my cousins and my dad
but most of all for his granddaughter whom him and my aunt basically adopted as there own daughter couldn't/didn't want to raise her and she was the light of his life and vice versa.
to many words are trying to surface right now but all i want/need to say is Goodbye uncle Orv (his name was Orville), i'll see you again

